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ALEX BDAY)
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, August 30, 2006
(
the change)
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
my feeling now is like numb... maybe it was the sudden change from having fun to serious work in the childcare... for the first time in the childcare i felt so alone... so alone with the children and kinda unsure of wad is going to happen next and wad am i suppose to do? anyone can understand this? argh... so tiring tho i was there like 12 to 5.. i felt like a fool i dunnoe why... i dun really noe what is expected from me.. but in my mind i was thinking i mustmake use of the time to improve myself... but the first day interacting with the children was like i think i prefer toddlers.. maybe i spent more time and i know them well i think toddlers easier to teach... is it true? but this mth topic is recycling easy but i realsie my ideas stopped at the last week which means i had run out of ideas!
alex said he was tired and then after a nap yes he was enegetic to go meet his friends... so contradicting... bcoz of tt i have to eat maggie... argh! and he dun even feell bad like hey babe cannot meet u but now i going to meet my friend... cannot help la i am such person... esp today somany things happen and i nearly fell at my hse condo entrance and pple stepped on my feet... i felt so helpless.. and irritated and i was so hungry...then when i was so helpless then he was sleeping... i was like i must be strong i tell myself...
i my mind i was so tired so tired tt i wanna pple to look after me be taken care of... afterall being so independent is so so tiring... moreover so many things happen since sunday... went out dinner to celebrate his bday but my visa cannot go thru.. i went to two atms one at mrt and the other walking dist at bras basah.. but all break down.. i was so helpless.. and to celebrate his bday i asked for advance payment... then in the end he paid and i paid him back... but worse thing was next day my a/c was deducted thrice!!!! gosh i was then left with 16 bucks in my a/c... damn laggy tired and helpless..it was not my mistake it was a sudden suay thing happen... then ya the whole monday was like down to settle and cal the rest and call the bank.. and money will be recovered 15days...
anyone knows how i feel deep inside... i felt like why i work so hard i did nothing bad why am i deserving such things in my life... sia... sianz... sob*
but the dinner was great we had great time.. and monday sentosa and eating at hanabi was great! i had tons of fun with alex... we went to underwater world... sat on luge...and sky ride... yesh it was awesome fun
haiz- i hate my life sia
everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, August 29, 2006
(
Happiness =Alex)
Monday, August 28, 2006
where the fun starts
weep... upz and downz
wooooo
walking the long way
frustrated
cute
jellyfishie
touch POOL!
wahaha
my boy
my forced smile!
he's scared! neh!
look below us
the beach
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, August 28, 2006
(
people)
Sunday, August 27, 2006
finally my hectic work had come to an end.. and so are my lonliness... so ya today gonna have dinner with the birthday boy but sad to say i din get him present... haha guess the greatest present is to present myself to him ba and give him pleasant memories for these two days! weeeee! surprise.... i'm gonna make u surprise!
i'll miss pple in hanabi all the fun and smiles and anger u guys gave me... but i'll see ya guys soon every week and thnks arthur for his ride home and nice telling u storybtw...
my lesson plan i sstopped at the last week... drained all my lesson plans are so brief.... must slowly prepare my materials tho... heheh muack see ya children on tuesday!
pray pray hope tml dun rain!!!
everlasting? kissed /
- Sunday, August 27, 2006
(
Occupied*)
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
i'm stretching myself to my limits... working everyday since last fri night till this sat... and now is like only wed... yesh and i will be going to work on my lesson plans today before it was too late
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, August 23, 2006
(
Work = Fun)
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
yesh yesh yesh tt's wads all been happening recently... I miss my BOY
gers
mini match box
everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, August 22, 2006
(
saturday)
Saturday, August 19, 2006
weeee one more week one more week... yeah...gosh i can't wait for alex bday...
it was a great day of work... maybe i am so used to working there alr... so it was like my second hse... and i felt like big shot there..haha yesh break time was the time we gers play... we went to MC for snacks supposed to be black canyon but closed down and island creamery was like packed...
yesh i must start to prepare my lesson plans...
gosh my face getting worse...eeek...
everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, August 19, 2006
(
Shoo be do)
Friday, August 18, 2006
yesh now is official HOLIS! exam ended..yesh and is all done like anyhow...
