My L^V Alec

(alex tan pin pin!!!!)
Sunday, July 31, 2005

hmmmm over the weekends something happen btw me and alex and haha... finally for this end of the month we are no longer quarrelling anymore... so i suppose it is a good start for us... hmmmm and most of all we become more loving... as in hmmm he's the guy whom i can talk everything to him... even my deepest secrets which only became me and him noe only... hmmm he's the guy who i noe i can lean on no matter wad happen... and he will always be there for me... we are still in the process of noeing each other more tho...???? haha... rite...

hehe... work was hmmm fun and tiring... hmmmmm now got more and more new comers... hmmm i dun really like... so blur...haha like me... iz ok... but the attitude SUX!!!!! haha... hmmm after tdy i found alarick not bad... haha he's a very nice boy....!!!!!!!!! haha..........

alex alex... hmmm wad power had ya got... haha i'm so crazy over u... and the heart to heart tok and his true feelings TOUCHED ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thank tt i still got him ard........... i can loss everything... except him!!!!!!!!!!!!1

everlasting? kissed /
- Sunday, July 31, 2005

(frog prince story)
Tuesday, July 26, 2005

once upon the time there was a frog prince living by the pond. he's the most handsome frog in the serene garden!!!! wahahahaha... tt's my frog prince... iz been such long time tt i went to queenstown and ikea... and alex tan pin pin bot a slipper BROWN colour... act i like the black slipper i tried hehe... but i din wan to get anything but in the end i got myself a like frog prince frm ikea ard i think 12.90 buck.... weeee when he sent me home i suggested him to help me catch antz for my antz farm... and we did caught a few like 6 to 9 but i the end they crawl out... so hmmm happy for a moment... haha buthten they crawled out from the top!!!!!! argh* then i decided to catch a bigger antz other daycoz night falls le...

ya... hmmm so far i fin my first lesson plan only hehe.... but i thik iz enough le ba... tml then i shall satrt doing my AW... wait till i got my e journal... argh*... i hate writing essay my eng sux and sentence structure iz like worse!!!! haha tml gonna c joel and ben ben dance weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..........

hmmmm aelx tan pin pin... hmmmm think gonna clebrate his bday and his bros bday all tog... hahaha weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i'll go wif u if u wanna me go wahahahhahhaha............... rem i can't wait to go hanabi to eat.... hurry the mth faster end,.....

everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, July 26, 2005

(a brand new week)
Monday, July 25, 2005

this week i got lots of things to do so i cannot waste anytime... i must manage all my proj and dear and work all at a time... haha... so happy today... i din managed to study my fm... just read thru for 30 mins in the morning... coz i was too slpy to wake up early.. and last night i was damn tired... hmmm alex now he's off to send shu off... hmmm

he's always so busy... bck to today.. hmmm i skipped dle... b4 tt hada 2 hours break.. then was like hmmm laugh till we crazy in the lib for nth.. but mel seems stress ah ... hmmm kind of irritated by us... hmmm muack not stress k... hugz... got us!!!!!! we do thingys tog k... hmmmm then i went off to JP... had my facial and had my brows trimmed i look ger now... HAHHAHAHAHA... great.... 2 hours lying there... think i wanna save up to go for more session of facial coz all my six session fin... hmmmm my face now iz like squeezed till redish le... the whole face... omg...haha then she returned me the dunnoe wad thing which i bot lik 120 for it and i can use like 12 times.. hmmm so i think i was rich last time...

so far i just watched the incredible tales? haha nice!!!!! i shant work every mon and sat morning...weeee... haha then hmmm tml going out with alex to buy slippers in queens way... oh my... today is like hmmmm so nice.... when i'm done with my facial first thingy was to msg him then while i was going down the escalator i SAW HIM>.. haha wee the feeling iz good!!!! then i bot jap pancake and then SUSHI and we had tt on bus back... haha and marshed potato from 7-11 so unhealthy...

hmmm today i had done some dle stuff... tml i shall research on CD and then fin my lesson plan and then and start my AW>.. so be home by 10... hmmmm weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.............

