(
Samzational)
Saturday, September 30, 2006
tt's her
sec school life is full of taking neon prints with frens and i had taken tons with sam and now a few years later the rate raised to like 8 to 11 bucks wow! haha but they are so interesting they made my face fair and pimples free..
went to nyp... attended some cancer session learn about hipcups and respiratory problem... haha then we went to bugis for lunch cum dinner... sakae sushi buffet and ate till my tummy hurts like crazy for 3 hours and yesh it was a wonderful experience again with sam dear! she is my best best fren ever and the feeling is always so good so relax... but just not to be a wet blanket and a good fren i pei her walked the whole shooping center despite my pain! stories of her and her bf...and many many other butterflies ard her...so good and not so goood... now she wanna meet a rich man...haha
hehe then end my day finding alex...yesh happy to see him and i forced hom to come down and see me tho i'll be seeing him tml... good thing tt he came and he sharedhis bad day with me not to mention...and it is a good realization for u and pls initate to do it! next be a good sensible boy and bf to work hard! haha! great to meet ya... hmmmmm he is always making me so happy and blessed! yesh and now i am a happy ger and after my work i realised manythings ard me and i changed for the better and ignorant for certain things....
i cant wait for my pay... i wanna nose pierced... wanna buy a superman jacket... new bag for sch all black !!!!! and i wanna work with sam soon in dec...in a bar in boat quay at least 7 per hour... new envrion and new things to learn! weeeeeeeeee
everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, September 30, 2006
(
a change in me)
Thursday, September 28, 2006
a little realization tt i understand alex more maybe my love for him increased....haha maybe iz just the mutual understanding..
finally i am getting some rest b4 next week fun filled activites for the chn...haha i think i am a lousy tr bullied by the kids... haiz... and then yesh excitment filled to meet sam....
missing him
everlasting? kissed /
- Thursday, September 28, 2006
(
i want tibits too)
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Pian xin!
hmph! i had the craving for tibits for DAY 2... tml must get all the yummies...bot the chn day prezzie for my class boys only still have the gers 10 horrible gers..and two threatened me wor...wanna die but in the end i had to pacify them... useless la me! haha anyway 6 oct new tr coming down to trial so ya... hope evreything will be ok... i hope to leave the place early.. hehe fun next week i'll do moon cake festival with the chn and i just bot some lanterns to decorate my class tho i leaving... now at least i can control the kids just tt some time out of hand and certain time they are scared of me.... haha no more nice tr le ah!
alex i want yummy crackers to satisfy my itchy mouth! he's been nice to me to rentcar/// at first was not very happy but after thinking tt he meant well and all for me so hahah wad to do but i dislike taking car coz i dun like to sit at the front but my fav sit is the back seat on the left! coz i like to look outside since young! he drove a manual car today and hebegan to love maunal car... haha wait till then we have three brands on the mind...haha i want to learn bike tho... and car aleex must concentrate and i always felt sleepy and bored! haha but u know i still love u as much tml no driving but just u and me going to imm! woo
argh ! frustration in childcare and mcys might be coming down.......trouble trouble... hehe
everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, September 26, 2006
(
Z)
Monday, September 25, 2006
letter zzz... zapzapp
hehe today after work saw lin yu the cute ger tt me and alex followed and see the pretty ger and then saw my handsome boy issac... hehe and i bot a singing barney for joon kiat for childreb's day prezzie! haha today whole 1 hour i spent singing song to him dance.... play legos n toys... coz the n1 n baby class iz quarantined ! hahaha so cute his my brother tho! lesson was good today maybe ocz i had just 10 kids! hmmmm
gosh then alex and me went to buy clothes and only mananged to find clothes for the gers... the boys are hard tho! hahahha tmlwe are going to buy chn day prezzie.. gosh now i always spend money till end of mth not enuff... hahah so gotta save le wor... gosh!!!!!!!!!!!11
me and alex diff mindset again on certain topic but we compromised and he was patient with me! THANK YOU!
