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FOOL in life)
Sunday, April 30, 2006
damn today is not a good day for me... heavy rain... sleepy off day wad a day when i quarrel with him... abt sumthing tt pricks me all the time when it happens... which i am found like unreasonable? but to me it means to me cuz i am really hurt badly tt time.. and each time i think of it, it is like i dun wanna undergo such thingy again? and so ya.... it may sound serious and it really a scar for me and it always link me to many others thing...
then is WORK... u were unhappy tt i pick up calls for them... and yes... i am at fault to forget the promise i made to u ... and it cause u to be so angry and started to rattle at me...
i wanna search for a new job soon.. maybe this time sumthing related to my study fields... but it seems like it is the me and the attachment tt makes me not able to move away from hanabi... i find pple are all so superficial... and friends???? say hurtful things to kill unintentionally??? so i stayed away from them...
:) things are fine now and i felt good with him... at least i noe he din give up on ... i think i need some planning? and a change of my mind to put myself in prior? so i wun make any wrong step in my life? or my family first? damn i'm such a fool in life...
everlasting? kissed /
- Sunday, April 30, 2006
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I AM not a donkey)
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
i'm called a donkey... coz i sound like one i guess??? haha sch was ok... i started to like...
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, April 26, 2006
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MONSTER)
Monday, April 24, 2006
ahhhhnoone at home the house all mine... alrite i need a new hair cut soon? tml? hehe...
just decided to type my notes so yupz my lecture notes all in my lappy... and tml another day of sch...
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, April 24, 2006
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I'll wait)
wooohooo found this nice place at paragon with nice pastas and pizzas... andel treated us to makan.. and yes the place is nice and the food is nice... gonna drag alex to eat pizza with me...
just had a long talk with him at the bus stop.. he sounded so hmmm calm but a little sad i guess... but trust me alex... u will be a good man... at least a capable man like me... haha... we are still young anyway... i'll wait for u... remember dun give up...btw... i really foresee myself as the rest manager and u bring ya khaki come eat OK! haha
btw...he passed his driving test... on 20 APRIL... cool ah... so proud of him to pass just one try... tho no car to drive but hmmm i cannot afford to but a real car i bot him a model car a cheverlot? car model? a truck to be exact... yeah ot cost me near 40... so ya a mini present to make him happy as a form of celebration or a form of consolation if he failed...so ya... ended work and went to serene centre with an umbrella... coz drizzled... stood at the stall for quite some time.. then ya... SHITZ... now i regret buying tt... today i saw a subaru remote control car at a cheaper rate...haha... but it is the thought tt counts and I dare say more to come man... haha... then... yupz... then went all the way to bbdc to wiat for him... took two long bus ride... and had a walk in JP... then a bit lethargic? after long rides and so kinda mood swing.. i was so happy when he annouced thru the phone tt he pass... so sleepy then... but i met him he asked me to go watch the video with me... and then i was asked to go out of the room coz yupz i got no cert as in i am not allowed... i was frustrated and so ya... and got a little angry... coz i felt a bit things not going in my way and i felt a bit unappreciated for so much i had done... so ya...
then as compensation we went to eat PIZZA HUT... cool it is the same place we went on va;entine's we ate lots... i love pizzas.... so yupz... went his hse then to explore the 'truck' then HOME...
so ya... i wanna cut hair too...
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, April 24, 2006
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Wouldn't it be nice to doo dooo doood do)
Thursday, April 20, 2006
tml alex having his test... i'm ready to celebrate for him... but i'mstill scared tt if the bad thing happen i dunnoe how to cope and make him happy lei? coz i knw it meant a lot to him...
so i must think of sumthing tml when i work.....
i can sense my capability...haha bragging myself again... today another customer gave me her card and hinted if i want to have a change of career... hehe... then a few days ago one customer called hanabi to look for me and ask me to call him when i am free...coz prev he asked me if i am interested to open a tution center... so ya.. and JAmes said if after graduate he can offer me a good title in hanabi... and andel told me today tt they are expanding to third outlet so most prob if i come out they let me manage... those pioneer staff will benefit the most... so ya...
yesterday we were announced of change of bosses in hanabi... james and vera no longer the bosses. .. and angeline will leave hanabi ... so ya our new boss from arab... some rich man and to him this company is a small investment... so ya and it is said all things to be unchange and it will be better for staff in wise of OPPORTUNITIES...
