My L^V Alec

(falling sick...)
Tuesday, May 31, 2005

collected my pay of 901.44 bucks... and i just realsie something deep in me today... i hate bdays... iz kind of sad.. tt whenevre pple's bday i took so much effort to organise and tots yet iz such stuff i myself had... hmmm....sad.... i'm tearing... wahhhhhh! F* lah....

okie tml i'm going back hanabi to celebrate emily's bday haha at 9.45...hmmm think she going like clubbing but no way for me... and then ya lah... hmmm gotta get her a present.. ARGH* I HATE BIRTHDAYS! hmmm but exceptional for my mum's... hmmm coz dad not ard and i think me working i shld give her a treat.. then supposed tt mum treating us as in we having a dinner tog tml...but sis can't make it so ya... hmmm sux*

alex pei me went to collect pay.. but then hmm things din turn out well i guess coz both of us were so tired and unwell.. and he's scared to pass the rashie to me... then i tot tml i can go walk walk with him... but no way now... coz he's having lesson till 5 then hmmm guess i gotta go alone... like wad he said sometimes shld be alone... hmmmm i kind of the time i spent alone... thinking nothing on the road... hmmm just plain walkiing... but tml i'm deciding on where to go ... hmmm i got stuff not done but kind of don't feel like doing... argh* sux...today i was quiet in sch friends asked if i'm OK? hmmm guess i'm totally fine but just down with flu... and lesson was like near 9 to 6 with just one hour break.. and the last tutorial sux coz we got stupid useless discussion... and then the whole day i'm sneezing and feeling SLEEPY*

hmmm btw the feeling back hanabi was great... coz i noe everyone and they ten me... yeah* hmmm wee and shino was back but she's just recovered from chicken pox.. so i shld like kind of distance away from her so i wun get or i shld stay near and then get it while i'm young... hmmmm... sian... tonight sux ba... hmmmm

my love life i rem during the self awareness lesson i told ming zhen while trying to introduce myself with this letter L... derived from A L E X J O Y... hmmm i told her my love life iz very impt to me... hmmmmmm today i had lots of tots... and many unhappy feelings came over me... hmmm i dunnoe wad i'm thinking too lah maybe i demand toooo much or wad ba... i seem to be telling him to ten me! EVERYDAY... i mean everytime we meet...haha* and there's lots of stuff in me... which me and me will noe only... i guess.... i dun understand the me... and i dun wan to....argh* maybe things are like this ba... when a r/s for quite sometimes it will turn out to be like this...???? maybe i dun feel confi at all ba............... = (

sad sad..................

everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, May 31, 2005

(wth*)
Monday, May 30, 2005

i woke up without realsing tt my lesson iz at 11 till my baby message me... hmmm sux* after working full shift for sat and sun... i'm damn shagz now... but hehe i fin my stuff and now i had done my min requirement of exercise and then i gonna search for my assignments... my net iz siao le... hmmm btw i have to work tonight.. coz i think they need pple to run the kaisei ki... by the way tt day YAn cai ni a ex hong kong actress came to makan with her husband... and PAY day iz like one more day... cool right i wonder how much i will earn... how i wish to get the nike jacket... cool my fav colour GREEN... btw i had a bad dream... i dreamt of my bf slept with two gers... so hmmmm wad does tt means anyway... haha last night i ta bao food from the restaurant... ehhhh unagi rice... for mum and then california maki for my baby.. can u believe tt i snacks on makis and tenpura prawns and shisamo pregnant fish... tori karagge... and blah blah blah... but now i tried to quit my supper le...muahahahahah... baby got rashie on his hands...EEEEEEEEEEE...hahahahah hope he will get well soon... weeeee....

hey i miss my sec sch friends and iz like xiao ma not free next weekkk... so maybe next next..pray*... i miss u guys... and i hope sam iz fine... yeah i love sch*

everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, May 30, 2005

(NAUGHTHY*)
Sunday, May 29, 2005

hey since ytsd i got this sudden inspiration this thingy in me tt... i wanna get flowers... hehe... thinking tt someone will pop out somewhere with the flowers i like... hmmmm gotta work on sunday and on sat... hmmmkind of good coz money will be in soon... and i did my stuff so no worries.. hope tt i'm on theright track... PRAY*

everlasting? kissed /
- Sunday, May 29, 2005

(tired! shagz...sch starts lor)
Friday, May 27, 2005

hmmm iz been a few days tt i blog... coz of my stupid net...irritating...today friday supposed to work but i plead captain to off me... then she asked the boss... then ok le... hmmmm... sorry pple... i'll miss working with u guys...haha but then hmmmsch started for like 3 days for me... tues...wed NO SCH... THURS...fri... cool!