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, September 25, 2006
(
embraced with L O V E)
Sunday, September 24, 2006
each time we hug we kiss is a new enchanting feeling....... wooooooooo gosh i am so in love in u
btw to day went for project meeting wasnt happy at first coz everyone was late and i took a cab down specially coz i tot like wad they said they would go early and discuss... wow and when i reached i saw mandy's back... gosh and haiz i dunnoe wad to say but after tt we came to a conclusion for our poject and tt was good.. and at least everyone did their part ! great
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hmmm the r/s btw me and alex is such a wonder tt i dunnoe how to describe! gosh
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everlasting? kissed /
- Sunday, September 24, 2006
(
ting ma ma de hua)
Saturday, September 23, 2006
once again i feel lonely at home.... haiz... wad to do maybe i shld work then...haha not use to stay at home even for like 7 till now... just now was doing my research... so thankful to my sis.. and i manage to contact the reef walking pple.. and they replied me fast and good news... just tt if we really wanna bring the kids along rite will be like $300 for a grp of 10 pax... but think i will get the chn to pay then the rest we subsidy! gosh!
just now was playing uno alone... damn boring sia till mum came in then was like hey u wanna play wif me.. then ya played one round and i am back here blogging.! this relaxation time make me think of my future... think i am going for the early childhood line? haha i wanna go do volunteer work for rainbow centre after reading thru the web site.. the kids look adorable tho theyare special... good exposure tho... after this sem do some volunteer work to stop making myself coop with work will be a wonder i guess...
this shall be another boring long blog...
wad exactly do i want? what am i here on the earth for? at least i am fortunate! and thru all the things i had been thru! i had grown up... independently... earning own money to support my own daily allowance... gosh few years passed le...hehe hmmmlooking back so many small things happen and make me so emotionally hurt in r/s? family life? loss faith in friends? haha gosh i act love my life now tho... sadistic tho!
now i have consideration on my mind... like i want a nose piercing... haha tempted by the india tr in the centre... haha and definitely a tattoo coming out soon... of my name... my fav name... on maybe my shoulder...of back down my hips... perhaps something BIG! haha like andels koi all the back and till his ass.. OUCH! btw now listening to jay song and learning how to sing wanna go k some day...
cant wait to meet sam tho... MISS her so many things and i am at all ears to hear her wonderful complicated life ... than anyone... but sad tt i am so occupied to be along with her but we have both all the time in our heartspirtually tho...
bro i think getting registered on 9th oct not official marriagen but on paper they are... just bcoz to get the pr... he seems so stingy ... on the wedding ring and says think like wait till then have money then say and they get pr i think is for their own hse... gosh they must be saving! haha... anyway best wishes to u ... hope u have a good famiy and u will be a big boy after u married and look after the hse... if my sis in law ever move in in this current rented hse gosh up side down my hse will be... i will loss my own sis... hah and i will move out on my own and shun even think of studying part time degree... and i wanna learn bike too... think car is cool and big ever since alex drove me ard but i really wanna try on bike i think iz like cool! i was scared when i was once on andels huge bike? scooter? hhza my fingers cant stop typing iz like wad i am tinking and it is like typing down... i dunnoe since when my typing skills were so good then... haiz
gosh my back iz aching! life is boring yet interesting thrilling in a way that u wanna spent it like tml is never coming... haha... btw last night was fun walking with alex... where did we walk? hmmm bugis? haha i was sent home from cck then i was like i dun wanna go home so early.. so yesh and we endeed up walking frm little india to hanabi there.. and home? haha and he managed to get last bus...
some time life get borng one one is out of money means no money.. then u wun feel like going any where and u wun be happy and u will be in debts... haha just the tot of the day...
wad did i learn in this 1 mth odd in little tots... hmmm i guess i learn to wash kids after shitting.. and i got bullied for eing too nice as the chn were used to beating so they see me they bully me and sometimes too much that makes me so angry... and i find tt i am lousy coz i am not hardworking enuff? haha coz wad i had learnt i did not do much for the kids coz the tot of must spend my own money turns me off. and the kids teach le still dunnoe and dunnoe how to use the things so i shun... the idea of having so many chn in my class... sucks... eeeek next year i am planning on a trip to shanghai.. to visit my dad i supose? haha never close and i wanna go coz the place is good i love shanghai...coz so far i ahd only been to like austrailia... and shanghai... pathetic... last my parents rich too busy to go out... see now broke le i must fork out money myself...gosh!
big head big head! i want to strangle my kids...dunnoe wad to get for their chn day present any cheap present each $1 budget... cheapo tr rite... haiz hahha coz end of the mth tr gonna have a hole in the pocket... now hfmd... a big prob ... pray for joon kiat the cute boy and wei xian who pees in his pants! always even tho i alway ask him to pee! haiz think parents u really play an important to nurture ya child... see wad happen...if u dun tok to your kids ya kids turn slow...haha
i feel handicap tho! a big word but deep meaning ... i feel like in hospital with my lappy on my lap and i am not mving except my fingers...
