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feeling for the only you)
Friday, October 28, 2005
18 years of my life has passed! hmmm wad good thing i have done? hmmm baby met some thingy situation last night! i was worried! the moment i met him... he was tearing... he teared on the bus... i knew he was scared and he was sad... my heart cried when i see him like tt... but i dun really noe how to react! i'm so glad tt he came to join me today.. and i made his day a better one... and so did the rest of his bros i think...
:) days will always get better if we dun care so much or we think on the brighter side of life... having him in my life is something alwaYS so blessful?haha blessed!seeing him smile while playing pool! GREAT!
Alex just want you to know tt no matter wad happen u will still have me by ya side tho!!!!! remember!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yeah tml me meeting him going holland V!
everlasting? kissed /
- Friday, October 28, 2005
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wad on earth is happening?)
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
i was kinda wad happen to alex just now? and worried of course? hmmm miss him!!!
today pple treat me go eat marche... weee i like tt place... then andel trying to be stupid acted diff dances and i laughed my heads out today haha! and then we had waffles, potatos, veggies, calamaris... puddings... but in the end the calamari got hair... and the pudding got metal stuff but the potato was the best i will be abck to have tt... but hmmm lamb chop and steak are not my kind so hmmm not for me.. but the waffle was nice.. it was a treat from i think william coz shino and andel wanna treat me b4 my sch starts... haha! yeah! i'll drag alex to go with me! and then in the end we got a 20 % discout which the total meal bcomes 80 odds coz we repotred the stuff we found in the food!!!
damn i am so tired... i felt giddy the whole night... tonight the rest so vacant lo... just bare 50 over pple... so sian...and then i requested not to be host for a time being... i dun wanna be fat fat!!! haha and indeed i am!!! argh* and i am given the job to do data entry for hanabi and i was paid 50 to key 4 thick books of numbers and names... haha i think i am dumb man
(MOndAY) my off day i spent the total full day with alex... went his hse watch "full house" then went bp plaza then went cck in the evening pleasant day yet so memeorable... i dunnoe why ...tt day was so smooth tt everything went well and the feeling was so strong!
now he still waiting for his ic... hmmmm :( anyway tml i'll go back sch... weeee but i hope he can join me...
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, October 26, 2005
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8 more days count down...)
Sunday, October 23, 2005
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee 31st oct my pay day weeeeeeeeee gonna make new specs and buy new stuff! for this two weeks i have been surviving on like hmmmm 20 odds in my bank!!!! dying!
then when pay comes i'll giv mama money... and bank in money as saving in lexy's... but always in the end always end up using.... haha!saturday hanabi was madness... endless phone calls i answer!endless pple come to eat! and tml is like another full hse as usual and we got table all set right! haha so tml i just need to walk in and shake my leg! damn i injure myself by foolish acts like kickin jack and i got this stupid ugly cuts on my leg!!!!!! I'm Disfigured! damn it...
everyday i look forward to alex come fetch me after work coz tt's the only time i can see him... but when sch starts i told myself i wun work much but lexy got to take driving liscense... so i got to get used to it like how he get used to me... haha...it is R*
i'm still aiming for a's for my next sem!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh*
everlasting? kissed /
- Sunday, October 23, 2005
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i am left with no energy!)
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
so tired and shag everyday.... so much of working everyday.... hmmm today i was a bit irritated tt they went out to buy new uniforms... and left me alone to tend the shop for quite some time!!!! argh* i felt so unfair... coz the pple there dun really listen to me coz i think me same age as them and they always bully me and dun really respect me... hmmmm
andel told me next mth i'll be promoted to trainer... and i will wear shino apron!!! yeah tt's the only good thing tt i like the rest will be hmmmm more responsibility? but i stated to him i will only work 4 days a week! then tt's good tt i dun need to wear scar le!!!!!! yeah!!!
oh god ! i am turning fairer and at the same time my face getting more and more no NUTRITION!! more pimples.... but than k goodness i still have alex to care for me... i shall endure and times will get better tho?...............
Give me some energy can?
i have a forever scar on my knee cap! UGLY!