i must restart my life and ya........ lex bday coming le.. weee... then i told him to save money and then we go HANABI makan... must ah... i waited for tt so long le..... weeeeeeeeee................... love yayayayyayayaya...

xiao ma... i miss u... all the while i rem ya laughing which rocks back and for... haha my friends are now influenced by mememmeme... and jp reminds me of her tooo.... hmmmm must meet up next mth with them le...

everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, July 25, 2005

(a bbusy week is going to START!!!)
Sunday, July 24, 2005

oh my next week i am working the whole week except on monday... hmmmm i wonder how am i able to cope... hmmmm then my weekends is going to past soon... oh NO... and i did nth... tonite i got to pia... hmmm i woke up early and fin my cd inidividual part... ytsd i tried to ask ANDEL if i can come to work at night only he was like pleasing me and told me stories... anyway nvm... hmmm i shall study during my break... weeeeeeeeeee.......... i kinda scared i'll fail my fm... hmmmm sux man.... hmmm then i shall discipline myself a bit...

the past two days i'm like gonna fall sick .... first i got slight fever but still i went to work... then i got gastic last night... oh my.... iz so horrible... then ystd was like hmmmm this big grp of NEXT hgair salon pple came... wow all so cool the guys and gers are all so pretty... haha then came the guys gathering tog... hmmmm xiao mao leaving soon i shall get her a card... hopefully we will still keep in contact...

last night cousin msg... haha weeeeeeeeeee... miss him... hmmm din contact me all he care abt is the gf... hmmm so many things happen... and on fri mel was so sad... hmmm hope things will be better for her and do TAKE GOOD CARE AH>.... haha she like small baby like tt... but see her cry like she's not the funny fun ger i knew hmmmm like so WEAK like tt... haha we are the same kind of pple!!!! hmmmm i'm hungry and i got like RICE for breakfast......... which i had not been havin a proper meal past two days......................... argh*

everlasting? kissed /
- Sunday, July 24, 2005

(weeeeeeee good luck alex)
Thursday, July 21, 2005

heyhey tml alex last paper... good luck to u wor... must do ya best... c tt u understand the thingy i'm so happy for u... today spent half the day with alex...hmmm tok a lot of stuff... hehe yeah... so hmmmm i just can say tt i am blessed love u....

everlasting? kissed /
- Thursday, July 21, 2005

(me at home for the day!)
Wednesday, July 20, 2005

weeeeeeeeeee.......... i felt so much better after spending some time by myself... for the whole afternoon eversince i reach home i was like reading thru my DLE notes... weee think we must have a very good presentation for the proj... hehe then i fin my individual part of scv... hmmm wad i need to do iz to colour my book... then i happen to find two cds haha in my bro drawers... hehe which iz my sis cds THE CULT OF ANT & DEC... hmmmm i rem last time i like their songs...haha i think then i found 911 too... last time she bot a lot but hmmmm almost all gone to my grandpahse when we moved tt time... hmmmmm..... think afterall staying home iz not bad... but i somehow felt fat at home coz... sit down the whole day in front of the tv... was captivated by some ghost show when i reach home... haha and then ya i wanna get backstreet boys cd... hmmm and maybe hmmm.. i dunnoe...

oh ya just now mum was telling me to pay this mth phone bills... hmmm ok... hmmm hope i can work more after this rest at home... hmmm then heard tt dad wont get salary pay for this mth coz he resigned hmmm so i guess next mth will be a tough mth for us ba... then i got to save up more ba... snack less? or dun snack then i'll slim like a piece of paper...eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee........

hmmmm i was rather mean and bad today hmmm but i get to pamper myself with macdonalds... weeeeeeeeeee......... somehow miss alex.... hmmmm he went out for dinner with his classmates... LEAVING ME here...haha.... hmmmmmm... tml will be my another rest day and i'll be fully energize for my next new mth and work...