my loneliness is always here whenever alex is away from me... shelfish thinking but it had been a habit... coz he pampered me too much? i other ways that he can? arrrrrggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh ultimate boring...i wanna slp but not too early i wanna go out but i am tired but where to? i dun like to club i dun like to drink? i am saving up? short of money? i am chomp chomp stuck at home in this bed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh FUCK
everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, September 23, 2006
(
glued)
wow! sat again....
went to toa payoh after work to look for concert clothes.. so yeah and found one but the auntie attitude! for boys a bit hard to find... a good process tho... fri i went tom and stephanie at cck... haha yesh and quality time with alex... now he enjoying his fren bday.. happy bday to wu feng... haha
yesh when i am not tired i am a perfect good irritating gf... sian tml work and project NO LIFE
everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, September 23, 2006
(
i miss alex)
Thursday, September 21, 2006
gosh i am so busy with work tt is draining me... tho i spend my days with the devils... how i wish i can get a good rest tho... crying inside my heart but i can make it...! tho this mth wun earn much but i earned tons of experience tt pple cannot get... gosh concert clothes haven buy... gosh headache sia.. i left three weeks in little tots only...hehe next time i wanna work for big organization! creative place staying there i will die! haha
i miss going out with alex i miss my energy! so i need rest! so yesh we are going to bird park soon tho right in three weeks time b4 i start sch! gosh jayz songs good!haiz this week busy week... again dun need to rest! oh my my fav child iz down with hfmd... poor joon kiat! my brother... take good care, me and alex will pray for u ok
everlasting? kissed /
- Thursday, September 21, 2006
(
alex)
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
muack so tired but i still misses him everyday... he is so understanding but risky when he is on the road! we nearly met an accident today... felt closer to the family... maybe i shall just keep my heart relax and myself to occupied so things will be better... not to be sensitive but tt's just my feeling i shall see how things go and hope it will improve,...
yesh alex jia you... sad to say tml pro meeting gosh i am so tired from work everyday tho i have no energy to do much with the chn... anyway tml poster competitiona and chn of n1 and baby clazz were cornered in school... means other children of other classes had no contact with them to keep them from hmfd... hehe... gosh so busy lor... mop floor and wipe table like maid like tt.. and telling chn to be careful and clean... my class gers some were dirty... and always make me angry.. the prob with the centre is the class too noisy coz open concept... how to set up corners... and i made the library corner... and aded in puppet chn just play with puppet and mybig goldilock book sian... walk ard and run even tho i keep saying adn raising my voice i have too coz the class is too noisy... haiz.. wad i learn can hardly apply here... sianz.... iam a nanny a teacher an auntie...
alex save me..........
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, September 20, 2006
(
the N realization!)
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
whoop... meeting sam soon... miss her so so much seems like we meet only twice a year but feelings and r/s still as great tho... wonder how is she and how she looks like... wonder if she is bullied and wad had she been thru again!yeah and tt will be next fri coz centre closed for chn day celebration! wooooooo hooooooooo great time for me to rest a day and look for accessories for the concert... argh
my centre yesh down with 4 hfmd... gosh all N1 so near my class... haha rascals... all slowly falling sick... here all the theories dun apply and i learn tons of things on how tr handle parents... and teacher and teacher r/s and blah blah... hehe got to buy chn day prezzie... gotta save money tho... hehe
yesh had enjoyable relaxing time with alex... bot jay album too... gosh nice sia... and then many many feelings when i am with him.. the feeling is like so long so long so comfy so nice so soothing! savouring!
everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, September 19, 2006
(
Zeep)
Monday, September 18, 2006
tiredness overwhelming me... thanks for alex understanding... my centre down with hfmd... careful...bite the kids u bullies...
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, September 18, 2006
(
sleepy)
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
so tired sia!
roar!!! i love and hate my kids... everyday i peek into the n1 class to see if joon kiat ard...hehe he is my brother... so cute always nuan with me when watching tv... hmmm so tired and no strength to think of anything... taught them letter a and b... successful... but my recycling bins were like snatched ardi dunlike tt... whole class were here except on on holiday... so i have 12 as usual... and it was hard to handle.. and teachers were saying what i have now is priceless experience... and once i can handel these chn i am super woman.. all trs in little tots are super woman!!!
this fri is the monkey boy birthday i dislike him... bully me,... but i will get u a prezzie tho...
after reading alex blog wow full of feeling... finally i had secured a place in his heart and it was so certain and strong that i am his and his mine...hehhe......zzzzzzz
prepare tml lesson!
