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drenched out of energy!)
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
hmmm tml having lesson at 9 which means i got to wake up at 7...and tml i got to work which is like omg... haha...was toking to alex at the bus stop today... hmmm before tt he told me he going to sentosa... hmmmm i felt abit hmmm not v gd about such thingy... but i think i shld try to let it go... coz i can't be like tt... i dunnoe why i dun feel real good the moment he told me tt? then images of him lying on the sand looking at gers walk passed... turns me off* hmmm maybe i think too much... then i was thinking am i too much to think like tt... hmmmm....am i? or izzit tt i got no confi of myself tt's why... or i got no faith in him? or due to prev exp? shld be bad exp ba... self convincing... hmmm contradicting man...!!!!!..maybe like wad WEN Z say to him which guys dun see gers......ya so true... so izzit like a retibution thingy... u lk at pple and pple lk at ya gf.. basically wad can u do at sentosa? but iz may be a good place to gather but provided whu's going cum iz tt guy organise one... i turn off le...i felt so bad... maybe i shld just mind my own business... and just do my work and continue my life...
then next was the topic of me!!!! work and work... i felt so crazily working for the sack of the money... which i need so much next mth... for wad? of course for the oncoming occassion? coz iz like one in a year wad... so hmmm... then iz the first time... i just dunnoe myself... i only always think of others and not myself or am i always thinking of myself thus i always think i am like wei da de ren? hmmmm i dunnoe wad i saying... but over years me kinda tired of such lives for giving so much and then being disgarded... SUX... then iz like hmmm learning values of life in my course and makes me think tt why must WE be perfect and not others... and now WE are suffering? i' tired i started to type crap since the first sentence... hmmmm sux lah....
hmmm thinking of all these things all so sucky... and now makes me thinks of last time we say we shld once go sentosa tog? my bday? haha i must really forget bout such incident... but i can't lah i just can''t bring myself to... i just love to tolture myself.... iz like on and off i'll think of it esp when something related trigger me again! hmmm sux lah... i wan to take time machine... of to the future also can... argh* somehow i think i shld save up and get a new phone myself ba... argh* i dunnoe... wad shld i do..? pple enlighten me? wad iz the situation now? izzit me finding my own trouble again... i think i am... sux... i have this ME! shoo*
anyway u study hard for ya own test k... and i shall take v good care of my body and work hard... i think... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, July 06, 2005