oh when sch holis i'm going for a job interview at conrad hotel so i'm going to work with sam... then the pay is better like 6 per hour... then i will be working two jobs... wooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!! i wonder how to manage then... haha ahhhh next week music and movement and monday i'll make a trip down to TRINITY!!!!!! weeee i hope to see ben ben and maybe samuel too... argh* samuel!!!!! i'll get barney to chew UUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!

everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, July 20, 2005

(Joel's words)

"I want teacher huiping to come and stay with me" thx JOEL!!!!!! before i went off i said goodbye to my dearest...joel samuel... i help the rest cover their blankey and went off... joel was mumbering to himself but i cld hear my name and bout his home... i'm so glad tt he will say such things to me... hmmmm now i noe y driz like him so much... today benben was not here... i miss him... hmmmmmmm

my lesson was a flop today... i wne t early set evrything ok... and carried out the lesson at 1045... asked the chn Samuel... andrea... yongqi and megane...to wear the apron...then intro the shakers and blah blah... then the balloon printing was alrite lah... but i think the paint i make too waterry le then the design was like not very nice... then i used two instead of three colours... sux man... then hmmm then samuel kept wanting to wash his hands... today i din have good classroom management... and blahblah... not to be mentioned... halfway i feel like giving out... i think this lesson sux... but in the end i stilll pass... wth....

now me watching some show ghost show on ch62... hmmm alex wun be finding me today... hmmm then i felt so sad... just now i really feel like going somewhere..but then when i reach home i felt comfy and was lazy to go out le... i nearly cried on the bus and during my lesson... sux lor...and just now while eating cereals with milk i tatse detergent... iz like wth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCKLAH*

i must stop all my singlish the lah leh lor and evrythingy..............argh*
I HATE TODAY 20th JULY 2005

everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, July 20, 2005

(weeeeee)
Tuesday, July 19, 2005

i love u ALEX!!!!

everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, July 19, 2005

(thank you for holding on to me...)
Monday, July 18, 2005

iz start of sch again after the week break... ehhh... i've been working almost everyday last week i guess... i look at my puch card was like woooo.... like everyday i work at least one shift... hmmmm

oh my next mth which iz like two weeks down the road i have many things to hand up...oh my!!!! sux i haven even start.... argh* and i got tests coming up... ahhh and i got to cope with work... HUIPING... u can do it...????question marks!!!!

hmmm teared today in front of alex... he said he dun understand bbut but wad do u expect me to ans... i just felt sad and inferior... and maybe coz i stress ba... but it felt so great for him to hug me hard... i'm so glad tt he din just walk away... hmmm.... dun feel ike blogging much today...

hmmmmm thanks.........

everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, July 18, 2005

(i got to get it started!!!!)

hmmm got lots of stuff to be fin... so i shall spend time to do it and fin my stuff within this two days... i think on tues i shall skip AW... coz i dun wanna do the draft for it.... so bad... hmmm but i think i got more impt stuff to be fin.. like dle and my antz farm hahah and my sam... and cd... i got to get everything started...

then ystd i typed a lot of thingy then hmmmm ya then my stupid wireless stupid! GONE! then all the thingy i type GONE! then hmmm ya * today and ystd stayed in rest. to do reservation... siao lah... customer kept calling in... haha i think whenever me ard to do reservation... haha got thingy happens... like when i pick up calls i trynot to take any reservations... haha then hmmm today ard 930 almost all customers left... hmmm today i kenna scolding frm stupid HON SON... sux man... idiot... anyway today JAMIE YEO AND GLENN ONG came!!! haha think i spelt wrongly... hmmm anyway they both looked great just as great as i saw them on the TV... hmmm like no diff... then i went to took their order and jamie was like SWEETIE wad wld u like to eat? haha then they so swt went off holding the hands... hmmm make me think of alex...