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, September 13, 2006
(
2 year anni)
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
woooosh..........happy anni to me and alex.... hehe went spaggedies to makan... yesh this time my treat coz he treated me pizza hut... think today the food not so nice... but nvm next time we go try other food... nxt mth sushi buffet...hehe.... find tt after 2 years yesh we are still as loving and as sweet and feelings are always growing.... yesh..... :) hehehegreat
been thru more things and he saw me flared and yesh and helped me along my way thru...greater undersatnding and now we are plannning... for our future? haha our own future!!!! hehheheh
GREATER LEVEL OF UNDERSTANDING AND A HIGHER LEVEL OF LOVE OF CARE UNSEEN LOVE
everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, September 12, 2006
(
way to go)
Monday, September 11, 2006
yeah snse of achievement from my childcare... i felt great to be a tr when chn like my things and they learn... but i have this kid with some learning abilitlies... so ya i must try to help... yesh and four more weeks with them and time flies fast... haha...
btw i tok to a parent today which i was frightened... but i felt comfortable a moment later... shairah mum's asked if i was tr joey and shairah toks abt me at home.. and says she dislikes the prev form tr chun lao shi... and yesh she likes my lesson and the mum agrees my suggestion to bring her to sch earlier like 10 same time as i teach lesson,.. so YEAH.. tho i have more chn tho like today was like 2 absent from my class.. so i guess 14 turned up and i had 12 then coz the tr helped me with two older kids and brot them to k2...BRAVO! happy with myself......and sat there was a highest no of kids who came...
btw tml is our 2nd anni...yeah
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, September 11, 2006
(
roar)
Sunday, September 10, 2006
hmmmm yesterday was a fine day for me and i had a great time with alex... he rented a car coz of me sick and sent me to ot and then to bt and then we go makan and then back his house toplayed uno... yesh i bot uno.. and i wanna buy jenga too...
muack thx alex btw the sms thing sux... making me nervous... and lousy system... fuck and i go there all the way and only paid me 6.5... haha lousy
everlasting? kissed /
- Sunday, September 10, 2006
(
greened)
Saturday, September 09, 2006
i am sick* ( )*_*( )
suffering slight food poisoning, dehyration and i had a vaccination on my arm... wooo painful and numb...
wad happen? myabe the pizza from a treat from a tr there who had striked lottery? or prev night seoul garden of eating tons and tons of squids and seafood..and meat... now doc says i have to go one vegetarian... and sorry for litle tots kids to those who think i will be coming to play game with them i disappointed u... ipromise next week ok... i'll be fine by then... hehe....
last night headache vomitted and suffered slight fever..vomitted at home.. and all the way to the clinic and a final one beofre i board on the car...sis was nice to come fetch me and so was my bro to offer... haiz... and supposed to go alex hse to stay over... but haiz... quarreled not only tt he dun even understand me and like putting all the blame on me... why must u cry? why can't u just say... but wtf... i told u i am unwell for three times and only the third time u realize why i cry... and i am not angry tt u ask me stay over and u meeting ya friend at night... wad do u mean we dun sleep early... so doea it means our spending time is only sleeping...i was angry with him .. him for being not understanding and so not him... hey i told u i am a crybaby so if u dun like u dun choose me! the tot of it makes me sad... he made me so helpless then.. tho sometimes u may be right but think for others ok... the next day i have long day work... i have to go childcare 9 to 2.. then go down oT to do sms... then work at 6 to 1030 a BT...
but everything is ok now... i am recovering and guess he will be visiting me today....so yesh go vegtarian eat plain bread and fruits and no seafood... so no sushi on monday gers... haiz...
everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, September 09, 2006
(
YAyaYA)
Thursday, September 07, 2006
wednesday waited for the boys for like near 1 hour just outside little tots then came a car with bursting sound of music... argh! then yesh went to taka and makan seoul garden coz we scared cocoa might be too ex... and yesh eat and eat.. then went home to domy a to z thing coz i realise my four years old kid dun really know how to recognize... so ya.. gotta help them...
thursday went out for a simple dinner... and yesh the kids are getting over my head... these two days i am like tigeress i really had no idea how to help the centre haha! haha i did candle drawing... circle game...