everthing was going on smoothly...coz i think i noe wad i wanna do for this sem... perfect score... and aim for A's... and perfect attendance... and to be fully attentive... dunnoe wad power i got ...haha... maybe from wad i've sort of been thru ba... maybe afterall sch is better than work... during work everyone so stress up... hmmmm

oh alex went to play soccer... hmmmm guess wad i did today...as usual met mandy at bstop and went sch tog... then walk all the way UP to LT38...argh for just an hour lesson... haha thurs we had a hard time finding the place... so iz like every twice a week we got to have lect there...haha...exercise... tried canteen foru food... hmmm for the first time... haha for like one year... hmmm not bad but think the hygiene needs improvement...haha btw... we felt like the flowers there...HAHA

then worked on thurs night... hmmm captain nearly cried...sad... coz too busy le... so many pple...so sickening... i swear vacation i'm going to change a job...since i think by tt time every cutie pple will be gone...argh*

then today met baby... haha before tt we got break from 10 to 2... we gers act planned to come over to my hse and slack but was like wad to do at my hse..then we went town first to hereen but shops seem to be gone for lunch and then we went to centrept coz MEL haha wanna get some body shop stuff then went to mac makan... hmmm reminds me of me and dar... and then went to esprit...og orchard to act look for PJ... and we gers were like looking at the sales...haha...hmmm then went to hmv.. saw this NIKE jacket 80 odds...so nice and saw the ballet shoe i wanna get now having like 30 %...and then now every where there's sales... i can't wait man...

btw i met dear after my lesson...coz no work... then met him he went to west mall help me collect my contact lens...BROWN... now i'm wearing GRAY... hmmm wore two days le... sometimes make me abit BLIND...hehe... then me and dar was like hey we missed each other.. and i think tt i'm happy when sch starts... then we wne to clementi makan.. i ate fruits and then went to baby hse..took his soccer stuff then went off to big bookshop and then went home...

omg...the night iz so hot...argh* making me sleepy and grouchy...haha... btw i can't wait for pay to be in... i got stuff to buy man... btw...wed i DUN need to go sch coz still dunnoe which childcare we are posted to... so still have one more wed to slack... but then i work in the aftrenoon and then met dar at bukit timah ...went to the popular there got my study stuff... then went to west mall to get my contact...which act supposed to go woodlands...then got the contact at spectacle hut ...at 84 bucks with free two pairs of gray contact...COOL* but anyway i need a new specs too... feel so broke now...cpatain borrowed 20 bucks from me..hmmm... then went home.. then end my day ba...

tml shall study a bit in the restaurant... hopefully... haha but i was thinking of going to lib to do research for FP...haha but i got some info le... think hmmm..... stuff not done yet...so tired...SIAN!!!!!

dar and me the honey moooney period over le?????hahahah hmmmmm u must ten me ok
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 got me~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! muacks

PEACE****

everlasting? kissed /
- Friday, May 27, 2005

(sch reopens... MAN*)
Tuesday, May 24, 2005

wahahahhaha... sch starting in hours times... and i'm having milk and biscuits as my supper... love having supper. great.. but iz so shity when ya bf says he will get food for u and he din... but hmmm i knew he tried so hmmmm... ya....

today at bustop at my work pplace there.. was silence and silence coz hmmm i'm on line with dri and he's toking on the phone.....making himself so comfy like he's at home... hmmm.. then after tt i was like where's my food... then he was like wad is finger food? i was like wth... then silence...hmmm till we board the bus... then things got better...pple..i'm trying to gain weight u noe...haha...yummy*

btw baby got me a converse handbag? hmmmm i can say i'm excited about it... but i can say hmmmm i wun need bag now coz i just bot one and my sis too... hmmm din u GET MY HINT? huhuh? hmmm but nvm...wadever it is bday means nth to me le... tt's wad i emphasize to my baby... hmmm so ya* sadz... but i really appreciate it... thx... hmmm wiat till i got chance to bring it out ba...hey u noe wad wad bag u bring must match with clothes too wad... nvm... when i got my pay i gonna pamper myself... btw i'm working tml night coz the lim kee wee... some mp coming over to eat and reserved the roomm and they very short of pple... so i cannot go to driz bbq le... sorry ger... miss u lots... think tml will be a fun day.. i kend of miss sch and think tt iz sian...HAHA

everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, May 24, 2005

(argh* i'm burSting)
Monday, May 23, 2005

i've typed a mail...and decided not to send... let things calm down..and i'm trying my best till i can hold on tight... if i can't i shall forget about everything and le me wash them away will fresh blood...weep*

everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, May 23, 2005

(LOST* i can't find my way out...GONE*****)
Sunday, May 22, 2005

a new sch sem iz starting soon.. wad have i done during my holis? hmmm practicall nth useful and meaningful... life iz getting so no good for me.. i'm no longer the happy me le... i felt so dead... today duriong work i felt myself limping man... my leg hurts... i felt crippled... sux...

received a email from baby... hmmm as reminded to read frm him in the afternoon... he read my blog... and said... hmmmm lots of stuff.. which now i can't hardly rem le... i'm so shagged from work... end at ard 11... hmmm thank god dar din came to fetch me.. but he's in no mood and he reply me lan lan... then i also can't be bothered... we are too stubborn le... i think i need happystciks and strudels to make myself happy... and countdown to 8 more days to pay day... i got lots of stuff to buy to chong myself... hmmm i miss chong...