i just managed to reach home slightly early today and i pack my drawers a bit and puit all my art and craft thingy in one drawer so whenever i need anything i just go there will do... cool huh... hmmm now my hair so long le... iz still in the process of growing...haha* end of the year my hair will be short and cool so now just let it grow babababbaba.... then i borrowed a very useful science exp book... yeah.. and then HUNGRY caterpillar for my trinity kids and who's at the door... i think they will love it man... weee... but first i wanna make a fake caterpillar...haha or maybe i shld get one at BOOKABURRA>.. cool shop in forum... and the other day i spot a few more cool shops in PARAGON... weee... preschool trs shopping paradise... of course must be equiped with cash too...

xiao mao going to resign and 27 this mth will be her last day... so fast... hhmmm so sad i think w/o her work will be so sian... then gt so many new pple... tho all ok... but do work a bit slow and need to ask them to do then they will do... sux... then only left one shino... hmmm if shino leave then i'll leave too... but arthur ask me to stay coz got him...haha...

then my r/s withalex iz getting better and better... seeing him almost everyday iz so good.. then very crapy always as usual.. then just read his blog... din noe how he felt all the time.. act i think i work a bit too hard too... coz i really need the money for next mth i guess... and wad i earn iz like just nice for me to spend... hmmm coz always the first week i'll spend like half the salary le... i wish to earn more to giv mum money too... hmmmm iz just so happen tt i'm so lucky... hmmm which makes me so envious of kids whu came with parents to come to eat in hanabi.... haha so silly of me rite... but i think cannot blame lah... coz i've been thru like downs and ups and then downs again... so hmmm how i wish there have never been ups b4....silly rite!!!!

i just love sch so much... spend time with the gers iz so great.. hmmm after since i work and with alex... i din like have much gathering le... i miss my frend... and they all so busy and me busy this year A level le... then they will go u... hey giv me one year i'll go meet u guys k... hmmmm so many things to say tonite... after reading lex blog gave me inspiration... hey i noe wad to get for u le... a very very very nice nice big brown thing... a CAKE... and iz iz not a normal cake definitely not bake by me man... and then it'll be ya one and only special cake which can never be bot outside.. hehe... specially made for u and u wil have the one and only design only...

haha i just love to keep pple in suspense... coz i LOVE IT!!!!!weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee*

i treasure me and alex r/s as much as nth.. hmmm does it makes sense? hmm anyway he;s the guy i love most now and then unless he irritate me till i wanna jump down the building then tt's it lah...hah abut he's nice and good to me so ya... we SHALL maiuntain it this way ok!!!!!! hmmm pray pray...

good nite

everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, July 18, 2005

(sux)
Saturday, July 16, 2005

everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, July 16, 2005

(i dunnoe the ME)
Monday, July 11, 2005

worked the morning shift today hmmm iz monday and dle lesson iz cancelled... after work i was tired and suffer a bit headache then went clementi to meet alex... he was asking me to go watch movie with him and ben n fuming.. then i was like c how ba i go clementi first then say ba... then when met he assumed me going...hmmm... then hmmm i went in the end... watch the show at cine... hmmm fantastic 4 afterall iz not tt FANTASTIC...haha* hmmmm not bad lah... can watch but hmmm i dunnoe... hmmm

was tired all the while and my eyes iz .like making me so tired... i think i'm going blind... i think the degree iz like much higher so iz causing me to be like tt ba.. hmmm i'm working everyday this week... i felt so packed... act tday i wanna slack at lex hse and watch vcd then get stuff frm bookshop... but guess gotta do it tml le... hmmm sian... argh* i felt so no life... argh* giv me some life k... argh* sux...

can't bring myself to be happy and to be unhappy for nth... always looking for my own trouble... now when i reach home... i dun feel happy... i just felt like crying... i felt sad in this hse... i bcome sensitive... cannot take jokes... cannot take comments... i became very conscious of myself... appearances and everything... i felt so small in this world... i hate pples!!!!!!!!!!!! and when i started to love myself i began to hate myself... argh* i just can't stop it... hmmm but i still love the pple ard me... but pple say if u dun love yaslef how do u love pple ard u.... u can but u can no longer be tt ger anymore....

