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waiting and i'm waiting...)
Thursday, June 16, 2005
hmmm waiting for lex to reply me now... hmmm think it'll be any time frm now? hmmm... read his blog...hmmm he sounded sad... and i think iz all bout me... hmmm he did nothing wrong but i guess iz tt i'm just far way too sensitive in wadever thing he saqys about me... coz i always wanted someone to accept me as whu i am and not to pin point this and tt... and blah blah blah of all the bad exp...i think i need to build up lots of self confi in myself...
hmmm he said i seemed to miss something in me... and i guess i do ba... i lost the me... whom i am now looking for... but why????? where???? when????? will i ever find ME back... hmmm i teared again... hmmmm sad sad.... why.... coz of the words.. coz of everything ard me... coz.... of nothing....
i have not been a good fren... a goood daughter... a good GF... a good everything...maybe i'm too exhausted nowadays... down with work and work... hmmm.... shan't tok much now... i just want everything to be well for me... and will alex leave me coz of tt..???will he then get sick of all these crap tt i'm giving to him? he said he wun give up on me!!!!! wad will happen to me tml????
hmmm love alex...hugz*
everlasting? kissed /
- Thursday, June 16, 2005
