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$$ factor)
Monday, July 31, 2006
sometimes i just find i work so hard i spend so much that at the end of the mth i am broke.. damn i hate tt feeling... i cannot do so many things...i hate it... i H_te myself
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, July 31, 2006
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I miss em')
Saturday, July 29, 2006
i miss my kids.. tho the centre is real lousy but the teachers and my kids made me miss em'.. in the morning seeing joonkiat and elicia playing tog is so like oooo so cute.. and seeing them learning and loving the things i do with them i am so happy and satisfied...
yes it was another working day for me today... hey melody chen came... haha... btw shino might be leaving haanbi soon.. and i told andel abt mandy and stella... think hanabi gonna regret if it losses us... i will be leaving soon too i guess... then my sec sch juniors came to eat... yu zhen and one badminton ger... haha ...
i want my pay i feel so broke now...hehe......
everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, July 29, 2006
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comments please)
this friend of mine we were once so close and now not close bcoz of many reasons... bcoz of the guy name andrew... the reason since year one which made me gulity.. course i hid a secret from my friend... driz... so ya... but she forgave me i guess... but now i guess she is in pain... coz she has lost the guy whom she love so so much... think she reallyt love him alot... he was once so nice and yet again and again hurt her so so deeply that she had like given him everything that she could...maybe guys are like tt.. or maybe she love him more than he does? i really feel like helping her like wad i always do... but i find tt we had drifted so far apart tt i dunnoe how to.,.. we have lots to catch up... but i hope she will hold onstrong and not loss faith in herself... please... and for the guy andrew...i hope he can figure out how much the ger loves him and how much he had changed... and the promises he had made...and how much he is hurting this ger when she needs his support so much...
wad is love then?
yes indeed somethings do overshine love but the feeling can never be better than anything when u have someone loving and caring u and willing to scarfice ...
WTF*
everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, July 29, 2006
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a pass)
Friday, July 28, 2006
hmmm btw my mentor just pass me... and failed the other two friends... F* she is bloody hell demanding lor... andpuay leng failed for the second time... sian then tho she passes me she wants me to do storytelling with the chn... haha sian...
then commend on our language and blah blah... she says i mislead the chn... wad sia... haha she think very easy to teach ahonly noe how to say... haha i noe how to say too lor...
but we all hate her and even the teachers... we have really good rapport with the teachers there esp with my form tr... a nice malay teacher... hehe thank u for all ya help... and then i had two feedback forms back since wed i had given out 6 only.. so yea... and more to come back i guess.. great sense of achivement... i love samuel.. and joon kiat my son... and adam the naughty boy... hmmm only one ger capture my heart and she is giselle the thunder ger.. chubby and scream and talk like thunder and only play with gentle boy called sean... SO CUTE...
i played dough with them total of 5 colours i made with flour salt and water... and then they get to touch and see the process of making...doughcan reallykeep them occupied and they are real good behave damn guai when waiting for their turn... i read many books think ard 10 alr to them... they love story telling...
i'm down with flu... sick i wanna rest... i want my pay soon my money draining out soon...... hmmmm
i want holis soon... i want to go bird park... i want to go sentosa... i want to go makan with sam... i miss sam... lots to catch up with chong...spend time with alex... wooooooooooooooooooooooo
bbtw the kids dress up in cheong sum so damn cute wor... haha still i love them all...muack
everlasting? kissed /
- Friday, July 28, 2006
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worries ahead)
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
gosh tml will be another assessment day for me... gosh i pray that my kids pay attention to my lesson and they knows how to do matching... for the few mths since fp starts i am always having headaches, gastric and giddy spells... symtoms of not enuf rest and stress... wad to do...
pple always think toddlers are easy to teach but i dare u to try... taking on kids who dun understand the simpliest instuction the teacher had said ...as compared to older kids they are easier to handle as long as they are always on task... hehe... and it is so damn hard to write lesson for them.. cracking my brain and doing the things tho... maybe must wait till i specialize in some infant or toddler care...haha
i went back today skipping lesson total 8 hours had been skipped... the kids were sleeping.. and the moment they woke up adam smiled and giselle called me and hugged me... she is my princess... a fat one tho and screams in class.. then joon kiat came... haha hugged and a bear hugged... they love me and i love them too... bringing many things for them to explore... and yesh this thurs will be dough making.... showing the process and yesh and doing with them and of course at home i'll had prepared the colours for them.,... great........!!!!
still my fear for tml is so strong causing me to be so tired wor....... i need help and now i just hope for a pass for tml
everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, July 25, 2006
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tired)
Monday, July 24, 2006
giddy spells!!! headache!!! neck pain? wad symptons are all these?
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, July 24, 2006
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SUCKZ _I_)
life sucks totally when all my efforts all down the drain......... why life is so unfair?