hehe... now i am going to be a tr in little tots... yesh N2 tr with 15 to 17chn... yesh working 10 to 7 on mon to sat... of dunnoe how much i'll be paid.. but for the challenge...yesh it is all worth... btw i have many challegening chn in the class tho... i have to within this short time bring the chn tog to play with this ger... and ...yesh i have to find out more from the tr... my duties are like teach the chn... eng lesson and then yesh write lesson plan on theme: the environment: the earth day; recycling... and yesh ideas are popping...
alex bday coming..i made booking at a very cool place... a place which we walked pass and wanna try... think it is damn nice... we shallsee how... and then next day is a fun day at sentosa.. with prog like going under water world... and yesh tanning? and riding sky rides? hehe and then having buffet at hanabi! cool! i guess? hahahahhaha i can't wait for the DAY....................................................................
everlasting? kissed /
- Friday, August 18, 2006
(
shaken up)
Thursday, August 17, 2006
wad ya said today makes sense... ya the best my dear...HAHA
everlasting? kissed /
- Thursday, August 17, 2006
(
sweet flash backz)
everlasting? kissed /
- Thursday, August 17, 2006
(
wad to say...)
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
i'm so bored at home now... same as mandy ba.. too long din spend time at home... and finally i get a day to slowly take my own time to get out of bed and out of house.. supposed to have my fried carrot cake famous from clementi but my bf forget to buy... haiz... wad to do... but second tot... who will ever forget to buy food for the gf to eat...STRUCK*
i'll need advance half mth pay from hanabi to my ongoing new challenge next mth... coz i received a phone call... and yes... next mth will be a busy mth... some how it is going to be a change in me...
watched the fast and the furious... cool show... and alex was like 'WOW' pretty CHio... coz of the cars... b4 the show... was like a scene in the cinema... there's this old man who din sit a/c to his ticket so after tt four younster came in and one ger was like KPing him... then called the ticket lady then the manager came.. so ya... he was like saying ... 'is this a rule or a law tt i must seat a/c to my ticket?' 'why can't u sit elsewhere there are so many empty seats'... then the man asked for a refund... and then out he go...
i was so tired today.. think i'm down with some ilness.. work tired.. dun work also tired... so sad inside me which i dun noe wad is happening... in my mind this morning: is driving tt so impt? maybe tt i din learn so ya maybe i'll be the same as any guy who knows how to drive..? maybe in my mind i have things that are more impt than such things? maybe i shld get a guy who drives huh.. is tt wad u wld like? jusy abt diff mindset again... agruement...
sianzation i just feels so lonely at home ...sad tt always a happy day turns out bad... sad tt things always dun go well for me... sian ob exam on fri and i had nothing on my brain now... who can help me... no one but me... only me can change what i really want...and be happier.......ARGH! i need a break
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, August 16, 2006
(
yadayada)
Monday, August 14, 2006
wooo a weekend over again... yesh last night i stayed up late till 3 to complete my assignemnt... and i checked thru once hope everything to be fine...hehe so pleased with my determination to fin...
boring life tho... not able to spend time with bf... sianzation... work and work earn money tho... then i suffered headache on sat... wonder if really i work for my centre wad will it be like... i tell u if anyone who works there u are no. one... coz if can handle 17 chn at one goal and with fussy parents... and high expectation supervisor... when going other centre it will be peanuts... and i want to take up the challenge now... now it is up to her to decide and i shall ask her tml... haha
???? how will it be then.........zzzzzzzzzzzz
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, August 14, 2006
(
cAlming DoWn)
Friday, August 11, 2006
yesh the war ended on 10th Aug 2006... and a declare of love from him to me... of how deeply he loved me!
anger and stubborness brot both of us to no where... he walks front i walks behind and vice versa.. and then he dragged me and held my hand tight and say LETS TALK outside.. yesh i listen to him.. him reasoning to me... tell me wad happen and blah blah... and yesh after hearing wad he says he touched me so deeply... and yesh everything was like FINE now!!!
ok alex u are granted full freedom and me not going to care anything now.. haha i mean good...
now i am in a dilema of working towards learning? but if i take the path i will really suffer but i'll learn even more of wad i had been learning these mths in little tots... ireally learnt a lot... the staff were good and i really learn more than anyone... yesh so now i am thinking of a job vacancies there? DILEMA?
everlasting? kissed /
- Friday, August 11, 2006
(
losing faith)
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
the sense of security drops... i felt sad tho... i think i lost u...
it is everytime when u are with ya friend u are just so diff... u just simply forget all the things tt u promised to me once... and u are not doing it...
some time i felt so silly! a fool... tt's wad pple say... think i am stupid... i always made myself cry... me just a cry baby... last night this tot flash across my mind : if ya dunnoe how to pamper me why not let other pple to pamper me...why make me suffer and beg for love and care
it is so tiring... now i realise why gers always wanted to get someone who love them more than they love the guy more... i'll be happier if ya more responsible and not forget about my existence... and i am ya gf... if ya dun love me dun dote me... then who is going to...iz been for days... iam so sick and tired of all these.....
