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i'm tired i can't be bothered with anything right now)
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
Roar! zzzzzzzzzzz
everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, November 29, 2005
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a day to be remembered!)
after one year of r/s we still can stay so strong and long tog! i am amazed! perhaps coz we din really spend time but yes quality time we did always! hmmm thinking back it is like why din i met u earlier... and of course thank god for giving you to me!
lots more things to be done tho? right ALEX?
everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, November 29, 2005
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first lesson plan Letter 'B')
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
i wrote my own book! and had my materials and i say the lesson had the message delivered but it was rather not organised! yeah! i felt confi and my bonds with the kids are relatively strong.... and getting stronger...
MEL HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! TML! 18 years old now then same as me... haha
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, November 23, 2005
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closer? or further apart?)
i dunnoe how to elaborate wad had happen today.... but it has all simmered down...
all i could rem is i am so excited and happy to c u... but ya forgetfuness... show how much i mean to u... and ya attitude coz of ya mis read? miscommunication... anmd knowing ya wrong and yet u hurt me again? wad's wrong with u?
u hurt me for wad u said... ta action make me stand motionlessly...leading me walk ...and leading me walk to the main road and to be ran down by the cars... i tried so hard and thoughtful but in the end wad's wrong with u?u did nth... and make as if it was my fault and i walk alone just with u bside... just like any other strangers...when u r with friends dun find ME! u r not yaself! at least not the u i noe! STAY AWAY FROM ME!
every thing has cooled down... but when the scenes flashes across my mind it was like god spare me... it was like a moment of heart broke... wei qu... sadness...death!
maybe i have high expectations... maybe all the while i have been thinking of pple and maybe i'm slightly tired and i want pple to think of me more! now i felt wad lex felt having guys to msg me when today i saw this junior msg him... irritated!
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, November 23, 2005
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Stranded and only left with your love)
Saturday, November 19, 2005
another week has gone... just now there was a short conversation among my bro and mum and dad... and hmmm made me wanna to go out of sch and find a job... but hanabi job sux...
hmmm why not they just set me free and i can share their burden... i guess now outside find a proper job is hard man...hmmm... today i felt sick... i have lots of phlem in my throat... and hmmmm felt a bit tired and feverish... at home i manage to fin my speech presentation for sf on monday... but i think wad me going to say abit out of point and not well organise... haha... then now doing my ec... i'm doing the intro of body language... hmmm only manage to get one good book... think later i'll set off to the lib at 230...
damn wad a day man... btw last night was my childcare grad... it was short like 6 to 7 plus only ...just as wad i have predicted... and i saw adrian from OB... hmmm he was there to wait for his gf... and my prediction was right one of the ger from playgroup came hanabi to eat...and his family think they are big shots...horrible...
the performance was ok... when me and driz reach there we were told tt they don need out help... hmm then say we say we only come and watch... at first was a bit weird... chn only call driz name as usual... then hmmm i help them to dress up well driz help to make up...ya! and then perfomance...hmmm first was worship and next was N2 food rap... then the playgroup.... haha i lead them to the stage and my job is to lead them down... at the grand finale so scary! all the chn are to be on stage with the teacher to do some exercise dance... and i was so scared tt the child at the front will fall ah... and indeed bryan nearly .. i guess... phew* and the children walking down the stairs was like scary too... i scare they fell but i only got two hands... and this show the teacher din organise well and then when the parents want to pick up the chn we like protectors of the chn and the parents like kidnapper like tt... no parents are aloowed to bring their child away until they were back sch downstairs... then me waited and waited with the chn ...till driz need to go off then i went off to find lex in clementi...
last night was like so long din c him... and again i ended up in tears and in his arms... always!
Now i am getting worse... i started to dislike and it is growing in me... i tried to understand but someone is testing my patience and taking me for granted!
everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, November 19, 2005
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wads with me?)
Thursday, November 17, 2005
i miss alex, sorry i din mean to be like tt... just tt i just want to spend time with u
everlasting? kissed /
- Thursday, November 17, 2005
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my heart sank)
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
the conversation btw us is like so short? or it is me tt i got to say the stuff tt u wanna hear? or i shld just conc the conversation all on u? or act i dun really like him talk about driving liscense... coz whenever me free ya will be doing ya stuff..isn't it?and then the only time we spent is like so short and ya PMS... and ya... wed i act din wanna to wait for driz... i was so happy tt i can meet him after my filming but no... inthe end he went to two places... i was no mood tt in the end i pei driz.... then just nice he say he wanna meet me.... act i was abit lan lan b4 tt... but always his presence change me...
i dun noe why i felt so damn sad... hope my sis not home so early... if not she found her sis crying will be such stupid thingy... it seems like we are so far apart and maybe i got high expectation ba... i always wanted pple to be like me....
sux... and there he can be angry of me for knowing nth about something...argh* can u reflect? or shld i be the one with prob....
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, November 16, 2005
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damn)
somehow i dislike to stay at home... coz i got no proper place to study and to sleep and some times and i just heard mum complaining to dad tt we shld move to hdb coz the rent for condo is too ex.... sad ah! i felt tt i cannot do anything to help.... sian
dun feel v good now! hmmm alex just went for his pratical... now the two of us... hmmm din get to spend time with each other really much... so hmmm... kind of really no time for each other... felt tt some how we are taking each other for granted? tt sometimes we din care much for each other? is it true? maybe it is only my one side feeling but not for the other way round!
esp for this week me only work like weekends...and i felt i am so weak now! as in last sem i can work almost everyday but now i felt tt all my proj and stuff are all untouched... i dun noe wad i am doing any7way!
hmmm somehow i felt tt my classmates are no longer tt close tho? true? maybe another new memeber in the grp coz a lot of thingy? hmmm i dunnoe? but i still guess everything still same for me sch boring but i can always spice up my own life... hey i really mandy she so nice but sometimes yet always bullied... why god is so unfair to her i tink they shld grant her a beatiful body instead a beatiful heart? iz is always like tt? i somehow thnk tt pple whu think tt they are unperfect are always happy? true? haha
hmmmm today i went to my childcare they had a full dress rehearsal... ben ben my fav kid might be changing sch... i'll cry man... if i get to see him again ever? joel just recovered and came back after his head stiches... hmm and samuel look so cut in the veggie uniform... hhaa... ok i must start my second lesson plan...
anyway i am quite upset tt things we planned for one week in advance cannot be promised?
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, November 16, 2005
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Bumble Bees)
Saturday, November 12, 2005
empty promises? Miscommunication? Misunderstanding? The real stage of life and the cruel reality of life? Tots and appreciation ???
NONE of the above!
it has been sometime that i last blogged! hmmm sch starts and my lappy spoils and worst is that every mth i had diff thingy challenging me! had my life got better>? NO? life ard me exist Jealous! within me and btw others! awkardness everywhere! the trust still there ma?
me and alex still the same... every time bicker on tiny stuff! hmmm angry for tiny stuff! but the r/s is all the while getting stronger ... i suppose? hmmmm...
i had went to my the other phrase of life my transition? to a young adult? wad are my roles then? i'm tired! and torn .....
everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, November 12, 2005
