(
this is dedicated to my love alex)
Friday, August 26, 2005
a year ago around this time, i met this guy by the name of alex, not so tall and not so short, hmmm he's around my height and ofcourse slightly taller than me... he messaged me thru friendster and i replied.. at first we were just friends.. and we met in school for serveral times...then he got my no form no where and msged me... and the msg continues each day... to me he was a guy whu i think i'll never be with... till then my friends told me that he like me... HAHA...
hmmmm yeah! alex and me gonna to be tog for one year soon enuf but not yet... but his bday is like tml ... hmmm din manage to get him a cake but next week ok when i get my pay... i wanan get lana cake for him... argh* but the reservation is full then i am unable to get one today lah...sux... hmmm at nigth he's gonna fetch me and we are going down to the chalet...kinda scared tho... hmmm wonder how will it turn out to be... yeah ....bday will always be the best... rem!!!!! hmmmm i'll shall stay and continue to be a happy ger which i was once...
dad was back in shanghai.... on wed... and i burst into tears which is like oh my... the sight of him... the sight of his back made me cry.. made me ponder that why am i so bad always talking loudly to him.. and why is it that i din tok to him much since he was back... :( and then i realise i must take good care of my mum... god! punish me if i am in worng... everyone in the family wanna me togo Uni... haha i will if i can it is my dream too... but ya... hmmmm i'll miss u dad... for all the hardship u gonna take u still have the family supporting u... i love u...
everlasting? kissed /
- Friday, August 26, 2005
(
my leg injuries...)
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
my leg wound is not getting any better... so much trouble of getting an antiseptic cream and plaster... haha after work and during work my leg is like so damn painful than any time.. pas formed immediately after bath and after work... disgusting... there goes my legs...
monday night was my company outing... and we went orchard towers where i see all the trans... all the figure so good and some are pretty only...haha and they act the same too... hmmm then so many ah mohhs and toot toot man... so silly... then me and shirleen haha we sat inside and kept looking outside... after that we went to watch drag show by kumar...everyone knows him except me...haha... the whole performance is funny but again i am laugh at... coz i got small boobs... and even until last night they are making fun of me and make me so pissed off... is like wtf lor... then i see my injuries and think of tt i cried again... argh* i just dun understand why pple like to say me... hmmm..even my friends also... sux...
oh ya but tt night i felt so happy coz so long din enjoy myself le... and with alex too...hehe!!!! this sat is alex bday hmmm i'm coming to the chalet weeeeeeeee..
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, August 24, 2005
(
the outing yet to come)
Monday, August 22, 2005
wahha... the outing is yet to come tonight at ard 10 we will leave hanabi and then we gonna eat thai food at orchard towers! perfect izzen it? hmmm great thing is that my fav pple are all going and if arthur goes i'll have a ride home again.. hmmm working so hard for hanabi all the time... hmmm ystd was madness... the rest. is once again interviewed and was published on straits times... this attracted non stop flow of customers which i think got 200 LOR!!!! haha... yeah this wed i wan to go back to trinity again!!!!! i want to ... coz i miss josiah... he's the kind of kid i wanna have...haha... i'm not sure of other pple childcare but i dare say trinity is the best... hehe...
ystd alex came to fetch me... tho of wad happen the night before... weeeeee everything was great again... muack ... i can feel the care and concern for baby... yeah! whahahahaha... iz school again... and today is reveision... sian.. and next week is test
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, August 22, 2005
(
a bad fall)
Sunday, August 21, 2005
i fell down on the track today while jogging with alex... damn nw my knee caps hurt like hell... then morning i woke up at 645... then morning call came from him... next i woke up change and set off to his hse... then met and rest a while and set off to the canal there where is his old hse...crazy along the way there... we act like crazy pple... he kept using the stupid towel to hit me...argh*haha the feeling with him is so good... then jog like 400m... i fell like hmmm in front and i got bruises on my legs and hand sux...haha... then he still asks me to jog...haha... then after tt we work back after 2.8km.. then went to buy prata and pancake for bfast..then bathe and went to work...