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, October 19, 2005
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friends = ?)
his words make me ponder and made me realise that life is so sukie! haha* friendship there is always ups and downs... and i believe friends can be make every where! different phrase of life we met diff troubles... friends tho there are always there but THINK when u are in trouble there are always there to play a part to help! some times it is pretty wonderful how things work and u will realsie the cruelty of the world and how it is so hard to face reality....
personality, character play such imp role in life... so wad's got to do if ya and introvert or extorvert? life still has to goes on... maybe i am an independent person but in his presence i am always dependent on me... so i dare say act unknowingly ya are even more indeppentdent than me... ya just so great OK!
pple change for the better? pple change for one another? pple change to adapt the enviromn... pple change due to facts....
wadever it is my life will never be that wonderful without his presence... and them around* i know they will always be there for me... and ya guys are deeply appreciated! MUACKS...
dun think too much le * =)
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, October 19, 2005
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Yours words made my day)
Monday, October 17, 2005
just a simple sms from alex make my day today! tho i am very tired when i was out with him... but i know that we enjoyed each other presence!sorry alex for my tiredness! hope he can get the is he wants....
next year i wanna learn jap! haha a thing i must really do? so now i must save up and then next year i can take up course! recognised course! the new sem got speech training again! hmmmmm i rem last time walk ard in class breathe and ah here and there... hahahha then do story recording... hmmmm then this sem also got IT... damn boring... the only thing that interest me is SCIENCE! this thursday maybe i shall go down sch and get some stuff for references!!!!!!!
some how today i had some small tots... i thank god to let me met alex given him to me... the times we went thru are not much... just over 1 year and like 13 mths le... tho we are not tt kind of couples whu broke up and then patched... but why i say we went thru much coz... he was there always for me whenever i need him... he always helps me... he was there when i was down... i rem he helped me to moved hse... offer me to stay with him...taking care of me when i am sick... bringin me to docs... act all these left me very deep impression! Teared* and we are able to tok real tok and we are whu we are when we are tog... he noes my deepest secret when he's the only one whu noes!!!!!!!!!MUACKS*
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, October 17, 2005
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New faces)
dad just flown to Holland last night and i am back in the room! wahahaha - good sleep yearn for a long time... i have a new hobby word puzzles!!!!1
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, October 17, 2005
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You gave me light! and ya gave me the direction)
Friday, October 14, 2005
Today is again my off day! before alex left me... we had heart to heart tok! he reminded me tat if i rem the day of taking results i mention that work is more important... and he started to tell me that i can score better... i can do better if i concentrate more last sem and esp on the new sem... he wanted me to take very good care of myself instead of eating snacks and breads and maggies all day long... he dun wanna me to work so hard...tho i have not much time for him.... HIS words and everything make me felt tt he so long din care about me tt much le but act he is all the while there for me... so the moment he say i teared! ---- thank you alex... i promise for ya and myself i will work harder next sem and i will work less and spend less and i will pei u more!=)
also he has been day dreaming about his license lah! but he think too much he was thinking if i will mind if he drive his dad's van ard... but wad he says is somehow quite true... but wad for think so far? u noe wad! everything may not be as good but wad most impt is the pple bside me! and tt is u driving me ard and i'll be glad enuf...
nowadays i felt happier in work and with him... maybe coz i am more responsible towards my work... and the pple respect me... and they really ten me! He is always so tolerate towards me and not conmplaining any words.. tho i really in my heart how i hope i can dun work so much too....
LIGHT TO MY FUTURE
somehow i tot about my future last night.... after study or even now i am given a chance to be a RESTAURANT trainer OR even a supervisor! and future manager of a rest! and i can even be a nusery teacher still?????act i am still very interested in early childhood programme! but i just got not much time to commit myself in it.... but tt particular day my dad enlighten me say i shld learn more and afterall teaching will only keep u still stagnant at teaching... act wad he say is true... maybe even i study hard i study u i am still a teacher and even a superisor of a cnetre and even open my own childcare... worse is last time he encorage my course is very good as it it has good prospective but now... hmmmm... makes me make a second tot....
i felt so much better tt at least i have tots for my future le!..........
everlasting? kissed /
- Friday, October 14, 2005
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it is routine everyday!!!)
Thursday, October 13, 2005
haha ytsd unknowingly is me and alex 13 mths...time passed so fast...i must pause to breathe...haha fri night i'll be off again but this time is pei alex play badminton with his parents...haha...
guess wad... tuesday nite i got a personal tips of 10 bucks from customer...hmmm but shared with the rest coz there is no personal tips here....so ya.... pretty flirty mans...and i manage to sold a huge 1800ml sake to them haha! rich guys....they gave tips to angus and dodo papa even for their very first visit... hmmm dodo treat them like vip!
then finally alex went to register the diving thingy.... he ! register dun register also irritate me...ahhhhh... haha but i felt nervous for him dunnoe why? coz i like to look after him ba? or am i used to him taking care of me?
