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SELF TOTS!)
Monday, July 04, 2005
this morning i had SCV lesson which iz regarding self esteem and thingy which i think i myself have some low and high esteem? superb persimisstic-cal! then was FM! hmmmi studied it on sun during my work break... hmmm din really study coz i was so tired after half day of work... then auntie was toking to me then tok abt my family abit...she was like encouraging me to study hard and go overseas... hmmmm*
FM the lecturer din giv any lect coz the morning class din have then she wanna all classes to be at the same pace at her lecture so ... hmmm we ended early.. then went to sim to makan... sickt his morning got this AH NEH... drove truck past and waved at me... irritated me in the morning... sux* then was studying in lib... found ALEX in the lib... hehe was like distubing him.... fighting and struggling... the feeling iz like yeah we r good again and each time more loving.. and ya ....iz like some time after work having someone by my side thich iz him iz so good... the feeling iz xin fu* hmmm iz like so nice to hug him frm the back... when ya sick pple care and at least he's the one whu will care for my everything and anything... hmmmmmmmmmmmm* HUGZ.......
then was back to lesson... dle was total copying of ans... sux...haha... then hmmm end ard 1 h odds later... met dear and yuan hao... hmmm then went c1 to buy muah chee.,.. then got his lex fren wanna take pic of me for wad i wear then ask me how much i bot and blah blah... haha ... then he sent me to work and depart.... sad.....
WORK!!!!! sux today... i forgot to bring my locker key but at first i tot ok but when i wanna change then i realsie no i must hav my locker key to get my apron and pants...sux... then i went home and then took cab here... and u noe wad worse thing iz my colleagues were like hey dun play leh tt kind of attitude tok to me...i was a bit hurt but now hmmmm.... still sux lah... then all the while i was complaining to alex... hmmmm then was like sian lah.. but after realise was hmmm coz they v short of pple this afternoon and was like everone not in good mood... hmmm today jason helped out in the kitchen..hmmm.... then..... hmmm angus was irritating today... sux lah..... F* then i was cursing and swearing... sian... then i saw fuming gf... eunice and dad and mum came to eat... i was kind of envious... coz... hmmm just got this feeling tt... dad came back and always when i saw natasha my boss daughter i'll c the image of myself... teared*
somehow pple shldn't always think back coz iz no good so i shall just hmmmm ... wadever lah... say le no one will noe too... coz pple will always think tt they're the worst... haiz.....................................................like the perceived me...haha...
i want my *POWERS*!!!!haha i'm searching for it... oh ya suddenly tot of mel... weeee stay happy.... hug...
hmmmmmmm ya... now i got a goal and i shall work towards it... but i got too many things to do this week le... wad am i suppose to do... i'm working for next 5 days... sux big time... i'll die......................................... think maybe i shant stay for childcare this wed.... sux... i got no good time management!!!!
hmmmmmmmmmm........... i hope i can cope with my stress... argh* hope alex will noe wad i'm going thru and be more understanding... i've been v bad... i shouted at mum SHUT UP... coz i find tt... i've been supporting myself...and i think she shant care much for me le.... haiz............ i've been bad.. i want to turn good... haha... SUX...can someone wake me up... and i was so damn irritated tt dad nearly threw my zebra i made away... i was like.... hey i made this and u guys throwing it away and come on i din put it on the dinning table i left it on my own table so dun touch it K! ANGER! hmph...
hmmmm i miss my friends when are we going to catch up?chong? sam?r u all losing faith in me? am i a good fren afterall?
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, July 04, 2005