i was limping when i was working... then went home met the gers... hmmm the day was ok and fine but i got feedbacks tt i look haggard and thinner... then hmmm i noe they care for me... coz i got many pats by xiao ma... hmmm though the feelings are not tt strong but like wad dear say hmmmm iz always there or sumthing...haha... most of them change... they nearly bring me go drink...ahhh... not for me pple...haha then ya lor met alex then he sent me home... i was alrite then suddenly i teared and tears cannot stop flowing...
afterall everything i still dunnoe why i dun feel good... but one thing i am sure is i am very happy with him... i mean whenever i am with him but eversince i work i am no longer happy and... projects and stuff... sux.... i think i need self eveaulation and self reflection....... i sucks... i cannot live w/o him...... i love him so so much... muack
everlasting? kissed /
- Sunday, August 21, 2005
(
this part is only for alex)
Saturday, August 20, 2005
alex.... tan pin pin... i methim in a camp and somehow dunnoe how we got tog...haha... thinking of how we got tog is so hmmmm special to me ba... i dunnoe why i treasure him so much... i quarreled with him over minor stuff... i'll never wanna see him angry or sad coz it hurts me and i ratehr me to be te one to be hurt... u noe wad until now i still rem vividly wad happen to me on the bad days and until now i still feel the hurt... but the moment i am with u everything wasn't there... till u did or say something again... tho of so many things the reason why i got jealous and react in certain way is bcoz wad u say means thousand tons to me... it is all so impt to me... and everything of u affects me... haha
i'm like a weather i change very quickly when i heard something wrong... i always think that guys shld be faithful to gers no matter wad... ya... think shant elaborate more...i'm tired but i wanna blog... i shall type a more complete one next time... oh ya... once again the project cannot me commence and i am once again and again disappointed,...
i am disappointed about myself this sem... so much of saying not poning lesson form the start and my grades are not GREAT.. but just good and better than wad i expect coz i work and i study last minute... i tried my best in all projects to fin my own parts but always there are always the times when there are things cropping up...wadever it is next sem i'll make my life better i suppose... i hate to see pple face to do things... is like wad the #%&*...haha ... wadever i',m really slpzzzzzzzzzzzzing
everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, August 20, 2005
(
trininty kids)
think i din mention about my childcare trip on wed... me work in the morning then i went there they all still aslp...the teachers having meeting on the graduation day... then hmmm i was all alone outside the music room and i went to my N1 class.. haha i saw samuel woke up... hmmm then elena also... elena came forward and ask why am i here and she tok to me that she went to malaca... and hehe lots of things and smauel was as usual cute but he tok to me more today... and yeah he so cute tt he kept following me...as in to the toliet when i bring the chn and still in the toliet when after tt Jeremy din want to wear his pants back... haha*
then josiah woke up he asked immediately the first thing that am i ok anot? am i better? he's such a sweet and smart boy and he had a baby bro and he call him my baby at home... tt time last week so sute his mum brot the bro and josiah was like so gentle with him,... i'm so hmmm touched and captivated by the scene... angelic!
then the children woke up one by one issac and then they all gather ard me and tok to me... yeah! for the first time i felt tt i tok to them so much... then light were not on yet... teacher sharon asks me to help to tell the chn who were awake to pack their things... then ok... the chn were able to carry their own cots... can u beleieve it they were only three and some not even yet three... yeah and i felt so happy to play with them.... haha then later when lights was on... you will hear the chn YEAH! so cute! then after tt... ben ben woke up...oh he's my fav boy in class always so lovely and following wad i do...haha... he listens and dun listens to me... haha,,.. then all my kids got artist face... samual = barney, brayan i cannot rem whu, and lastly BEN BEN= EDISON...haha so shuai... haha i am always looking at him...
the best time was when i was told to look after the six of them while playing toys...haha they each got diff style of playing... and i felt so good tt finally jeremy,opens up tot me.. he kept asking em to make house...square ansd trainagle for him... then i make a robot for jon jon... and then for din and then i gave one to BEN.... haha the way they play like so fun weeeee.......then at the end of the day ard like 5 plus... the kids were told to some dances for their graduation...
I LOVE MY KIDS>.. they are all so unique.......
everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, August 20, 2005
(
fun day at work...)