hearing wad baby said make me wanna think on his point of view... but whu's gonna think of mine... since he wanna mpore personal space... and he wanna give me... ok... i've decided... don't u ever regret wad ya say... i dunnoe lah...when i hear or read certaint thingy i got very agitated and i won't give way...

forget wad i've said... argh*.... forget about everything,... anyway tml will be my last full time in hanabi...so ,.,,cool huh... but tml gonna be busy like hell...

hmmm everyone ard me seem to have a love r/s prob... hmmmm it make me ponder... wad i want in life? a guy whu loves me>? a guy whu treats me well? or do i wanna be all alone? i'll supporty myself... no one to hurt me... but i'll feel lonely though...

i'm a sensitive creature....wad to do...pessimistic...sadistic...solem...iz all memememememmememem.......

wadever lah... but eversince i met him... hmmmm after 9 mths things start to arise... he's so diff from other guys... all my ex never look at gers... hmmm hmmm wad else and he's very frank... and hmmm nth i can say le... so iz tt a good thing... i just think tt he's no longer pamper tt much anymore... am i demanding? or am i not a good ger whom not to be deserved to be ten? i think i need some self reflection so maybe my love life will get better?

everlasting? kissed /
- Sunday, May 22, 2005

(ehhh...wad a day man..)
Friday, May 20, 2005

nth seems to go well after ystd... hmmm the thingy still on my mind.. i hope baby and i will get better tog... but i think this thingy will always be in me... at least for now... hmmm bot chocs to eat to make myself happier...hmmm in bad mood today so scolded lots of stuff... hmmm working with sam was fun today and i felt relieve tt pple accepted her... shino caught chicken pox...i'm scared to get from her when she came back..coz i'm weak..haha

hmmmm think i wanna pray hard tt me and dar will get back to the original feel* as in hmmmm ya* then sunday will be our 9 mths le...hmmmm i miss him but where iz he then? hmmmm......

everlasting? kissed /
- Friday, May 20, 2005

(Birthday! i dun care a damn now...)

no more celebration or wadever for me then ba...in future... this year bday iz worse than last year... hmmm this year i got him... but it seem to be worse... he just got back from his course foc camp and then he overslept...me thinking tt we can catch a movie...or wad...how good it will be to fetch me after work... hmmm IN MY dreams... i felt mean toking this way but i can't help... then maybe everything lies at me working in the afternoon shift ba...

i tot bday meant to be happy? but for me no... i'm like a water tap today my tears just rolled and rolled...called him after work...then wanna get strudel as cake then i went to crown centre then saw baby butterfly biscuits then so happy and get one pkt for him... then i went to town...iz so cold in hereen then i decided to go nydc to have a cake and at the same time wait for him...today i just want to pamper myself a bit... he reached.... he looked tired... he is... then like sian sian he almost lost his voice... and then he tok a bout his camp... then we tok a bout wad to eat he dun wanna eat there... then i was kinda sad tt he really din get anything for me... hmmmm... not even a sorry or wadever... bad*

then still ok never mind... then he dunnoe wad to eat then we proceed to centre point to get my strudel... then i got half a loaf of apple...... then the lady ask me to get back 10 minutes later... hmmm we went to walk ard then went to cold storage...he like tired also.... hmmm ain't i supposed to be entertained today... as in...haiz.... then nvm he say he hungry le...then we ate at the mac there... then din tok much... hmmmm all the while i was thinking...why izzit like tt...why did it turn out to be like tt... U KNOW WAD...i've waited for u since sunday and then i look forward to thursday so much and i misses u so much... and i din demand much from u... all i wan iz u to ten me more today... but no... we still as usual... same... then i can't feel tt today i'm the bday ger and then in the end we went to cine... then the earliest show iz at 6 kingdom of heaven... then hmmm just watch though i dun really wanna watch tt show... but afterall i can say tt the show iz MAJESTIC...haha cool* then in the cinema was ok... we did smiled and laughed?

btw we saw karin? mel's frend working at cine there... then... when there's moments of silence of on and off i'll just think of tt today iz so pathetic... so sad... iz like wth... why is the day so sian... maybe spending the bady alone will be good? or no celebration at all will be better...

think things will never gonna get better for me... and for him i dunnoe... the vday we spent tog was ok...great... but i din noe this time round ya really disappoint me... maybe it all happen from ystd him not being the first to wich me happy bday... iz like come on i'm ya GF... pls show me some care and concern if u think i dun need tt then sorry... i know u got camp and i got to work,... but i spent all my off days with u.. and y can't u like scarfice ya sleep time and spend time with me... then he says he sux... i dun think so... i think ya just need improvement... now u noe how i spent my day... now iz using tissue in front of the com... SUX*... wad a fucking day man...