love alex... hugz

everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, July 11, 2005

(i dunnoe the ME)

everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, July 11, 2005

(sick* turning green)
Sunday, July 10, 2005

last night i request to go home early... i reached hm ard 9 plus while i took a cab home... hmmmm i was so sick last nite i still can rem...i can hardly smile then the stupid customers sat at the counter kept asking me to order and took her own swt time.. then while toking to her i felt like puking... then i went to put order the pple asked me to take food... argh* i felt so sick... then i was telling xiao mao i cannot tahan le i wanna go home... act i was thinking to tahan all till the end... must be the afternoon sun... i guess tt makes me so quiet then ba... then while working i suffered bad headache and i hardly tok and smiled.. so unlike me... today supposed to work full but i now i am resting at home...ALEX went to sentosa.. so good.. hmmmmm

ystd i went to forum... my fav place to go now in town... i bot a cd for my music and movement... cool* and i like the bookubarra book shop... act wanna get my lottle kid elena a bday present but i din noe wad to get.. hmmm sad ah... and ytsd i had lunch with his dad and auntie at gim moh market? i ate my fav rice ballings and we ate yong tau fu... act was supposed to eat teochew porridge but then not opened...so sad... but everything was ok ystd.. hmmm how i wish next mth to come... i wonder how's sam??? hmmm

the day before... i received a call from driz... she cried and hanged the phone.. i called any times but no one picked up... she told me she might have to drop sch... I DUN WAN... i wan her to be ard in sch... hmmmm alex was beside me all the while ...i stil rem iz a friday... he and andrew nearly broke up? or did they? hmmm then driz was like calling me and told me everything... hmmmm some how i think they both shld think over their r/s i have no right to interfere....

iz so hard for two person to meet... i still rem how u guys got tog... now such things happen iz so disappointing... wad can ever be more impt than someone whu loves u and u loves her... iz like so hard to meet the one u loves... but iz so hard to find someone whu's understands u... before tt u must understand the person first...actions do really speaks louder than words... do spare a mini tots for the one who had contirbuted so much...these apply to both...

anyway i'm not a good person afterall so i shant say about the rest.. iz been so long i meet xiao ma le... i some how miss the good times we have tog with my sec sch friend... and my stupid chong yi of mine... says wanna mit me three years later... wth i have this kind of best bud...argh* forget a bout me ok! hmmmm...

i felt so lonely at home... noe one and my stomach dun feel good and i feel so tired..where are u pple? even my bro not ard... my mum went to sell durians... argh* my sis went over to her bf's hse... my bf not ard to pei me too... all these iz i deserved one...argh* so sian ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

the otherday i was toking about divorce thingy rite... hmmmm swo scary i 'm so scared to marry now..haha but i still young la.. hmmm glda tt my dad iz not like tt... anyway my new mp3 bot by dad frm china iz so cool... iz can watch MTV... and there's colour screen but one thingy not good iz the sound.. hmmm wad ever lah... so sian... i think i'll slack in fornt of the tv whole day and rot and die...hehe

everlasting? kissed /
- Sunday, July 10, 2005

(perefect saturday)
Saturday, July 09, 2005

weeee ionly need to work at night.. hmmm worked for like 15 hours this week le... and for the two weeks down i promise lex to wokr like for four days a week the most...

guess wad happen ysdt act nth much happened..haha* hmmm first was CD lesson... then two hours break of slacking and then wasv to finish watching nemo in class then there was class discussion... hmmm the topic for my grp iz single parent families... hmmm then was like after we know abt some friends parents going on a divorce...and iz like my class there is like 21 pple..and 6 families are like this alr... omg... haiz... so i slhd feel fortunate... then went to meet alex...he called me then i can hardly hear him then he tot i not happy...argh* always like tt...show me face when i did nth wrong... then was like everything ok then went to find his friends.. then the moment i s yuan hao i wanna laugh le... then like this like this then ya... then went over to his hse to slp... then he came over and hugz me to sleep and woke me up...haha* weeee...work was ok last night.. but so many pple...hehe...

everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, July 09, 2005

(alex where r u??????)
Thursday, July 07, 2005

pee-ka-boo to alex... argh* i'm doing my second lesson plan le... i played cheat hehe i made use of prev lesson plan done last sem and pass up tml... i'm tired i wanna sleep le...hurry...last one... hmmm wad can i say... i love u alex...and i love my frens...and xiao mao and sam and everyone... hmmmm alex tok to me again... hmmm as in heart to heart tok almost everyday...act i say i might want to go his hse and stay today but the time cannot meet lah!!!

hey good luck for test tml....weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..........

hey got mei mei take ya no... i jealous ah... hehe... rem u must giv pple my no not yas... hmmmm roar

everlasting? kissed /
- Thursday, July 07, 2005

(drenched out of energy!)
Wednesday, July 06, 2005

hmmm tml having lesson at 9 which means i got to wake up at 7...and tml i got to work which is like omg... haha...was toking to alex at the bus stop today... hmmm before tt he told me he going to sentosa... hmmmm i felt abit hmmm not v gd about such thingy... but i think i shld try to let it go... coz i can't be like tt... i dunnoe why i dun feel real good the moment he told me tt? then images of him lying on the sand looking at gers walk passed... turns me off* hmmm maybe i think too much... then i was thinking am i too much to think like tt... hmmmm....am i? or izzit tt i got no confi of myself tt's why... or i got no faith in him? or due to prev exp? shld be bad exp ba... self convincing... hmmm contradicting man...!!!!!..maybe like wad WEN Z say to him which guys dun see gers......ya so true... so izzit like a retibution thingy... u lk at pple and pple lk at ya gf.. basically wad can u do at sentosa? but iz may be a good place to gather but provided whu's going cum iz tt guy organise one... i turn off le...i felt so bad... maybe i shld just mind my own business... and just do my work and continue my life...

then next was the topic of me!!!! work and work... i felt so crazily working for the sack of the money... which i need so much next mth... for wad? of course for the oncoming occassion? coz iz like one in a year wad... so hmmm... then iz the first time... i just dunnoe myself... i only always think of others and not myself or am i always thinking of myself thus i always think i am like wei da de ren? hmmmm i dunnoe wad i saying... but over years me kinda tired of such lives for giving so much and then being disgarded... SUX... then iz like hmmm learning values of life in my course and makes me think tt why must WE be perfect and not others... and now WE are suffering? i' tired i started to type crap since the first sentence... hmmmm sux lah....

hmmm thinking of all these things all so sucky... and now makes me thinks of last time we say we shld once go sentosa tog? my bday? haha i must really forget bout such incident... but i can't lah i just can''t bring myself to... i just love to tolture myself.... iz like on and off i'll think of it esp when something related trigger me again! hmmm sux lah... i wan to take time machine... of to the future also can... argh* somehow i think i shld save up and get a new phone myself ba... argh* i dunnoe... wad shld i do..? pple enlighten me? wad iz the situation now? izzit me finding my own trouble again... i think i am... sux... i have this ME! shoo*

anyway u study hard for ya own test k... and i shall take v good care of my body and work hard... i think... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, July 06, 2005

(Initial D)

overall the show was not bad lah i think... at least there are all my fav inside...hehe... weeeeeee....hmmm i'm hungry now... iz like not even sevem yet... aiya...today iz second lesson plan and ystd i do like siao at night... till 2... oh my i think i cannot work today ba... i think my eyes and hardly wear contact... hmmmystd borrowed alex's cam... hmmm so today can document my lesson... hmmmm... scared... scared responsibilty... scared will flopped again...

last night alex and me were like hmmm... iz all my fault lah... so not to mention le... hmmmm i got so many things i wanna get on my mind... next mth next mth... this mth i gotta save up lor.... i bot one top hmmmm the push cart kind of cool coz got nice clothing...haha... AT PS... and i bot one top for xt too... happy bday! argh* i hate bdays! haha*

