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i am in this stat which i felt nth... nth and nth and i'm scared)
Thursday, June 16, 2005
these two days i've not been feeling like myself... i wondered wad wil happen if like this world iz like w/o me...will it makes a diff? when will i get pple whu really understands me? when i dun even understand myself? life seems stress and not stress...? and when when will it be the time when i have someone whu truely and really accept whu i am... i am tired of pacifying pple... whu will then appreciate me when everything becomes when u are mr nice guy and pple are climbing on u and yet now i am complaining...just a song or an image it will evoke thousands of tots in me... baby pull me out of the pit* if ya the one i'll be saved! i'll wait and i am still waiting and holding on to it... but i'm tired... real tired and drenched with pains... and tears...
think i'm getting to stress and tired recently le...anyway toking about my childcare cheers me up... act tml supposed to meet gillian but i think i need some time to rest...so i hoppe to change a time but dun think she get my msg...haiz... then ya lor... gotta work during weekends and then fri... hmmm i was crazy today... toking about BEN BEN JOEL SAMUEL...weeee.......they are my top favs... hehe and i got these two boys WET on their bed today and then wet my pants a bit too... hmmm today was a great day which everytime i worte long long entry on my book... i want to rem every moments i spent with them,... but when dri was there she kept stealing ben and joel... she's bias lor she only very ten joel...haha... hmmmm........ great memories and trinity iz like my =third home... hmmmmmmmmmm
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everlasting? kissed /
- Thursday, June 16, 2005