wad's the use of asking me how i feel... when when u act know how i feel u dun improve yaself... and instead i have to turn ard and be the one to make u smile... i felt so shity... and i'll only do tt to u... then in the afternoon i was asking if he wanna come my hse eat... i tot ystd was cmf..then he was scared i can understand...then he can say stuff like i c later i tired anot... wtf* i'm very agitated now... tml prayed no one bullies me if not he dies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just then i realise i only heard bday song from my colleagues... and i received phone calls of bday wishing...and messages from friends... the only hapyy thingy iz my sec sch friends all rem my bday...so touched... and ashamed on myself to forget theirs... I THINK I SUX MOST... think from then on today i won't love myself a bit bit... not worth... no one loves me and so tt's it!!!!!!!!!!

sch starts i shall love the childcare kids... hope nth extra will happen after this i'll so crazy i tell u... act i've always being asking myself am i very demanding... pple say i treat my BFs very well but they all treat me BAD* am i blind... or iz love really blind... or maybe i shld be ALONE* so no hurts no trobs... only when i'm old i'll be alone!!!!!!!

he asked me if i wil wan one whu treat me no good or good... whuever dun appreciate me i wun want...same as when i'm serving a cutomer... u treat me good i'll be polite... u shout at me i REN... but u dun push me too far... i'll turn and even throw the table at U.... SO FUCK OFF PPLE!

now i'm totally disappointed... iz not tt i wanna sound sad... iz like how will u feel when esp u have this special person to celebrate ya bday but after being tog like 9 mths... u dunnoe how to celebrate for him or her... ask yaself... DO U LOVE HER? from the things the person done can see how much he loves u u know... and sometimes iz thru feelings... but today it'll be a scar... one tt will be there for somethime? u know wad i'll hold on to u no matter wad... i'm silly and crazy just dun push me too hard...

then worse iz i suggest tt ok i giv him sat to improve himself.. then when i keep asking will we be meeting on sat he kept giving me indefinite ans like... we see how things go... see tml when i wake up... HE TOTTALY forget wad i said...wadever lah.. he always forget wad i say.... so do i mean anything to him? or just plain bad mamory... i had a very bad memory too... but i dun seem to dunnoe this and tt.. or maybe my brain iz to rem such thingiess ah.....

SUX>..wad 18th bday... wadever shit... i swear i wun want to celebrate my 19th bday unless there's better programme... act bday mean nth to me... but iz coz of u iz makes me make it impt... then iz an excuse to spend time with u...

now everything iz RUINED>.. my heart hurts.... i'm gonna rest le................ GOOD BYE HUIPING*

everlasting? kissed /
- Friday, May 20, 2005

(happy 18th to me....happy birthday to me...)
Thursday, May 19, 2005

todAY OR SHLD I SAY ON WED IZ like two customers bday haha...hmmm and now the clock strike 12 iz my bday le...wahaha...surprisingly...first to greet me happy bday iz chong...so swt of him...suddenly misses him..he wishes me to get everything i wan... but i can't my dear boy...hmmm... then iz rei and then LH and then sam... hmmmm but none from baby... on the way back i was still thinking of a bday call for a greeting or wad... but i think i just got to wait ba... but i think i'm impatient i i msged him saying tt he forget to wish me...hmmmm

i'm going a bit crazy again just now...hmmm crazy for dunnoe being wad..wonder wad happens when i wake up today later... and supposed to have off on thur but i got to work in the morning coz not enuf pple... so hmmmm... then ytsd only got me sam and jason and aye in the morning then i'm the only one taking the first order and running the kaiseiki set... afterall iz not bad wad...haha then nth went wrong...

then slept...waken up by the customer MR SIAO...hmmm booked rm 2 for like 15 adults...1 baby child... hmmm he opened the stupid damn door and make me can't go back to sleep he came to drop his wine and stuff.. but then in the end they gave 20 bucks tips so ok lah... at night wasn't good hmmm we're PACKED! hmmm 70 over reservation just like weekends...and i did the reservations..haha so proud of myself... hehe and then run kaiseiki no prob and take orders no prob too...weeee...i'm a perfect waitress... and then... got this table 26 cutomers hmmm kind of irritating two creature but after servung them they were not bad then we chat a while haha then say tt when will we able to see u again if u work partime.. so cute...then another customer... said goodbye huiping... coz my name tag is so huge... hmmm then today work is like hmmmalrite...met nasty customers but i ren... and ignored...

i'm tired le baby fell asleep...hmmmm act just now we did msg but then we end up he said he din noe wad to do tml so i was kind of disappointed... then i din want to reply him... am i being mean? this year i look forward to my bday coz i can spend it with baby and make use this occasion for excuse to spend time with him... then him being such a lousy guy,.... argh* upset me all the while... ittitating...anyway i felt nth better as in i felt no happiness.... whu noes...hmmmm let me sleep then be awake soon ba... btw i ate a heavy supper...hahahah went to adams just now... and makan with the peeps...hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

bday SUX!mum tml maybe preparing steamboat so hmmmm we shall c how ba...

