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falling sick...)
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
collected my pay of 901.44 bucks... and i just realsie something deep in me today... i hate bdays... iz kind of sad.. tt whenevre pple's bday i took so much effort to organise and tots yet iz such stuff i myself had... hmmm....sad.... i'm tearing... wahhhhhh! F* lah....
okie tml i'm going back hanabi to celebrate emily's bday haha at 9.45...hmmm think she going like clubbing but no way for me... and then ya lah... hmmm gotta get her a present.. ARGH* I HATE BIRTHDAYS! hmmm but exceptional for my mum's... hmmm coz dad not ard and i think me working i shld give her a treat.. then supposed tt mum treating us as in we having a dinner tog tml...but sis can't make it so ya... hmmm sux*
alex pei me went to collect pay.. but then hmm things din turn out well i guess coz both of us were so tired and unwell.. and he's scared to pass the rashie to me... then i tot tml i can go walk walk with him... but no way now... coz he's having lesson till 5 then hmmm guess i gotta go alone... like wad he said sometimes shld be alone... hmmmm i kind of the time i spent alone... thinking nothing on the road... hmmm just plain walkiing... but tml i'm deciding on where to go ... hmmm i got stuff not done but kind of don't feel like doing... argh* sux...today i was quiet in sch friends asked if i'm OK? hmmm guess i'm totally fine but just down with flu... and lesson was like near 9 to 6 with just one hour break.. and the last tutorial sux coz we got stupid useless discussion... and then the whole day i'm sneezing and feeling SLEEPY*
hmmm btw the feeling back hanabi was great... coz i noe everyone and they ten me... yeah* hmmm wee and shino was back but she's just recovered from chicken pox.. so i shld like kind of distance away from her so i wun get or i shld stay near and then get it while i'm young... hmmmm... sian... tonight sux ba... hmmmm
my love life i rem during the self awareness lesson i told ming zhen while trying to introduce myself with this letter L... derived from A L E X J O Y... hmmm i told her my love life iz very impt to me... hmmmmmm today i had lots of tots... and many unhappy feelings came over me... hmmm i dunnoe wad i'm thinking too lah maybe i demand toooo much or wad ba... i seem to be telling him to ten me! EVERYDAY... i mean everytime we meet...haha* and there's lots of stuff in me... which me and me will noe only... i guess.... i dun understand the me... and i dun wan to....argh* maybe things are like this ba... when a r/s for quite sometimes it will turn out to be like this...???? maybe i dun feel confi at all ba............... = (
sad sad..................
everlasting? kissed /
- Tuesday, May 31, 2005