Friday, August 19, 2005
today i am in totally better mood than ystd.. haha went sch ... feels light hearted...enjoy elizabeth lesson for the first time then...maybe cause i really listen and i did interact with her.. so good to be back to the studious me like wad dear said... haha i miss the good old days... hmmm two more weeks or three i will be stopping work and conc on my test for the one week break.. and of course study with my boy...my man...
tonight work was crazy... i was ushering... at the front... imagine there is like 100 and i think 150 pple... oh god... and i din noe my lady boss is from trinity church too... haha... ok back to it... i was using the walkie talkie... sounds cool but it is not... i feel dumb...ahha coz just me and shino communicating... and i got to cater to stupid customer whu wants to change seats... overall everything was ok lah... was busy and after was blur... everyone was very busy.. then at night arthur show me to the shop.... yeah i noe how to go le...weeeeeeee......hmmm but i see the place so cool so many ah mois...haha not my kind of place... hehe... then ya lor...
tml me waking up early... coz me going over to dear hse to jog... haha imagine,... the two of us jogging i cannot picture... haha during holis me gonna play badminton with him alternate week if can... and then jog maybe twice a week and eating out like once a week as in i wanna eat tan yuan... and at least once a month we like really go out like BEACH? haha you wanna go huhuhuhuhu???
tired le... slpzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
everlasting? kissed /
- Friday, August 19, 2005
(
the night)
it was until last night where the sad happenings turn to become a happy happeningS? we are suppose to be sad and angry but it turns out that we understand each other more and i love him.... all the while i din wanna let him go... i held on the him and say no and no... seeing him in such state i din noe whu's wrong and whu's right... but wad said had said... wad done has done... anyway monday i am no longer going to the outing anymore... felt good and better... at least both of us will be happy...
holisdays are coming... i've been looking forward to send time with him... and this time is really we are going to do many things tog... i supposed... esp until today i'm so glad tt we are able to talk on anything... esp deep from our hearts... knowing you is a blessing for me... last night scenes flashed on my mind... what i can see is the happy times we had spent tog and how we met and progressed... to me they are everything... he said to me that i am his life... and i'm totally touched! tears just welled in my eyes and i'm really glad to have you cann you feel it?
to me you worth everything... you are the best and everything... izzen it great to have someone to think of you all the while and think of ya safety... thinking whether you had slept well and had dinner... the only one whu will listen to every minorities and big things you say... and trying his best to make the best out of evrything for you....
here i foresee the future of us.... do you? I love HIM
everlasting? kissed /
- Friday, August 19, 2005
(
tired! again!)
Thursday, August 18, 2005
i'm once again drained mentally... haha i'm so tired and lazy to do anything... but one thing i had fin is my lessonplan and evaluation is done and i shall start my overall tonight i suppose...today the rain was so heavy tt me and mandy was stuck at the shell bus stop for like some while hahah some time.. then i suggested hey we can take us home... haha ... but yesh and no... act in the morning i dun feel like going for lesson le then i see the weather like helping me then oh yeah good... haha... dont think i wanna go for PQS tho i skipped once le... haha... hmmmm...
ystd i was at lex hse eating dinner...haha then i watched superstar and then watched supersunday too then go home... eat my med and slept so well till morning but must wake up... argh* i'm tired .........
everlasting? kissed /
- Thursday, August 18, 2005
(
work!)
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
iz another tiring work day back home... surpirsingly i am so awake now.. now eating tou hua and blogging again!!!!!!
hmmm good luck to pam, mel and hannah whu are conducting their lesson plans tml... today i have some tots about life... hmmm suddenly i feel tt iz very impt to have some tots of life almost everyday of ya life... dun u think so... now i shld be those hmmm work and able to manage work and everything well...
haha.... let me tok about today... lesson was ok... hmmm morning was CD... copy notes and then one hour break then follow by FM... hmmm not bad i like this chapt... then was like AW... another new assignment where by my grp members are all so lost... and then was DLE three hours... haha we were fast and efficient... tog we gather in grps... got the idea then immediately we are the first grp to come out witht the layout and completed and it is NICE....!!! haha then today i ate many things man... morning was like a bao.. then lunch fish soup and rice...then... fish burger... a slice of cake... and then hmmm BREAD... oh god...and snack in hanabi... haha chicken cooked my auntie...