everlasting? kissed /
- Thursday, May 19, 2005

(DAD iz back.....)
Wednesday, May 18, 2005

wahahah i was woken up in the morning by the MARKET...just my sis and dad and mum...horrible.... and on thursday we might be having steamboat at home coz my bday and i think i am getting strudel for CAKE...haha then i woke up i peeped at the door and saw my dad holding on to his pile of fats haha...as in he slimed down but he got flabby stomach...haha... so much changes..hmmm he looked 10 years younger to me so tt makes him like 40? haha shld be ba...hahahahahahahaha

early in the morning saw baby message...hahah he loves me so i LOVE HIM TOO...weeee....

everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, May 18, 2005

(busy busy tired day...weee 2 more days to official 18)

hmmm this afternoon wor was alrite... then in the afternoon me sam and xueting went to eat at the coffee shop...hmmm then we went to sleep but all the while i can't sleep then got leg cramps and hmmm sux...woke up with a headache and then ate quite a lot of stuff today...at night was crazy... 60 over reservations and pple keep streaming in... think the restaurant very popular...coz on business times ystd and on chinese news paper being the top three fav place for tt MP...dunnoe he's name...haha then got stella and chao guo hui come...hahah and stephanie sun OK!

hmmm then i got to take continuous order after order...so scary... then i blur blur...wanna puke...and sam kept saying tt she's very tired...haha... hmmm then act suppose to go for a treat of earthquake icecream with the gers and peeps in holland but in the end they din go haha and i wanted to go home... hmmm

tml will sux big time coz i'm the only full timer and the only one whu can take first order...and tml i got to run the kaiseiki set...sux man... hope nothing went wrong...muacks...

i miss baby lots... hmmm whenever he's not ard something will happen to me... wonder wad will happen this time rd?hmmmmm hugs...dad will be back at ard 5 plus...hahha comfirmed alr...and tml i will have to sleep outside le...sux...damn tired but i think i can hardly sleep...argh* tml got to go work early to pack up...and prepare...hmmmmm****

everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, May 18, 2005

(wahahahahahah my bday weeee......)
Monday, May 16, 2005

yozz....sunday night was crazy...packed with pple as usual and we clear fast and we managed to reach the cuppage plaza by 11... coz the angeline sent us there...reach there the building like so rowdy...haha dunnoe how to spell lah...then iz the sunlight party world...intro by angus...then reach there got so many beer ard...wooo... then haha act i was offered but no way... then i asked for lime juice...weeee..angus was the only one singing lor...argh...he sang all the rockie songs...screaming all the while... i can imagine why his band not famous ah..haha then both of us are the bday baby...haha... weeee..he's on the 21st ba...haha...

then hmmm after tt dunnoe why i was asked by boss james to have a sip of beer ...then i drank and then another and another... from different glasses...hmmm think there's like 20 of us in the room.. then my song i chose was like hey soway behind coz they keep putting in the songs...hmmm then after a while was cutting cake...haha me and angus took photo and they played the happy bday song from the k thingie...hmmm i was happy tt night but i kept thinking of dear... hmmm then stupid jason kept telling me how much he love his gf...she's his wife..and blah blah...hhaha..then i think he's early drunk... then once i told jason tt i like wu yan zhu...then we got this kitchen helper LIK... he say he looks like then dodo tt night drunk le... go crazy* haha during work he sabo me and during k also.. hmmm he sabo me and lik to sing duet but we did not in the end he sang a song for me...haha...

then jack jack was singing some dunnoe wad song one million dollar song..lame* haha then when he sing we add effect to it...omg he look just like the FAT guy in the mtv lor...haha..then after tt angus offered me orange cum volka...hmmm not bad... then the pple sang and dance and i ate lots of nuggets...haha..hmmm then went home ard 2...weeee........tt end my day

this morning... slept late till 9... coz mum iz back and i can hear her doing the laundry and ironing the clothes...haha she bot a jacket for my sis but think too small then she gave tt to me... my sis she's so swEEEEEET...she bot me a NIKE bag...cozt 89 BUCKS!!!!! a heritage messenger... COOL! but too cool for me le... i think to be cool too...haha... i shall bring to sch then...weeee........!!!!!

wonder wads baby getting for me... hmmm haha though i say i dun wan but i wan things from him badly...haha anything will do ba... but best will be soemthing i like...tulips? food? tops? haha oh ya i think i wanna get betule sandles...haha so cute get a flower one... but i got no idea how much it cozt.. hey but then thinking next mth i'll get such little pay sian..hmmm i think less than 900 so hmmm...... i got to save up ba but i keep taking money out... all out no in...

ahhhhhhh......i miss my baby...hmmmm i wonder wad we gonna do on thurs..and dad might be back on wed...and we shall have reunion MEAL! this week sam will work with me...today got better le...hmmm weee..things going on smoothly ba... but not very smooth for her...she still wanna leave after seven days but hope she will change her mind ba...hugs....

