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me on the bumpy road)
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
yeah last paper today and i am seting off to sch soon.... good luck for dearest and to alex too...
i tot things are all over but not... ystd the postman came ringing the door bell and i received a letter for my sis... she took it and went back to her room... i tot it was any normal letter but there was an URGENT chomped there... hmmm and red in coloured letter... then she came out CRYING... god it was my like very first seeing her rolled in tears... she in my heart is so string so strong...
i was blur and she said "LOOK wad our parents have done..." i saw totally stunned... i wun wanna be in such setting again... it was like everything coming down my family again... then my sis went back room... soon after mum was home and ...
everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, February 28, 2006
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Eating at Odeon Towers)
Sunday, February 26, 2006
wahaha one particular day skipping lesson to have a nice lunch with em'
everlasting? kissed /
- Sunday, February 26, 2006
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exam week)
phew two more days and everything will be over...fiday i had bad bad diahorrea...sad sia... somemore i have my test kaoz... woke up early in the morning...hehe... then better on sat then perfect well today...
exam makes me stay at home... study... but house so hot and i kept watching vcd... my sis got lots man... hmmm watch from 1st episode to last...haha.. great....
then thursday gonna start to work full le,.. these few days suddenly realise tt.. working waitress very boring.. sian..haha i dunnoe wad i wan... anyway i wanna try audition as stewardess when i finish my study... act i think i prefer to teach then be a waitress...haha...WTH...
then dunnoe wad's up with my parents... now they go on vegetarian...haha... they din care much about me now anyway...ytsd alex was telling me to spend more time with dad ask him to teach me swim... hmmmm...
btw...maybe i'll be transfer back to bt to work man...good then and not good...haha
life so boring... i wanna meet sam and go out with alex... and mandy bday coming haha
everlasting? kissed /
- Sunday, February 26, 2006
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HAPPY brithday my buddy)
Saturday, February 18, 2006
this post dedicated to my beloved girl busy on the other side of singapore who i had not met like for a YEAR!!! i miss her so so much so many things to say to her... she's just so lovely and sweet tt guys fall for her... and she's so nice and good and i'll always remember our four years of sec sch life she walked with me... our bickers and happiness and we sweat and play badminton for the three years... thick and thin and embarrass moments and we went double dating and many many... a girl and a friend whom i will not loss contact with .... i love you my friend and may our wishes come true to see our own child grows up and lead a happy life wif our husband and go shopping with our kids...- kinda kiddo but YEAH HAPPY 19 bday sam
everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, February 18, 2006
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Peace)
peace on earth... ME and him finally met!!!!
everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, February 18, 2006
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HeLL and Heaven)
Thursday, February 16, 2006
angels left me the slowly as i grew up... devils came by to make me do nasty things... it was only work tt can make me numb from the world i live in... i kept myself occupied with work the whole night and still i am going to study at night and morning ...
I lost him... and i made him sad... i made him disappointed in me... and this is what i get...
everlasting? kissed /
- Thursday, February 16, 2006
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Moving on to the other end)
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
wad a perfect VDAY i had... all which i could not imagine it was me who make things turn out bad... i dunnoe whu's fault it is but i know he walked away... i burst into tears which i never wanted to... i wanted a puff so much the moment i reach home... i cooled myself outside my hse so as to hide my red eyes from them...
everything was so great during the dinner.. and we had pizza ... fun and laughter... but then we ended up in BT plaza playing pool... which the tot of why are we here during vday? but then i was enjoying myself for the first two games but then it was pretty sian when two person play tog... recently we had nothing to tok a bout and this made me very sad... i always ask him to tok to me... it was like pretty dumb and foolish of me.... and the journey was quiet... i tested him like saying here hurts or wad hurts he din care abt me... then i looked away then... till we reach the bus stop the thing begins... i told him i find bored... i suppose i din expect my vday to turn out like tt... guess wad happen... we were out for dinner and my bf ask if i had brot enough money tt was one thing... i mean he din even plan anything... but for presents yes.. and it was not a surprise but a surprise coz he told me wad he had bot for me a week ago... i was surprise then... MAYBE i demand too much and he now dislikes me..... i ask to go ntuc later then he say where got time to go... i my heart i think he din even think for me... sad...
i was so hurt when he was so harsh to me on the sms and even today i met him... his sms today was so cold and short... nowawdays i msg him in the morning he will take ages to reply me... think he just dun wanna tok to me... just maybe trying to forget me or avoid him... i was so happy tt i could see him today at least in my heart... last night i cry till i could hardly breathe.. and the feeling tt u want to cry but u cannot coz ya dad i outside... shitz.... i felt so xin ku... then met le his eyes were so cold... i felt so small... i cannot stand till i went in to find mandy and i can't satnd it and i cried... i dunnoe why he reacts this way ...maybe like wad mandy says he still cannot get over it... but i felt so hurt inside... guess i'm too reliable on him le... so serve me right and this is my retribution for being unfilial to my parents now...