WORK:::::::: reach there saw SHINO... miss her so so much then everyone seems dead... then after a while everyone hyper... this new ger Shirleen damn power haha she is same frm NP but one year older in third year... she so sweet and everytime kept smiling... haha just like me last time... haha then she make customer like her alot... and even today a table of 8 customers gave like half a leftover prima deli cake...haha first time ever man... ahah... then hmmm not bad lah... hmmm then ya lor... din manage to tok to shino much to coz she sat at the cashier... but haha i had a good brother... ALARICK... turn to 17 today... he slacker... din even fin his O level and he looks like BRUCE lee... long legs and hands... horrible... and his bro is the sushi chief.... he's no 1 gentleman in hanabi and always bullied and PINCHED by me... hmmm hanabi is such a nice place to work in but iz like underpaying the staff haha...
next monday is our rest. outing we going to close at 10 and iz like we going to ORCHARD TOWERS to makan thai food i guess then after tt i heard we going pub or maybe home... yeah ! me going and i'm rated as FOC and below 5 years... GOD!then today all the bosses came then came uncle thomas too...haha then he say i slim down le... so long din c him... then he and james say i lose baby fats on my tummy and face... i dun think i ever got baby fats... fats means fats... then the drinking was champagne... which i cannot drink coz i just had my med...then they make fun of me and xiao mao again... forever... then JACK... hair is so ugly... come on go look at yaself at the mirror u think gers will like u... u this 70's outfit old man... god! somemore he taking the same phone as me... damn shuai! then yeah took a pic with bday boy then ya... hmmm xiao mao wanna come back and he misses ivan haiz... wth with pple nowadays ...
ya... then today i wanna be happy... haha not happy but just wanna feel relax... i love to work and i hate... they like not willing to give me off on next sat... coz baby having a chalet... maybe it maybe a good and not a good thing... maybe coz i'm tt kind of person whu thinks alot.. on all aspects...
hmmm... then alex say he saw something today kinda worry for him... hmmm shoo all of u ... leave my boy alone... haha then baby seem so tired most of the times i see him... hey u need to charge yaself will vit C coz i scare i'll pass illness to u.. and then be happier k... i can be sad at anything but with u by myside is everything then... haha mushy mushy...
everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, August 16, 2005
(
lost of my voice...)
argh* my voice still haven fully recoevr... and ystd dear abit unhappy when i told him customer ask me to drink sake... they've been always asking me to drink but i'm always saying no... then this time round coz angus ask me to drink then i drink wad... hmmmm dun need to worry k... one small glass i wun drunk one...hehe... i think he abit stress bout proj too but... dun worry got me then got nothing to worry... coz i'll cheer u up...
then tonight act not owkring but coz they say celebrating alarick bday so i must go... yeah... but they drinkin again... boss sponsor a chivas? hmm dunnoe how to spell and other two drink... but think i'll stay and c and not drink...haha... btwi wan dearie to be happy... yeah... rpoject all ending soon i felt so relax and better le... no stress no trouble and no worries... weeeeeeeeeeee.... now left only almost all the individual thingy cool*...
off to sch* i hope to c him today...
everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, August 16, 2005
(
sick)
Sunday, August 14, 2005
i'm sick and sick again... haha... wne to c a doc and overall i spent like 60plus on my medical fees... oh god... tt is equavilaent to me working like two full days to cover up... wad ever it is,.. hmmm i felt so weak.......... bless*
this sat me meeting my friens i miss them so so so much... yeah! iz gathering time again... and tml shall be a bett day... hope i can feel better and wadever it is i can be better and ya... thx alex for taking care of me... and ya...
everlasting? kissed /
- Sunday, August 14, 2005
(
finally back to work...)
i've been sick for the past few days and today me working like half day only.. so yeah... then i've lost my voice terribly despite taking good care of it and drinking lots of water... now mum making sumthing for me to eat before i go to work... ffriday i wen tback to childcare and the lesson plan was kind of smoothfirst my mentor help me see the lesson plan and then tell me wad i can do then before i carried out the lesson she helped me tell the chn tt i got a sore throat then remind them what they should do and shld not do... hahha then very goood then i proceed to tell them tt me going to play them a song then i brot a toy to show them and iz my pig toy bday... then played the song once to them and distribute the bell bracelet one y one and they listeneed and kept still... then except for jeremy and aven... ahah then next iz i tried to keep them interested in the song... haha but they hardly move... haha maybe they are not familiar with the songs yet... then ya lor... net was like clsure i ask them to hug britney and they too waited and queued... haha they look so happy,... and i'm happy too... yeah...