i still miss ALEX!

everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, May 16, 2005

(SATURDAY my off day)
Saturday, May 14, 2005

hmmm this morning woke up...lazy to go to work so i decided to call my boss and say i'm sick... then i msg dar...surprisingly that ZEBRA set alarm to wake himself early at 10...so happy... and touched...cause i tot he will no longer treat me nice anymore...hmmm coz some stuff happen then one night i was crazy... i tot there wil be a weird gap btw us but after today i found tt YEAH... things can always be talk out...haha

hmmm met dar in clementi to see a doc...hmmmm i think i shld open him up more...haha... as in... i felt so happy when he stood up to collect the stuff for me...as in...i'm sick wad then ...hmmm..act while waiting for him i bot bread to eat... i felt weak under the sun... thank god tt i din work coz today sure packed!

then hmmm went to packed food home in the end bot kaya bread...sad...no choice baby dun let me get other kind of bread coz i'm sick... then he say he was going out with friends to buy camp stuff i was like hmmmm last night how i wish i cld fall sick so today at least he can pei me... hmmm... then he act offered to go his hse coz his dad ard then got pple look after me... but iz ok lah...

then dar sent me home...then we slack ard watched seed of chucky then haha after hanging the clothes we went to sleep tog...haha.... fell aslp a while then wake up le...hmmmm was so damn hungry then ar went to clementi to eat then me waited for sis to buy food but in the end i ATE cup noodles...horrible... hmmmm

hmmm tml baby will be h,mmm i'LL BE UNABLE TO SEE HIM LE...hmmm wait till thurs ba... hmmmm thurs will be mine BDAY....i'll make myself happy 18th then...weeee......a nice meal and a little present for myself....weeee......and mum will be home by then and she will cook mee suan for me to eat...haha and hmmmm kinda miss mum coz no one to do laundry no one to nag at me... and dar...hmmmmm and sam.... next week she will start work with me le...hmmmm wonder how will it be like...and shino will be going back m'sia...then be back after tt but i will no longer be working full time anymore...hugz.....

and dear dear the song of my blog iz by TWINS....hahaha

everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, May 14, 2005

(DEAD* struggling...)

wtf...i'm sick and last night of work was horrible...iz like i felt weak the whole night and giddy also...hmmmm me and shino same same weak...haiz... then plus the night before was horrible for me... i cried like hell... i caught the movie house of wax with the gers and dar on thurs..hmmm then i was treated a meal by mel... and hmmm everything was ok...dar going for camp soon... so which means can only meet up on thurs which is like my bday which is SO GOOD izzin it... i dunnoe wad i'm thinking now... though having a slight headache and fever... i felt crazy... hmmm... wadever ba... gonna see a doc le.....

PEACE*

everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, May 14, 2005

(a new hair cut!)
Thursday, May 12, 2005

weeeee* i had a new haircut finally today... and i spent like 39 on hair and next mth i'm gonna colour it... today i bot a cap for myself and one for dar too... today during break went to hmv...hmmm act wanna go toni and guy but seems to be so pack then i went to the next shop GINRICH... i think the haircut there not bad afterall at least i felt fresher.. then wash and cut everything is like 5 le... then i rush to 77th street act went to flash and splash but still find the billabong cap nicer than the ripcurls so i bot caps...and went off to taka buy doughnuts for shino...weee* then like tt ba...

afternoon shift was busy today siao lah i din get much first order coz most of the time i am slacking...haha first time i know myself slacking... then at night was ok... slow pace..and there's this grp of rich tai tai came in aND they are to celebrate their three friends 50th bday...cool ah* then they had champagne..and cake DURIAN!...they like soo cool...got party thingy tt blowy thingy...hmm...

it reminds me tt my bday iz coming... and i'm having a off day tml...hmmm...meeting the gers...weeeeee......btw the cap...hmmm dar's head too small so haha...got to change another one...hmmm he went to cut his hair too...hmmmmm...hahah same lah...he's mean he said mean stuff to me and make me ignored him...and he's kinda pissed and we din tok much tonight...coz both tired and he's very tired... my legs are growing bumbs? i mean my veins are coming out...for standing and walking too long... and iz like eeeekk... and is likeblue black acheing feeling....

act i enjoy the job coz got great and funny pple ard...hmmm... but i think i got to save money...hmmm

haiz... dunnoe wad's wrong btw me and dar...hmmmm i got nth to say but i hop ethings wil be fine...we are supposed to be happy to see each other but...but but... it turn out the end of the day to be like tt..sux...

hey i'm just a normal simple ger ... dun expect much from me...ok! u wan pretty babes NOT ME... SEXY ger... NOT me...seriuos i dun love myself... i wld rather love other pple... F*

everlasting? kissed /
- Thursday, May 12, 2005

(ALEX i miss u....lots)
Tuesday, May 10, 2005

hmmm missing ALEX! today iz such a dumb day... haiz... woke up dreamt of dar and my bosses... then went to work...hmmm i was told by xt not to go early coz ys won't do anything... then iz rained in the morning... hmmm...then during break i went to town thinking to have a new hair cut... but when i reach town i realied i lost my posb card... omg... i was like so lost... where did i loss it... i cannot find at all... iz like GONE!