Hungry* butterflies in my stomach* GASTRIC juices*scared* nervous* SIANZ* missing u *

everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, July 06, 2005

(SELF TOTS!)
Monday, July 04, 2005

this morning i had SCV lesson which iz regarding self esteem and thingy which i think i myself have some low and high esteem? superb persimisstic-cal! then was FM! hmmmi studied it on sun during my work break... hmmm din really study coz i was so tired after half day of work... then auntie was toking to me then tok abt my family abit...she was like encouraging me to study hard and go overseas... hmmmm*

FM the lecturer din giv any lect coz the morning class din have then she wanna all classes to be at the same pace at her lecture so ... hmmm we ended early.. then went to sim to makan... sickt his morning got this AH NEH... drove truck past and waved at me... irritated me in the morning... sux* then was studying in lib... found ALEX in the lib... hehe was like distubing him.... fighting and struggling... the feeling iz like yeah we r good again and each time more loving.. and ya ....iz like some time after work having someone by my side thich iz him iz so good... the feeling iz xin fu* hmmm iz like so nice to hug him frm the back... when ya sick pple care and at least he's the one whu will care for my everything and anything... hmmmmmmmmmmmm* HUGZ.......

then was back to lesson... dle was total copying of ans... sux...haha... then hmmm end ard 1 h odds later... met dear and yuan hao... hmmm then went c1 to buy muah chee.,.. then got his lex fren wanna take pic of me for wad i wear then ask me how much i bot and blah blah... haha ... then he sent me to work and depart.... sad.....

WORK!!!!! sux today... i forgot to bring my locker key but at first i tot ok but when i wanna change then i realsie no i must hav my locker key to get my apron and pants...sux... then i went home and then took cab here... and u noe wad worse thing iz my colleagues were like hey dun play leh tt kind of attitude tok to me...i was a bit hurt but now hmmmm.... still sux lah... then all the while i was complaining to alex... hmmmm then was like sian lah.. but after realise was hmmm coz they v short of pple this afternoon and was like everone not in good mood... hmmm today jason helped out in the kitchen..hmmm.... then..... hmmm angus was irritating today... sux lah..... F* then i was cursing and swearing... sian... then i saw fuming gf... eunice and dad and mum came to eat... i was kind of envious... coz... hmmm just got this feeling tt... dad came back and always when i saw natasha my boss daughter i'll c the image of myself... teared*

somehow pple shldn't always think back coz iz no good so i shall just hmmmm ... wadever lah... say le no one will noe too... coz pple will always think tt they're the worst... haiz.....................................................like the perceived me...haha...

i want my *POWERS*!!!!haha i'm searching for it... oh ya suddenly tot of mel... weeee stay happy.... hug...

hmmmmmmm ya... now i got a goal and i shall work towards it... but i got too many things to do this week le... wad am i suppose to do... i'm working for next 5 days... sux big time... i'll die......................................... think maybe i shant stay for childcare this wed.... sux... i got no good time management!!!!

hmmmmmmmmmm........... i hope i can cope with my stress... argh* hope alex will noe wad i'm going thru and be more understanding... i've been v bad... i shouted at mum SHUT UP... coz i find tt... i've been supporting myself...and i think she shant care much for me le.... haiz............ i've been bad.. i want to turn good... haha... SUX...can someone wake me up... and i was so damn irritated tt dad nearly threw my zebra i made away... i was like.... hey i made this and u guys throwing it away and come on i din put it on the dinning table i left it on my own table so dun touch it K! ANGER! hmph...

hmmmm i miss my friends when are we going to catch up?chong? sam?r u all losing faith in me? am i a good fren afterall?

everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, July 04, 2005

(I'm waiting...)
Friday, July 01, 2005

4 plus i reached home just finished a packet of fries... my eyes gonna close soon le... alex where are u faster call me...zzzzzzzzz.......

today's proj was kind of a success to me i think? haha hmmm though at the end iz seems tt no one comes to play our game but i think iz good...ha... self satisfaction... think i gotta rush my lesson plan hmmm music and movement and my 2nd art lesson plan materials shall be added when i get my pay... hehe.... weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

i'm so tired this week......three quizes coming next week sux sia

everlasting? kissed /
- Friday, July 01, 2005