I ought to be put to death... who DO I THINK I AM!!!!! FUCK!
i tried to not bother him tt much le... i try to be independent le... do i have to cry to sleep everynight? my eyes cracked.... it hurts so much and MAKE sure it make me blind one day... how i wish...if this carries on...
it was all my fault I CHANGED tt was wad he said.... I CHANGED tt makes him think wad IS NOT BORED TO ME... I CHANGED as he think he SPOILT me... he had been compromising giving in to me all the time.... I CHNAGED and i'll really change oneday till the Me itself die!
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, February 15, 2006
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LOST)
Monday, February 13, 2006
hanabi OT had opened for 2 mths.. and i am approached by three pple... boss of one of jap rest in chjmes... offerring me 7/h... some regular cust from far east organisation... offering 6/h to work fine dining... and today a cust gave me trouble offer me to try out in singapore airlines.... i dun mind giving a try tho...
think recently i had disappointed him but i din want to...
a few days ago i skipped sch and went to eat at hanabi the food was so much better than BT one.. i was thinking of samantha bday coming give her a treat but i din manage to contact her her phone seem to be not in use.. hmmmm wonder how she is coping now? manady was strong! haha dunnoe why i tok about her... hmmmm
Juon show was scary but still i din really noe the story...haha i cannot sleep... lots of things were on my mind i gotta sort out...
i'll miss mandy if she is not working with me... now alot of things happen today i had a heart to heart tok with henry... he was in boys home twice last time man... but he's a nice guy... then he wanted to transfer out of place... and joseph too being highlighted by alice and nancy... so many things... but andel has more to handle... the complain cases in hanabi is like evryday... and so serious and bad comments... i wonder how they going to work on tues... full and full hse... and like all coming in at 8 o'clock.. STUN*
but i wondering wad i am going to do on tues.... no plans yet but yes and no... i wanna eat pizza hut at holland one... still thinking.. he bot me necklace and earring online... din really look good but i find it too pretty for me like so not me...i wore it today and i like it...hehe... and a NIKE shorts he bot for me... and A bouquet of flowers too.... so many prezzie for this yr... iz our 2nd vday rite? i cannot rememebr wad we did last yr le? or izzit first year?
all i can say i need time... and i wanna change of an environ... i sorry for wad i had done to hurt u but i will try hopefully... coz i care
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, February 13, 2006
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wad's wrong?)
Sunday, February 12, 2006
Saturday was a pleasant day... i stayed up the whole night to do my data entry thing and still it cannot be finished... so left like 10 pages then i made a trip down to mandy hse to borrow her lappy and headed towards alex hse... everything was fine ... rented VCD to watch and in the end we watched memories of Geisha.. and fish* i only managed to fin the data editing ard 5 and send them out... it made me two days to fin a book of 200 pages... sux... then i had a nap
then we went to hanabi after dinner ard 10 took a cab down... and everything happen then..." will u tok long? if yes then i take bus home if not i'll miss the last bus"... my face changed the moment i heard tt... in my heart ... so all u can think is the last bus... i'll make it quick... then i wnet off coldly... then no more msg from him and he din noe i am unhappy... then to him he meant to be good... he just wanted to give me time to tok to her not to bother me... so i wun be bothered abt his presence... communication break down... and i said tt maybe he just dun understand me yet... haiz... CRAP and CRAP... then it was today no msges from him... maybe coz he was too sick and he repiled " no matter how attitude i am to him he, duno why he still love me..." hmmm..
somehow in my heart i know i had changed... am i ... i felt so lost tho... i am impatient and many more which i dun noe... he said he was trying to compromise me... hmmm.... i dunnoe but he find tt i changed too... i felt sad.... maybe he should hate me and dun lave me so much then i will feel better... as in i feel that i'm not good i SUX
everlasting? kissed /
- Sunday, February 12, 2006
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boring day)
Monday, February 06, 2006
it is kind of a boring day...everyone sleeping...and waiting to go for lesson... my sis com crash... and i can't send out the sms...
i dreamt of witnessing two car accidents in a day.. and IN THE MORNING... while waiting for bus i really saw one happen and a minor just a scratch of the car.... the taxi make a turn and knock or scratch onto the incoming BMW... SCARY... so does it means there is another one... damn i am easily scared by things... i read nasty sms from pple i felt scared too... coz it is evil in the person to do such things and to say such things.... i want this week to be over soon so exam will starts... i felt threatened for my life i dunnoe why
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, February 06, 2006