everlasting? kissed /
- Thursday, September 07, 2006
(
pizza Pizza)
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
wee went woodlands wow so many ideas for my concert thx for alex to be ard... shagz... and yesh tt thing u do or labamba... today taught them abt paper tearing and tml balloon and wax painting if can...
alex JIA YOU...
everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, September 05, 2006
(
pizza Pizza)
wee went woodlands wow so many ideas for my concert thx for alex to be ard... shagz... and yesh tt thing u do or labamba... today taught them abt paper tearing and tml balloon and wax painting if can...
alex JIA YOU...
everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, September 05, 2006
(
COunting days)
Monday, September 04, 2006
yawnz!
Friday
yesh teachers day and went to makan at swensen was a pleasant visit... then went hanabi to worked at night... yesh then was fetch by alex.. rent car again... and after work we head to holland .. coffee bean... i felt so pampered with a cheesecake... woooo... then sat down tok and played stupid game with don and alex... then home
Saturday
first day working on a saturday in little tots... lucky me and the other tr we had 4 chn... and all the while i am looking after them and the other tr was like doing her own thing.. and i brot my theme chart to put up and i had a chance only when the chn were eating... fun daytho... i made dough for the chn coz i was told tt there might be a max of 10 chn... damn the k2 kids love me... haha esp the dough i brot for them and they played like 1.5 hours and demand to play for more... coz it was their first time playing with so much dough given... and they played pizza and i was involved in the play too... fun! and i had to do closing alone! scary... first time... responsibility and lonliness... then 12 to 2 was their sleeping time.. yesh then b4 the chinese tr left at 12 we shifted to bay one and i am left with 3 chn... lucky me... then i cannot manage the chn they were all playing haha not listening to me.. i tried to read a book to them... but fail still not sleeping so then my mentor came out... hmmm firmed.. ought to learn frm her.. so ya.. then tired night worked at hanabi... sianz..but i think they have a choice not to sleep and rest ... haha
Sunday
work work work.. and alex came.. yesh yupie... happytho.. tml he is growing up i can feel the chnage,.. haha missing me babe.. haha jia you and good luck and courage for u...
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, September 04, 2006
(
car ridez)
Friday, September 01, 2006
today alex came to fetch me at little tots.. yesh it is teachers day today and i received three present in total... hehe so happy... and surprised.. so far i had taught three lesson.. this morning was woken by a call coz i am suppose to go at 3 and then they call me to ask me go early coz the trail tr din come... sian man...haha i am just a replacememt tr... so i shall prove myself over the weeks... show tt i can do it... but my chn.. haiz... rude! all i can say and dun listen to me... then love to touch the things on the shelf... touch my things... dun understamd the things i say.. i must think of some ways ah.. think sometime they are too much.. and they not as sweet as the younger kids..haha...isaac stubborn and screams but smart... haiz.. linette cheeky ger testing my patience... jasmine haiz... challeneging b'r still baby toks... and labelled by tr as slow and wasting parents money to be here.. and laeshvin... ultimate detroyer... gosh my class population max 16 min 9...haha... gosh
car ride today was great.. went to makan with alex and hismum and dad and auntie... then don drove... then went to pick up ben and fuming... so we went mount faber... yes thinking of where to go next.. then went to marina to bowl.. funny... hehe and i was scared of fuming ... but he seemed to be my bro tho so i like to play with him... haha then don pants were pulled down by benedict...and alex played bowling like hard gay... so cute... i love alex tho... and the feelings mixing ard withhis friends were quite comfy... and then went to makan prata... yummy my fav cheese prata... and tok and home...
wanna stayed out longer coz i seldom have chance to go out... like at night i'll be too late or the other day i have to work so i seldom go out... coz i always want myself to have ample rest... but thinking alex tml has gathering so since i am free then i go hanabi work at night earn more lor.. then sat i workign morning in little tots.. and night hanabi and sun ful at hanabi... then he going attachment le.. then like wad he says attachement he wil be tired so bet tt our meeting time will be less.. and weekends not to say tt i will be working... so why can't i spend more time now... sianz sia... so sad.. but i enjoyed the day tho... maybe it is night time... the emo time..haha..
tml makan at swensen at bp plaza... gonna go thr popular buy some materials... kind of scared to feel uncomfy with the rest of the teachers.,... argh*
everlasting? kissed /
- Friday, September 01, 2006
