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changing)
Thursday, November 30, 2006
mum bot me a strudel i began to tok more to my family memebers sis just bot me a shorts from addidas warehouse sale and i started to tok to dad on the phone too... guess i am accepting the reality? and beagn to realise tt life is short and they are still pple who cared for me...
and alex and me are getting beter i want an eraser to rub away today...
i went to andel's dad wake... hmmm he died peacefully.. he have tougher road to go now...glad tt i accompany him for ne hour... :) jia you
everlasting? kissed /
- Thursday, November 30, 2006
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Haunting)
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
gosh today was bad bad day... esp IEP and first time pple said such things to me... 'DISAPPOINTED in me' gosh this thing is haunting me i felt so sick and tired and pressurised... why in the first place i volunteer this stupid childcare... coz no other choice? coz we were suppose to ask and no one gets back? why me to liaise with the centre coz i work there b4... and this woman she was sick and away and went for operation we couldn't get her for any updates and now she blaming me...
i felt so sad tho... coz act i respect her... the tot of it made me wanna cry again... the tot of wad for put in so much effort and at the end i get such treatment and rubbish... why and someone pls define group work to me... sometimes i am a bit frustrated tt i dun undersatdn why pple made empty promises i must say.. we have to all work tog as a grp memebers... but first we must all be clear of wad we need to do and to do our own part! yes at least our own part... i really hate iep now but the tot of teaching the kids kinda excites me...
i just felt sad n dun wanna tok to anyone... i cried first time ever for my project she said till as if i am so irresponsible.. so not going a/c to instrction and said all of us cannot follow simple instruction but did she state it in the first place... then i jotted down notes of wad she said the last time i met her... she said nth but only we discussed on the file... wtf... i was then a bit angry tt why i was there alone and no one followed since there was a three hours break then... hmm i felt so f* up...
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, November 29, 2006
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DaamDaamDaam)
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
now feeling sense of satisfaction as things are going on smoothly... hehe first IEP went on smoothly.. it had been implemented for three weeks le... hmmm act 2 weeks... first lesson was great and second lesson was humorous... stolen some pics from mandy hehe...
and my ASECS scored and A tt's 50 % for the module hurray all thanks to all... :)
everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, November 28, 2006
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Under the sea)
Monday, November 20, 2006
gosh i went to rent the vcd under the sea and many many vcds to keep me occupied to do project... then heavy rained.. and thunder and lightning came.. then alex was really great.. he went to rent the car and came to fetch me and then sent me to little tots... in my heart i dun wanna him to come but i want tt kinda feeling... when couples get tog long? i dunnoe wad happen? me and alex are those kind tt have to quarrle to be tog... so we will act say wad we really mean in our heart? till now i still wanna be with him so much and everytime seem to be a brand new day and still in honey moon period.. not so much of sensation but i dare say tt I LOVE HIM.... tonzs ROAR!
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, November 20, 2006
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Panting)
Sunday, November 19, 2006
gosh... sunday and i took half day off and we fininshed a 3 by 3 m tall and wide background of the beach for our project...whooo cause we have great pple like mel man and me... haha and of course pam whu is goign to do the sea creature... hehe and of course hannah whu is doing her part on the lit review...
eeek next week will be the start of the busiest oncoming weeks... our grp now stuck on the field trip to go changi or labrador... think all have to settle on monday... gosh it is the safety issue again.... hmmmm friday celebrated the two gers bday yea same place as my bday which is settlers cafe...haha this time we played new game and it is so fun...hehe... cannot descibe but sadly to say is i had to rush to work... hmmmm... so evryone went back hurried?
guess me and alex grew mature in our relationship... and i tend to treasure more the time we spent tog.. and we started to plan for our own future... hehe he is going to be a police man..hopefully and i wanna go fly ard... hehe pray pray no high hopes but a dream :)love u alex
everlasting? kissed /
- Sunday, November 19, 2006
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Hecticmania)
Thursday, November 16, 2006
moving on a very fast pace for this week and i feel so used to it le... gosh i done my shrimp costume and crab... now gonna work on the lanyard... very busy this week tho? hmmm monday went down to childcare and had project discussion and home to rest? then projects meetings everyday for diff project and yes tonight i had conducted interview for 2 parents and 2 more to go to br done on sunday... and me and mandy found many many helpful ideas from parenthood... yesh.!
tml bday clebration for the gers and check the games i bot for andel.. gosh itravelled here and there... and i saw an ideal x'mas present so i shall work towards it? hehe as for me and alex... yesh i am getting used to my busy life.. and guess we had reached the mutual understanding stage and ya... hmm the givign freedom stage and no longer showing any anger but showering love chim ah? hehe
wow btw i bot a bracelet for andel and wethead.. and uno cards transparent andwater proof i want!
everlasting? kissed /
- Thursday, November 16, 2006
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stranger)
Monday, November 13, 2006
i am getting sick.. sick of the life... ya concern is there but ya words contradict ya action... disappointed SHOO
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, November 13, 2006
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VEXED)
argh so irritated now... dunnoe why just find tt sudeenly so many things to do so many things to worry abt... hmmmm projects was kinda irriating prev... and now at least we come to a conclusion... and then ya i had to scarifice my work to do project wor... :( sianzation.. then next mth i will earn less wor... sick sian... why like tt...