:( i am sad... why why why... and wad have u done for me
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, August 09, 2006
(
Tear-ed)
i am losing faith.... i need help
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, August 09, 2006
(
MY realization)
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
sorry tt i had made a scene at the bus stop.. sorry tt i am a stubborn ger.. hehe but u made me realised how impt u are to me... from my friends and from my family i had u only
everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, August 08, 2006
(
tiredness + Sadness + Moodiness)
Friday, August 04, 2006
FUCK*
everlasting? kissed /
- Friday, August 04, 2006
(
Sadzation)
wad a farking day is this today... so tired back home... and alex said he might not come and he came... but my phone was off so ya... then he was like at the window... then he was unhappy bcoz... the teacher ask him 'what he wants'... and bcoz the way i tok to him.. in my mind i was i tot u not coming why ya here... it was not tt i dun wan to see him but just tt hmm i dun noe... i was so shagz at the moment... i undersatdn his frustration then... so i quickly fins the chn and yesh went out disappointed tt he is not ard le...
gosh i hit onto the sliding door... walk thru and back to top up my ez link... argh so bek chek... I WANNA STARVE MYSELF...
hmmm he says he will help me to do my things but the whole night i am doing the wrapping and blah blah things ALL BY myself....DUN COME NEAR ME SHOO
everlasting? kissed /
- Friday, August 04, 2006
(
R E L A X)
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
last night was henry last day in hanabi... so ya i was invited and persuaded to go for k!!! but it turn out to be a dinner with all the cooks... haha i am the only ger meimei there... but lucky there all treat me very nice... hmmm no one tok to me anymore.. haha when henry is gone no more fun in OT le!!! haha but i am going to find him soon...
he is a 29yrs old guy... hmmm recently just joined some singapore cycling thingy...haha then went cycling and had fun after so long of hs life then he realsie wad exactly he want... yesh a dinner of gossips... they tell me wad's been happening at OT... william's gf... eeek some china woman ...seducing the guys there... sux just look at her just looks like a giraffe... hehe and then another one is rachel.. heard tt there is many politics... and ya seems like working at ot is no longer fun..haha
yesh and then suppose to be a farewell thingy BUT it ended like @11... so me and henry went for a chat at breko cafe... quite a nice place... tho... open air.. and yesh COCO twister sux..haha then ya yaddle yaddle... till 1... gosh...
tt's my friend... it was then i felt so relax aside frm work enjoying the night breeze...hehe maybe i just longed for such hanging out night feeling
ANYWAYZ today i went to collect my pay coz FAT BOSS JAMES called me yst..haha claiming tt by himself but not a term i gave him... yesh but they count my pay wrongly... ARGH only half ! 520 bcomez 260!!!! damn fark sia... angry tho... then boss out town till next week... argh!!! btw i am given a complimentary to makan at hanabi for 4 PAX wor... think who has tt too? haha but not much craving for hanabi tho... haha only for the handrolls and korokke....
alex bday coming... cracking my brain... whywhy earn so little...haha damn thinking of making everything simple nice and sweet!!!! muah he is the best... OH MY shows coming out fast and the furious! CLICK! show show show!
CHILDCARE!!!!!
great i shout and scream and scold the kids...i handle 11 kids at one shot.. and one ultra challenging b'r ... tt i must hold him 24 hrs... he is ultimate destroyer... Irfan! the terror!!!! how me and my form tr wish he is not here!!! giving me trouble.. and now i am firm i am not afraid of chn cry!!!! i am MAD now..haha tml i wanna do musci and movement with them... so it is like YUPIE! i love them tho... and JK is said to be my bro... coz i prefer him more than adam!!!!!!!!!!!! YUPZ
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, August 02, 2006
gers
mini match box