wad ever then i msged dar...xt...sq...mel...hmmm...sad sia... i was like walking sadly at the overheadbridge at far east there then dar called...i teared for my own carelessnes.. and why do i always must meet something special whenever dar iz not ard... haiz... i was sad att tt point... i took bus back then walked to crown centre how i wish the rain can drench me... then i went to dao pao strudel in the end i end up sitting outside which i dunnoe why? then i ate the apple and elcair...haiz... then i was thinking of stuffing myself...i went to coronation for fries..then i saw posb bank..seeing pple taking out money...sad* hmmm think i'm like so silly...haiz... then i went to ask how and wad are the procdures for lost card.. then i managed to make a new card coz only need a id... hmmm... wad a day man... then i sat outside hannabi.. hmmm then dodo came out... hmm then i went in makan again...the soup super niCE!

then today only WEEKDAY got 60 plus reservation...sick* but everything went smoothly for me... cause no probs... yeah i'm getting a hand of it le...and customers say i look like jeanette again...and chao guo hui came...haha... off early so came home early...oh head a bit heavy le...hmmm tml shino working...cool* weee..

and tml and thurs i'll off..feels like catchin a mvie with baby tml...if he's not tired...haiz...just can't dun have him....thinking of him the whole night...

everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, May 10, 2005

(hao xiang ni ahhhh...)

tml i'm gonna make a trip down town... hmmmm i think i've been thinner..haha think muscles formed and i'm toned up at the bottom... hmmm...iz all wad i assumed but baby and sam say my thigh smalled and ass smaller le... hmmm think tml i shall have a hair cut and tt's it... haha at the same time go top up my ez link... hmmm miss my baby boy so so much... though he's going camp then wed coming back.. tml i think gonna be very sian coz arthur not working...xue ting also.. and shino... hmmmm gonna miss xue ting coz friday then wil see her ... this sunday will have company karaoke...hahah i'm going!

lotsa things happen during work... sq working in the same place as me... she dun seem to be happy at all... think iz too tough? the first day of work she told me tt she won't be working long le... and then ystd was her second day and she was like going ard asking pple tt... whether izzit true tt if she dun work first 7 days she won't get paid... hmmm i dunnoe wad to say... and i heard lots of stuff... from pple and pple... hmmm diff pple got diff opinions ba... haiz... i felt so sandwiched man... haiz... just hope she will get used to the job... on the other hand thinkin at her side maybe... coz her first day iz on weekends so she cannot learn much... maybe pple shld give her time... but i dun care wad pple say i believe in wad i see... hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm*

everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, May 10, 2005

(raining mother's day)
Sunday, May 08, 2005

hmmm wad a day i was awaken by the pitter patter rain against the window... hmmm... iz the 8th of may le... time flies so fast...hmmm act i wanna blog last night but my stupid com...dunnoe wad's wrong i just can't key the password... hmmm...VIRUS*

ystd hmmmm sam came to work with me... hmmmm not really tt excited but i'm happy to see her... for such long time... hehe* then everything was fine then during break she told me stuff and i listened and gave opinions... then we went ntuc.. hmmm bot stuff and went back for dinner... hmmm then at night was madness... i'm so used to it... coz thank goodness weekend i won't have to take first... iz better i think at least i dun have to worry this and tt... so wad i need to do iz serve and clear and sometimes take consequetive order... hmmm then when end tt time.. when i was in the store with sam she was like a bit no mood when i talk to her... she's still so much of her ownself...hmmm i'm used to the work le so iz stil ok.. then i always stay back and pack the stuff.. then i told her to go back first...coz she like dun seem to wanna stay longer... she told me tt she won't work long... hmmm i tot she could take hardship but now like cannot...hmmmm... haiz... i just hope things will get better for her... maybe she work as promoter for too long le.. then she's so used to tt kind of wait for time to pass work...maybe hope she can get a better job ba...

ystd dar came to fetch me... hmmm he's not very happy coz something happen about his camp on monday... hmmmm.. i tried to cheer him up... we sat at the bstop till 12 odds then i went up... BABYu noe wad i love U!hmmmm.........weekends gonna be oevr soon and things shall slow down... today iz full hse and overload so iz continuos stream of pple... i dun see why must so many pple come... haiz... then thursday cna pple came.. the host damn pretty... jason's eyes drop... i think dar came he will be like him too..she's like tall and with figure...and long curly hair... iz a new programme called audition me...