-hatred-
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, July 24, 2006
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i love alex)
Monday, July 17, 2006
weeee i hadbeen slacking and enjoying myself... coz i had not been cracking my brain yet for my childcare activites...
btw i din go for lesson today all coz my paper jammed in the printer... and then yesh went bugis to buy slipper with alex and then guess wad i bot a pair too and then makan seoul garden... it was like so long i din eat it... and yesh we had fun cooking and yesh coz too long din eat so we ma lua ourselves... so it was like yesh lucky we not alone tho...haha
yesh i love alex and maybe cause we din quarrel these few days and then everything was fine and we understand each other... muack... i love him.. dun worry next mth u can drive le wor
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, July 17, 2006
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gone wif the wind)
Sunday, July 16, 2006
fiday was my supervisor assessment...
things were not good... i had only 3 kids instead of like 6.. and my end commets were lots... good pts only two good lanaguage good story telling technique good articulation and blah balh...
objective not match leaning centre tooo,... and blah balh... many things... and she pass me coz she see me put in so much hard work... but tt's not wad i want...
sad sia... i had been down in the morning... coz i realise sumthing tt my parent had always been giving all the good things to my bro... and yes i am sad and jealous and till now i can rem... and i cried on the bus upon receiving a call frm mysis...
hmmm i wanna grow up...
in the noon time... i find tt it is so hard to be a tr... i have to be professional of course.. but how to be when the kids wun listen to u but only listen when u give them physical punishment so sweets and sticker bribery are not so much temptation afterall...
i am so loss tho i put in so much effort yet i got back such things and such comments... am i tt bad and stupid!
Sianzation!
now i must start all over again and my mentor is assessing me in two weeks time...... wad to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i felt so sick of everything... no one will care how u feel... the world is just so realistic... when u are given the thing the job to do... if u cannot do it then sorry u are out... so wad is life man... full of obstacles... and i wonder why we are created for...
hoho
everlasting? kissed /
- Sunday, July 16, 2006
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pizzehut)
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
yesh today went to eatpizza with him... a pleasant meal and then right home after tt after a shag day in childcare... when i reach at 730 waking up a 6... and then shouting and see kid bite... snatch cry EVERYDAY... pple always take older kids... idare u to take younger kids... hehe i have king and queen of aggressor in my class..
Gosh save me
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, July 12, 2006
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lalalallala)
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
weee it is tues again...hehe it is alex day yesh spent value TIME... tho i always complain he din ten me but act he did today... hehe ya the best... hmmmm heard my mentor sick sia... think tml she might not be coming... god noes...haha muack
hey i love the song u sang and it is on my head now and i like ya stupid face!
everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, July 11, 2006
(
Progress)
Monday, July 10, 2006
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, July 10, 2006
(
i am a sensitive brat)
one week gone again... my assessment on wed and friday... hehe DIE... i have a strong feeling of failing.. but tho i amproud of my learning centres BUT the main prob is the kids still dunnoe how to use... haha coz ya long story myclass is chaotic... this is on bad pt for centres to have two separate blocks... hehe
TODAY!!!
i went back to put up my labels and the poster i had drawn for my class...hehe so nice... the kids walked pass were like wow so nice.. and damn joon kiat..he is so cute.. he is a smart boy... 2 years plus and he knows almost everything like stingray? rhino? and many more.. gosh!!!!! but he is NO 1 aggressor in my class.. guess wad today i know how to wear papmers for kids..and i bath him... and he played fishing with me.... he's so adorable... and he enjoys putting the lamb puppet in his hand and brings it hopping ard the class.. my hot favkids... act i treat all the kids the same...hehe...really...
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, July 10, 2006
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Excitement)
Thursday, July 06, 2006
hehe i started enjoying to teach the kids.. all under my control said teacher rohaya.. hehe i am more confident now... and today i stayed like 7 plus to 6 plus in childcare to put up my things!!!
yeah guess wad the mobile are up! the shelevs are up... the board is up...
hehe...
i love my kids and i love my alex...
everlasting? kissed /
- Thursday, July 06, 2006
(
hehe)
Monday, July 03, 2006
SilENT HILL+ HUGe Pop corn+ Steamboat=WOW
Singapore idol?
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, July 03, 2006
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Love bcomez Hatred)
Sunday, July 02, 2006
his words in sentences in a snap of fingers can bring me to hell.
each time it happens it brings me to many other scene of similar situation.
WHY? i ask? why he must do this to me?
am i wrong to voice how i feel?
am i wrong to be sensitive?
i am wrong to be sad?
all caused of the word "ideal"
I am a demanding soul...
i begged for love and care...
i ought to be nun in future...
i had not lost faith in u...
but i just wonder WHY man are all like tt?
it is not tt u guys are not devoted and dun love...
it is just sometimes wad u say is so simple...
sometimes just takes things for granted...
i mean i do tt at times too.
i felt so hurt...
yes like wad u say we had been tog...
for so long...
I definitely have faith in u,...
and tt makes me more sad tt...
it contradicts...
yes i hav faith but why is it each time u say such tings?
each time it pierces my heart so deep and it makes my heart pumped so hard.. and so hard to breath..
I wish to die tt moment..
but i can't..
"Desires" Dreams" Fantasizes"
wad are they?
I dun have them...why? coz i am not men
i had changed so much since the first time... and i had been more sensitive since the last time
i hate myself somehow...
but wad can i do
i cry to release the pain in me...
i go against my body...
tears may burst any moment any time.. and each time i think of how his words hurt it make me teared...
felt so useless and dumb...
why shld i care for all the things he said and done?
coz i love him...
i ought to * * * spare me...
i hate ******
everlasting? kissed /
- Sunday, July 02, 2006
(
tired tired tired)
Saturday, July 01, 2006
everyday is like so tiring.... doing my things n now still always half way thru... btw i made the magnetic car thing and let 2 of my kids play is like haiz they spoilt it.... angry.... haha....
my first lesson with them... they noe nuts abt wad i am saying ... failed sia.... i am going to conduct on wed again.... gonna improve on many things... i must sing song... and i took 6 of them more than wad i am required... but this is good a practice for me..........
last night i manage to give myself a break... went for dinner with alex auntie... new shop in hollan hogs breath cafe... the food is good... so ya... went home sleep and did nth...
sian......
everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, July 01, 2006