sch gonner start soon i must visit the lib next week maybe... hmmm shirleen went to aust and soon rick going thai... i'll be so lonely with shino... hmmm sch goner starts to and how will this sem sch life be? i just wanna work weekends full and another 2 days for week days... shld be enuf le hor? haha
Blessed*
everlasting? kissed /
- Thursday, October 13, 2005
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small small tots???!!!!????!!!1)
Monday, October 10, 2005
working in hanabi for so long near half a year le... hmmmm the place seem to be so attached to me... imagaine every morning i woke up at 8.30 then 9.45 set off to work and reach ard 10.15 - 10.30... and my reporting time is 11.30... everyday the routine is the same... switch on the lights and aircon... call boss for reservation.. do reservation and blah blah... haha
hmmm working so much i spend so much each mth... hmmm being unable to spend enuf time with alex... i felt so bad for all my promises and everything... but i tried my best for everything....
i felt tt i changed i tend to slowly not care wad pple say and tend to treasure the pple i noe whom i care .... and hmmm slowly i started to change to be a slacker... :)
being with alex for more than a year... getting so used to him and him being part of me... my everyday lifes revolve ard him... hehe he's never boring when he is with me...haha so stop saying u are A boring person,.. i love being with u kkkkikk
sch goner start soon tho? i shall aim for at least an a... and work just four days a week...
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, October 10, 2005
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happy day)
tho i din get to spend my whole off day today with alex but i really enjoy every moment we spent! whahahha! first met in sch but he was so not early tt b4 he reached i fi renewed my concession, bot new pair of contact lense.. and withdrew some money then we went to west mall... me suppose to trim my brows... then hmmm the shop pple seems busy.. then me and him took bus to bugis... then i was on time but shino was late... hmmm then alex sent me there and left hmmmm ... but he lfet his wallet with me ...
then me went walk walk with her hmmm in bugis street i saw hmmm this bag i wanna get but hmmm i must restrain myself from spending so in the end i bot slippers for me and alex and i bot cute litte undies... hahah.. so cute and comfy... then ard 5 plus henry came and i set off to alex hse... hehe then we went to BP plaza to try our luck if the pasar malam still there and had LJS for dinner...wahahhaa....
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, October 10, 2005
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wad have i done wrong?)
Sunday, October 09, 2005
am i in the wrong? or are u just right to be angry with me?
everlasting? kissed /
- Sunday, October 09, 2005
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silent night)
Friday, October 07, 2005
this night i pledge to be happy... this night i pledge to think no more... this night i pledge to like wad and be satisfied for wad i have... are u happier?
a long week of work make me so so exhausted...s ch vs work which will i choose... today is the release of results i dun even have thhe urge to go c my results till i reach his hse... i got one b+ and the rest b and one c+ and one d+... damn... afterall this is wad i get for not studying... and concentrate=ing and all studying last min... but at least show tt i still can get bs....
life really sux... i cannot stop thinking of tt... sorry alex... but today i really enjoy tt dinner i had with u tho u still prefer swensens baked rice and me NYDC... and we had sinful dinner and played game in settlers cafe...and the place filled with my scream...
i am proud to have u... and since the night my head rest on ya shoulder it made u the guy i wanna cry in the arms of....
everlasting? kissed /
- Friday, October 07, 2005
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My rocky road)
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
hmmm it has been so long since i last blog... hmmm wad have i been doing recently? i guess it is just another week pass and tml night shall be my off and i will as usual spend my day fruitfully with alex! go have a nice dinner and catch a night show and then home... i've been working and working and felt so lost and hard tt i have to work so hard... esp when now they are so short handed!
today wednesday i met this customer who opens a childcare of tution centre? he looking for pple whu write chn story and txt book... and they gave me their name card and i say i will help them find pple interested! first i can think of i drizzle and andrew... being away from sch work... this holis i din comit anything to my chn in trinity! i have been working and working the whole week long! and wad i target to earn 1000 odds... and wad i earn is always not enuf for me! first i need a new spectacle! and earn more coz sch start i cannot work much le... sian... sick of work and study i dunnoe wad i wan to do le! and my mum act wanted to borrow mony from me to pay utility bill... hmmm i felt so hmmm sad tt why ... must we end up like tt???
similarly reminds me of shirleen whu has to start work at the age of 14 and supporting the family and had an abusive father and mother... whu's marriage on rocks..... sux man,.... life is always so tormenting... and making a fool of pple... maybe wad i am going thru is nth as compared to others but it just so hateful to c myself like tt... haha.........
hope tml getting results will be good and tml four new pple coming work and i got to train... stress sia... how to haha... hey but they all from my poly....weeeeeeee hope tml will be A BETTER day for me...
PRAY! i want to be happy!
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, October 05, 2005