ok today i got to wirte all my journal then monday i'll start to do my overall evealuation.. then edit and edit and tt's all... haha shalala....hehe then ystd saturday went to find deaire... hmmm pei him and his dad to go buy phone at suntec but in the edn din buy coz the phone will be like 4oo odds coz they dun wanna trade in... hehe then wnet back home watch xiao xin and then i wen to my grandpa hse...hah my grandpa hse and his hse so near... haha then hmmm mum cooked like 10 over dishes... then hmmmm a bit sian la the food there standard... but then when i reach there i only call my grandpa and mum coz i forget wad shld i call the rest then i just hulo... all the way ahhaha... iz been like since new year till now then i came... haha then i tell grandma tt i will visit her again... haha i've got a very cute astar cousin...hehe she looks like me when me young.. haha...then my auntie say i must eat more eat more...
hhhmmmm btw friday after childcare ii went home and tehn went out with sister... to town... we took cab down and then took cab home... go out with her iz like t.t... then we ate NYDC at wheelock place hmmmm cheese oreo with hazernut icecream yummy...haha then we went to the nike shop and i saw this cap which i like and i want to get it next mth... this mth me broke lo...haha i bot alex bday present... i bot him one nike polo tee and a cap which finally suits his small head... i love the cap man... nice the back of it is so nice... haha...
then pass to him on sat le...haha weeeeeeeeeeeee...... hope he likes tt...hahahahha....... then ya lor/.....going to eat and then work and tml shall be a nice day in sch le...
everlasting? kissed /
- Sunday, August 14, 2005
(
successful lesson plan)
Friday, August 12, 2005
yeah!today friday i had finally conducted my lesson plan but not yet completed by fp coz i still owe them 1 1/2 hours haha coz me suppose to be there lik 3-7 but i requested to leave at 530 coz i see the kids watching tv then i dun wanna go bother and disturb them...hehe
let's start from the day.... morninng early woke up to turn up for geraldine's class then was great i took back my fp art and craft lesson plan and i got a B then the routine care summary i got like B also... hmmm then for thurs SAM... i scored a D+ which is like argh* if i din rem wrongly...haha got quite a num of pple fail coz they din expose much about their personal feelings and life? how can... sux... then i get such low grade too... lousy subject.... btw ystd (thurs) finally completed the PQS project i was very drowsy ever since wed i went to see a doc... my throat irritation and cough and flu sux man... then after tt... hmmm worse was tt i din even get to rest coz wed was driz bday.... then i felt a bit bad for like keep delaying her time coz... me went to c a doc like ard 1 plus... then iz like only me celebrating for her coz she say she cannot contact pam and then man cannot go and i think she say she cannot contact mel too... then ya... then like wad i say i promise her so ...ya ... then went to meet her up fro strudel... hehe btw alex followed as he came to find me when i am in the clnic then took cab down coz sis going to look for bf... at holland so iz like so near trinity... haha... then we makan at renaldo's i ate happy sticks weeee...... then alex ate apple strudel and driz straw...then came joey and ANDREW... haha ...
next they went to childcare while me and lex went to the bukit timah plaza first... then we went to walk in the ntuc... then lex was hungry the he bot sushi... most of the day i was very tired... argh* then yas went to play pool ard 6 plus then go makan then go home le... to be continued...tired
everlasting? kissed /
- Friday, August 12, 2005
(
you brot me to the heaven and then u push me down to hell)
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
u brot me to the heaven and u gave me hope..NOW i'm once again pushed down with my wings broken... with no strength and soul... suffocating!
i am sad and real sad... after so long of happiness and swtness in life when i was bout to c my highway of happiness for not feeling down for so long... i'm once again beaten down...i cannot stop tearing... i blame for whu i am and what i do....
i wonder wad is the definition for friend?i sux... Prev i had friends whu real care for me and understand me but i dun appreciate them.. then NOW pple i appreciate and i make a lot of effort dun appreciate me... iz got to be retribution....