can't wait for thursday.... i miss the gers terribly.. i'm losing my voice... i thik i need to find something to commit so life will get better

everlasting? kissed /
- Sunday, May 08, 2005

(shoooooping spree!!!!!!!!!!weeee but i bot nothing)
Tuesday, May 03, 2005

haha... today was a great day out... but i din get to buy much...hmmm i lent 100 bucks to shino... then iz like coz she tml then can cash out the money... then we two happy only coz a/c got money... weeee...haha prev my bank only got 7 bucks... hehe... anyway think tml she will return me... then hmmmm walk only far east first level then got to go meet the gers at hereen which me and shino first met... then hmmm in the end they pang seh us... they say not miting le...then we feel so hmmmm*... then me and shino were like we could have been bugis lor... hahaha... then hereen i only bot two hair bands...yellow and orange and then rubber bands... haha act wanted to tie my hair but i din get a cap... hmmm long story...
then me and shino took train to bugis...oh ya haha before tt when we reach town e went to makan at the lucky plaza there the food mall... hmmmm foood not too bad... then hmmmm.... reach bugis we two so happy coz... prev din get to buy anything...haha then hmmm i got myself prepared to spend 200 bucks...hmmm... then walk with her she bot a tube where pam bot her's too... i think i need to shop alone then can find things... hmmm think tml i wanna go far east cut hair... ahaha... then buy thingy...

then shopping with her was kinda fun we have many things in common... haha... then dar came bugis to meet me ard 6... then hmmm... he saw me in my ultra mini skirt then he unhappy...hmmmm then i was like hehe trying to cheer him up... haha then i blangja baby to makan... hehe reward* him for treating me so good...all this while*... then he chose to go v8 to makan... hmmmm helped me save money...weeee* haha then we walk walk i bot lingerie! weeee........BONDS bra iz comfy k... i spent 50 over on just one set... haha...

then i bot a sling bag which i long wanted to get... act wanted to get a cap too but baby say no... then i tot he think i wear cap ugly so a bit sad... then hmmm moments of silence.... i wanna get baby something so i was like looking at wallets and stuff...hmmmm gotta get him some stuff... and for chong too... ahha... ttt's all and i wanna get thingy for sam too... hmmm i gave mum 200 and i'm left with 600 odds...weeee..... i gotta save 400!!! oh and i bot vivian cd...hmmm prettyy nice... and i want to buy tt machi guy cd...and vivian sang superstar chinese version...haha

love baby he's just so lovely and so understanding...
pray hard hard for baby....
missing my gers

everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, May 03, 2005

(MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!)

omg... i'm so used to waking up at eight so today my off day i still can't sleep late... hmmm was too lazy to blog last night so i shall go in details now... mum went to shanghai coming back in the 16th then i got to do all the laundry so unfair...then my sis and bro can shake leg at one side...hmmm then act iz supposed to be dad to come back then they go tog but dad was stuck at the airport coz of something...hmmm

ytd went to one of my boss house at pasir panjang which is like so near harbourfront... then iz like those four storey condos... then vera sent us there the bus journey was so quiet as in she din tok to us...unlike the other time we went to chinatown with angeline... haha then we tok and laughed on the car... wooo first time i sat a mpv... tt day we wnet to buy cookery.... the place iz cool with forks and spoons and big rice cooker which everything iz so damn ex... then went there we hihi then makan the food...ys ask me to go tan i dun wan... then they say got chao guo hui then i was like where i din see... whu is he? i mean i forget how he looks like... haha then they kept seeing him only me din... all the while me and shino was sitting down makaning... then eek when ys change to bikini everyone was like woooo....haha sick* then while on the way to view her hse... we walked out and the pple sobotage me by calling me ou xuan... then say i want to take photo with HIM... wtf... eeek no way... haha... then long story then in the end he cema forward and say can i take a photo with u....argh* stupid xue ting wanna take photo with him sabo me...

then hahah i woke up rem my dream... i was a cleaner maybe last night i saw them cleaning the plates lah.. ok i shall have a mini tan before i go out today....

missng sam...
MISS my gers and i'm meeting them next thursday...weeeeeeee

everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, May 03, 2005

(shagz!)
Monday, May 02, 2005

totally drained today... consequecutive busy mad dayz are draining me... hmmm tomorrow finally my official day off.. my long waiting day off man... gotta meet shino then the YS and XT for shopping spree...IN TOwn..waited for tt very long.. i wanna get nice tops and hmmm of course my fav skirts... weeee* and of course the things i shld get...

every day iz so crazy... customers none stop... and i din take orders wad i do iz to clear the food and serve and sometimes when no choice i take order.... then walk here and there... and telling customer thingy... argh*... jason say today got lotsa chio bus... but me and xt thinks tt all chio bus are irritating... argh* but some i met are ok... the rest pretty got figure but u noe wad! they sux big time... all are irritating creatures... i make sure i won't be so attitude like them... haha*

when work there's arthur and jason there's fun.... haha* then like tt lor... now toking to baby... hmmm tok about wad happen in the afternoon...hmmmm... haha i took photo with chao guo hui.... omg... haha the whole room iz mine... mum in shanghai...weeee

everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, May 02, 2005