evrything i think of wad i really want to do in furture... i will somee how work hard till age of 50 and enjoy my life...like wad andel say xian ku ho dian...by the way i see this fat man dancing parpara in arcade...haha and i had a good laugh with alex... and andle danced like only the hands are moving... ahah then we went sakae sushi to eat buffet... he know the pple there...evrywhere he goes he noe the manager there...so ya...
tml be the best day ever i pray* but dun give up too ok...
everlasting? kissed /
- Thursday, April 20, 2006
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The man i had is the man i need)
Monday, April 17, 2006
hmmm read mel's blog heard she met an accident... hmmm tsk tsk must take care ok...life is vulnerable... argh*
today sent dad to airport early in the morning at 6 plus tho... and then yup walk ard for like 1 hour plus and he checked in... w/o eating bfast tog cause got to pass his baggage to his boss coz over weight... hmmm thensis treat us eat crystal jade so ya and the three of us went to eat just the gers...
this time din really felt much sending dad off.. but tho i had foresee tt i will cry and hug him but the actual day is different...but me bot a card for him tho...
then went to alex hse to do my tamagotchi things...haha brot my new ger alex to see the king... by making 5000 pts donations... hehe and i only manage to get a ring...hmmm no use... then ya we went to suntec then marina square... i saw this blue shirt tt i wanted him to trybut he say he DIE DIE also wun wanna try coz he say he look sux... but after much pleading... he tried and he like it...HAHA... wth... so he chose the blue shirt instead of a pink long sleeves shirt...wahaha...
then kinda free so pei him to rent vcd for his aunti ..so ya we watched 50 firstdates tog... such a sweetie show to watch tho... so ya and then a dinner to end my day...
tok a lot to him today unlike my tired days.... so ya tok till i find tt hmmm afterall i'm diff from his ex...HAHA JEALOUS... CRYBABY... and at least he dun feel sian tosee me everyday...wahaha
THURS me taking half day off for him... got his car practical test...so very crucial... if pass it will be a celebration and fail will be him consolation... act i foresee him passing...so YEAH!!!!pray* pray*
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, April 17, 2006
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Back to Bukit Timah)
Saturday, April 15, 2006
damn how i wish i can have a change of job...afterall working is so not fun... back to Bukit timah
DAY 1
boring... eveyone so no life afterwork and even before tt had set their beds to sleep...
Day 2
everyone was stun tt i sold so many sake... one 70 plus, one 50 plus, one 30 plus,and beers.. haha
Day 3
came early and i did everything...the rest justslack ard and do nth but tok... i stared at some of them...
Hmmm i wonder how am i suppose to spend my days there then... so ultimate boring that i camehome today... even if alex come to find me we wun noe where to go too ba?haha unlike OT the pple there more lively ... here all so dead... lifeless....
hoping to find a new job if things dun change....hehe
last night bot kindersurprise as easter present for him... nice choc and cute toys...hehe... btw dad flying off on monday... hope things will be better for my family... but in my heart i know it is hard for my dad... :)
everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, April 15, 2006
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Looking forward and peeping back)
Monday, April 10, 2006
yesterday sunday was my last day at ODEON towers... everything was fine as usual i felt nothing for leaving the place but just tt i'll miss andel's joke and i miss eating out wif the guys...yesterday got a treat from andel at yoshinoya... coz he won like 4d? for like 250bucks only...haha... and saturday he drove me and stella to OG ORCHARD bringing us to the tibits level... and i bot like a wholebig pack of korean crackers...WAHAHA... nice place tho... and we ate MUSHROOM POT... kinda nice but not really of my taste my liking...
these few days get to know and really interact with andel... cannot really remember toking to him last time when i work in BT... now can see and feel he looks after me and he is really my papa san... great wanna go out to have supper with him and alex again... he tot me alot of things.... like SEX? WORK? LIFE? and he really noes alot.. can hardly see tt he is 40 and got a 3 yrs old son... went shopping wit him but it was funny to see him in his fat tummy... so ya i really learnt many things....
first i learnt to have target in my life... by when i must have my firstcredit card.. my car... my first platinum card... hahah... my long goal... and then ya tok to alex about this too and kind of got something in mind for our stable future...maybe he gonna sign on army? hehe me maybe a preschool teacher? primary sch teacher? stable job tho? rest manager? tourist guide coz it will be good in sing in future when the casino opens? play therapist? yeah but definitely i must earn my own living... from now on...
so ya...tt's how i start my life... a brand new life... and i planning if my family still like this and going worse... when i graduate I WILL MOVEOUT!!! when i am stable coz i cannot take my parents selfishness and me living in no room of my own... and a house where by i reach home i see my parents meditating in the rm... each sitting on one side of the bed... it is like WTF...
wonder how tml work will be like? exciting? many things to catch up? more problems? more boring coz no town area no shopping? or more comfy coz nearer my hse... got pple i noe... like dodo papa... jack ... ah long.. shino.. and blah blah i guess? but many unfamiliar faces?i scare i cannotget used to it? or pple do changed?