I changed! i had always been willing to help, share and doing wadever things for friends... but as i grew up pple had jealousy and blah blah... pple turn to dun appreciate all the things i had done and i had slowly let it go and i turining to be one of them... whu can i trust now? i got no warmth from my family... now even my beloved man has hurt me... tho iz a small matter and he din mean for wad he had said... izzen it frm the bottom of ya heart... i'm so hurt.... i felt like broken into pieces... can never be back again... only today at work then i realise tt iz the only time i can forget a bout it... if not on the way to work and after work i had been rening... tolerating and holding back my tears... several times i am wiping my tears in the pantry... he waited for me since 10 and i reached ard 12... i drank 3 glasses of plum wine...how i wish i cld drunk myself... but the drink was nice...i was real happy to see him the thing seems to be gone and appear when i see him... though wad he says had hurt me but it dun hurt tt much and iz no matter impt when he is ard with me... but the scene still flashes on my mind... i can say i am a petty person but u knew wad had happen...
all i can say iz i HATE myself now... pple shun care about me... and let me be...
these few days finally projects are soon ending... i felt so much happier... and better coz the loads are getting lesser and i dun have to stress myself so much and make myself frustrated...........
everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, August 09, 2005
(
project and project)
Sunday, August 07, 2005
work was good ystd tho ihad like three hours of sleep... busy busy then during break time i got to ans phone call!!!! haha then transfer the line to my phone then went to meet xiao mao... she's late then me and shino got to discuss on how to train the newcomers and stuff and to come out with the rules and blah blah... tml me gonna have a hair trim! hhehe and make a trip down forum or paragon... to serch for new cds and maybe hmv also!!!!!! oh ya then met the ger ard 3 plus... went to the toliet then to here and there... coz the cha cha bar not open... then in the end wait for alarick...argh* then all the while was outside hanabi... she smoking and the rest....then in the end we decided to go strudel then i was given a treat of apple strudel by her... then with the rest ... the new ger from np and a new waiter...
then again later she went cha cha bar but it is time for me to be bck rest...haha... din tok to her much but i can c she wanna come back to work... but they no longer need her le... sad...
toking about today... last night was v tiring... then din touch the proj... until this morning i woke up at 7... organise my tots... then begin to sew the velcro to the box coz it is coming out though use super glue... i hate it... then ard 10 plus... mum came back then weeee got pple help me with the sewing then i went to work on the rest and then the essay ... then used up two super glue mum bot for me... then went to clementi find alex and bot it then go his hse and conti... the proj is draining man... like nv ending thingy to do... mandy was so swt... keep wanting to help me...hehe love u... but iz ok... i think i can fin... then type the essay.... then took a 30 mins nap then conti... so hard to do it... argh*
hmmmmm then like tt lor....tml then c how ba.....
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! LOVE u ALEX!
everlasting? kissed /
- Sunday, August 07, 2005
(
alex)
Saturday, August 06, 2005
hmm oh ya firday i see him sad i sad too...it breaks my heart to see him like tt... then when i saw him in canteen how i wish to run forward and give him a hug and say how much i love himhimhim.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YA MINE!
everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, August 06, 2005
(
saturday)
hey i just read his blog man... so bad... hmmmm but though iz like such thingy happen but i still love him as much as ever... y must he think this way... hmmmm hey hey i dun like ya last part...
last night was madness... i went to mel hse to do proj which like mon must pass up at 3PM... then we tok bus and buy food and then eat dinner and buy supper was like ard 9 plus when we fin and settle down at her hse... then I only had like three hours sleep today and i'll be damn groughie,.. think i'm gonna disturb all my workmates later... oh then me working full day today aren't i superman...haha it was a sense of accomplishment... then i got my finger stuck on the superglue for like 8 seconds... which my freinds stood to laugh at me... and it cause my finger to bleed then... haha heartless... BY the way i slept at 5 and then was like man's alarm rang so many times but then we supposed to wake up at 6 to do again but we all slept so soundly till 88888.. then took a 15 min cab ride home... bath and refreshing and i brushed my teeth le....
thank god we fin until left a bit and i brot home to do hopefully tonight i can fin everything ah... today gonna c xiao mao... ever since she left hanabi i had been msging her...weeeeeeee
referring back to alex.... hmmm things will get better and better for us izzen it... dun always think tt u not gd... ya iz the best and the person who understands me... i need u K... dun say anymore silly things anymore... dun let me influence u...