then must fin my interview within this week ah... argh... and wed to send out newsletter? and thurs projects? fri projects and celebration and sunday project and sat work.. damn.. i find life so UNFAIR
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, November 13, 2006
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Tots concert)
Saturday, November 11, 2006
waw.. tots concert was afterall a great success i guess... coz just by looking at the parents smile...the kids and the teacher... gosh it was a hectic friday for me... morning lesson at 8 and then test... gosh think i am going to fail that test of mine... then i rushed to the childcare.. i was kinda upset and disappointed tt my grp memebers bcome like this... i dun noe why... ok and then yes i settled things with my supervisor.... i was so reassured and thank miss naidu and i hope ya operations will be sucess....
oh ya then once again the whole class was thrown to me and i help the kids chnaged with helpof other 4 ech 1st year student then reach there almost all parents here le... gosh then the concert suppose to start at 430.. then we started at 445...haha then gosh first music theres song but no lyrics...ahah then i ask tr rohya to sing then she say cannot then in the end the k2 sang..and cute linyu can dance so well in sch but there on stage she is scared... same for kylie...oh gosh and my class dance like shit...hahaha :) great day
everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, November 11, 2006
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Massmania)
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
went for a VIVO walk with alex... gosh... lesson at 8 today and me and mandy was early but pam and mel were even earlier haha.... then lesson was sleepyy and then i was managed to stay awake thruout tweety bird granny lesson... then had a email test and fell aslp then... then wentdown to tots.... yehs/... the chn dance improved...yeah... gosh i can face the parents now... then bro fetch me and mum to vivo then bot a phone.. free with 50 bucks voucher... and then bot a samsung phone.. lousy one..hehe but i like black... then went to hunt for my concert clothes but nono...nth aat all... only bot a hp strap... then home..and research...hehe...
MONDAY... gosh NOV OCT DEC are the busiest mths of my life... coz projects and work and my commitments.. i find tt pple are selfish and always think for themseleves and nv think how much pple had put in... so i was sad on monday i find tt why i always find trouble and thungs for myself all bcoz of whu... none other than ALEX... hmmm dun wanna comment much but somehow some times he will disappoint me... monday i was so busy i had lesson at 9... then i fin at 12... then i had to do project the head to childcare then home to bath to attend wedding... haha no comments... but i have tons of feelings... happy...sad... innocence... anger...foolishness....at least everything is over... fuck care then...
however after tt eating at mc made me happy........hmmmmmmmmmmm.... some pics on sat.. and monday presentation
everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, November 07, 2006
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Next Level ---->)
Saturday, November 04, 2006
weeee... saturday is here.. and yesh i spent time with alex... so many things happen over the weeek damn bust weekk and my stress level is so so high tt i cry and cry today for too many time le?
Let me recall......
MONDAY
IEP lesson... childcare brot down my radio......Went down to Hong kah north CC... gosh to try the sound there coz i'll be incharge of music on COncert... then with alex in lib to look for book....
Tuesday
School till 6... then work...
Wednesday
School... discussion...went to OT to send sms... makan with alex and walked ard in marina to look for his sis's wedding present...
THURSDAY
horror day... met my supervisor... wwwoooo i went to childcare first i bathed the kids... rehearse the dance... then the gers supposed to come down at 11... but late nvm... the whole sch rehearsal start... then i was so afarid tt they cannot make it after the rehearsal end...yeah and they made their own way here.. and watched the concert too... and yesh they say good... but my classs... sad sia.. cannot make it.. hey buck up... then went on to the discussion in the office...wooooooo... good everything was smooth but guess wad hannah was late.. and lost the way coz i gave wrong add.. sorry...hehe then yesh everything was settle and yes miss naidu helped us a lot.. thanku... and gers great job...
jope everything will go smoothly as planned... then stayed in sch to do proj till 10 plus.. gosh
Friday
1 hour lesson... then childcare .. rehearse dance again... and then home to do work.. lessonplans... checklist... then work... and attitude to alex..haha
TODAY...
my r/s with alex had rose to the next level... like wad i had said i cried and cried due to many things... i hate the idea of buying phone and going to phone shop and even to look at phone... and i hate crowded place and expecting the unexpected... miscommunication... and ifelt a bit uncomfy today with his dad.. sorry to say tt... maybe too long din go out with pple with age... forgive me to say tt... coz ya...haha not to say more... then i felt him so diff treating me not as impt as before.. he was so eager to find ben and left me alone... argh... damn then both were not good... he was angry... i was like wtf... u always dun noe wad happen and like me to say wad happen... maybe it is just tt boys are unsensitive creatures.. u noe things are hard to say thru words.. esp i am A CRY BABY... not a cb ok!
hehe things got better after thrashing things out... he said me making him angry made him loved me more... he dunnoe why neither do i??? haha so things were fine we looking forward to monday to spend time tog? hehe he was wondering wad to wear...i cant help coz i will be busy maybe taking a reef walk at Labrador park... with the gers....bickers and quarrels are good! they improve relationship and understanding...
I AM HUNGRY... so short of pple at work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we need more pple anyone?
everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, November 04, 2006
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spontaneous)
Thursday, November 02, 2006
yes now i treasure my sleeping time coz day time i am actively workign on project...
yes next thurs we shall fin the project hmmm the asecy sculpture one.... then week 5 do the report and then week 6 starts the interview... gosh nextweek another busy weekk..
anyway ystd went down ot and sent sms... and alex accompanied me after tt...wooooooo.... i want a break!
everlasting? kissed /
- Thursday, November 02, 2006
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cant wait for monday)
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
coz it will be another day spending time with alex... these few days i feel like superwoman...haha....
MONDAY MONDAY hope wecanget down to labrador park hope everything goes smoothly... childcare concert next fri and hope everything willbe ok
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, November 01, 2006