My off day all spent with alex... so great stayed over at his hse... but sleep till me back ache neck ache... haha it is like wth... but he looks after me well and it makes him my bf...dunnoe how we last so long and i guess it will be very long ba...? haha and he gave me lots of morale support and there whenever i need him and never giving up on me...hehe gonna scold me tho? he forgives me whenever i mood swing...things never bored now with him... coz i had woken up le...:)
yeah i wanna eat island creamery ice cream!!!! yeah!!!!!!!
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, April 10, 2006
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Love u and love u not)
Friday, April 07, 2006
damn...work is like shit today... met a crazy customer claimed to be a jap...bullshit we think he is a mad man...came in CHONG to the sushi counter... and ordered sake and after tt when it came he said was wrong but he pointed tt... thank goodness i din take his first order... then NANCY... met sum difficulties... the man trying to be funny ordered a housepour sake and then wanted to change to a bottle which he chose frm the fridge...ANGRY and i went over to cmf with him... AND HE SHOOK ME from the back with one hand... FISH touch me i'll sue u man... and he told me i want ice bucket ice bucket... shit u man..
haha then can u imagine a customer shouting ocha onigai when he need tEA... cRAZY!i was scared man... boss not in yet then once i saw her i told them to BE WARE... so my lady boss went over and tried to clear the ala carte menu and drinks menu and he raised his voice... and my boss was angry...haha and then warned all gers to not served him... and james went over to tok to him... we all say he was not normal but the sushi pple say he is... i can't imagine how waitress in real jap rest survive man... pity**
sisterhood
meet up with my sis today and i took half day off... same old things we tok about our parents... WE HAVE TOTALLY GIVEN UP HOPE IN THEM... who's parents will never think of their children's future... who were once so rich that din even wanna save any money for the family... and now desperately going into meditation... CRAZY!!! damn... i felt i had grown up but still struggling... so many things i had to cope... my work my studies my family... some times i really envy friends who dun have to work... damn...
treat my sis BELATED bday lunch at swensens... and then evening had a chat at baker's inn... things are still same feelings and bond still strong...went to buy beads to make necklaces and bracelets for me and friends... bdays... now precious tots got a good gift for friend..hehe damn i saw a dress frm top shop... white but ex i wanna get a dress for my bday and eat at some buffet place at novena... some international buffet similar to paris... yum yum... my sis is great she noes all yummy buffet... bless her*
BLESS me*
of all my life till now one third of my life had gone... i realised i only had one closest kin whu is my sister..
everlasting? kissed /
- Friday, April 07, 2006
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DARK to BRIGHT)
Thursday, April 06, 2006
Wednesday
working full... alex came to find me... to look at my phone... now bandaged with a plaster...haha then went hereen he bot a cd... so ya tt's my day... and had bfast with andel and had a ride back too... and vera treat us food some famous toa payoh coffe shop food yummy*
Tuesday
alex's enrolment day for his IS module... stayed over at his hse supposed to eat mac for bfast and he bot back for me as i continue to sleep ... so sweet...and then work half day
Monday
my off day... went out all day with alex... first met and open my very first saving account... hehe so happy i got uob a/c haha happy coz i am finally saving now.... hmmm never too late i guess... and then sat wentshopping and bot some stuff from topshop and women's secret...with alex and tt was a great day too...
after a/c went queensway... first we ate meatballs... and many things green salad... cheese cake...sum spagetti and c fish rice... and chicken wings...haha so sweet...
then act wanna go west coast and he act going to playsoccer...haha but change of plans and we end up watching lord of the ring... and then go makan and continue to watch the last part....haha but not yet finished yet.... it's been so long tt we spend time tog....
my new baby
taken good care of her PIBRAfirst generation...and it is fun to be in tamagotchi land
everlasting? kissed /
- Thursday, April 06, 2006