argh* me stomach pain.... think last night munch too many tibits le
everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, August 06, 2005
(
i got totally no mood to study)
Thursday, August 04, 2005
tml is my PQS test... and i've not studied... hmm tho i written evrything in shorter point form but i still got no mood to study... argh* sux man... y y y!!!!!!
tml got to stay over at mel's hse to do proj.. hope we can fin within the nite... and sux thingy is tt the next day is my work day and full shift.. then afternoon going to have a drink with xiao mao at cha cha BAR just at my work place there...hmmm i look forward to dat...hehe i look forward to sat only.... i dunnoe how things will turn out tml...
i'm tired... suppose to go for a walk and shopping in bugis today... but hmmm in the end din walk much too... then dear dun wanna go up to the bugis street there... hmmm so sad act i was so happy to get pay but then i din get to spend but all like gonna spend on food.. roll my eyes* then gave mum 80 bucks for the new phone and my phone bill... then transfer 50 to lex a/c to save up... oh my then i kept money to buy lex bday present... hehe... then like tt lor... i feel so broke... i cannot pamper myself now and then ... unlike last time anymore,... i wish i can wake up from the fairy tale me... hmmm wake up... workin so hard but the pay is not tt much too...argh* how am i suppose to support myself...ever since i started working i started to neglect my studies and do my best in projs... fin all my parts and try my best to help the rest too... but somethime it wun help much... coz..........coz....... argh* it just sux man...
i got totally no mood and no mood... how i wish i can either work the rest of the days or just conc on studies the rest of the days man... hmmmm i got no time for myself and no time for alex and ya.... i dun cra efor my family anymore i suppose.....
i dunnoe why always going out with alex esp shopping will turn out to be unhappy... maybe the two of us very tired... today i was still telling mandy tt i have been very happy for these few days but then i din noe it is like so short.. so long i din teared le and so long i din think of these kinds of things le... guess i must keep myself occupied with work then can izzit?
by the way me and driz had been toking alot... how i wish i can help her to get out of those horrible creatures... myabe i think guys can never noe how gers felt...haha... evil and stupid parents go away and give peace... and stupid pple whu dunnoe how to treasure frends go to hell pple....
tt's all i wanna say... i see red......... i feel blue... i wanna be strong and strong like before
everlasting? kissed /
- Thursday, August 04, 2005
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Monday entry)
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
i love to work nowadays though... xiao mao is gone now shino she's a supervisor and then she ask me to go clubbing next week... ehhh i agreed.. but kinda tired then... haha dun think me going le... think iz just not a place for me...haha... and then worj was great with arthur and alarick who was always there as a gentle man to help me... hehe... then i'm going to help train the new comer... i'll ask for a pay rise then...haha ... gonna coe out with some training thingy for the company....me and andel working hand in hand... hmmmm then i got to go search for some good gang of pple...like with good attitude...
weeee i just gotta my pay... weeee i'm left with 5 bucks... haha hmmm my pay iz 500 plus... i aim for tt next mth too ba... hehe gotta eat in hanabi one day this mth,.. yeah with alex... haha lets go during or before or after the bday... hehe then we can eat sushi cake... yummy...haha... raw salmon... by the way now hanabi got 10 more dishes... wow iz like 92 variety of jap food to eat and the complimentary dishes... hmmm kind of same and boring...haha.... the food iz great...
toking about monday,... i'm real sad... but not to be mentioned... coz iz like only lex and me noe... hmmm.... ya then he cheered me up... i met him in the lib and he stated to ask me wad happen then i teared... i felt so blur in the lib then he ask me this kind of ques...argh* then like tt lor... hehe... now i felt so great after work and after alex... weeeeeeeeeeeeeee
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, August 03, 2005
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DLE is over finally...)
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
thank god! the dle presentation is over le... hehe.. then ya lucky the gers fin on time... XIN KU LE... hmmm now i still got one more poj to rush tt's cd and then tml going to buy the mat... today lex send me home and pass me the camera... weeeeeeeee*
then then today mm cook and me now very full... so long din eat so full le... got egg... soup...wan tan...veggie...yummy... then i got to scoop soup for everyone... lex u shld have came...haha then ya ...dad was irritating... put all my stuff on one side...argh*... gotta do my lesson plan le... hmmm MISS U..
everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, August 02, 2005
