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wad am i suppose to do? dilema)
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
i am having irritated throat now...sux... today went to find dear in the afternoon then evening time went china town get watch...haha but sad tt that time the stall he saw not opened... spend almost the day with him...yeah! pleasant and good...! and i saw this kid on the bus in fornt of us...ahhh so cute playing with me haha
monday monday went to hanabi eat at first met him in the afternoon then went queensway to walk then went mac...baby kept hmmm bu shuang the pple bside us...coz... ya* then ... then after walking we both get ourselves a pair of slippers...then went over there... kaoz...wnet there my heart beat fast..all the bosses here today ah...then finally XW noes how hard it is to be a host in front...haha...sometimes it is good to all take turns...yeah! then as usual they are so busy... then i reach there i booked table 17... then went toliet... hehe dear got me ocha...but i wanna ice ocha... then rick pass me paper and pen to get my own order... haha usually i recommend the food but tt day like not much food to eat and the food overall not so nice too ah.!i mean not as great ba... then baby and me order sake our hose pour sake...then after tt the two guys siao...they wanna get wines...then they decided to get white wine... then ya lor... hehe the whole dinner was great and ihad great fun bullying YH...and i matchmake him and shirleen and in the end got his no but is jason's....haha...overall everything was ok...then angus say go for a drink at cha cha.. then ok lo...
the night i left sux man...then went there okok one,..waited for everyone to fin work then went there we each get a beyonco 7-up... hmmm then the guys like jack and angus came...kaoz... but xiao mao came too...then sick jack and angus started to say me...say me chest small and all the stuff and ended saying i am a nice ger....like wad my alex said in his blog i am like tt de la... kaoz... i din noe i am like tt ot him...then ok wadever... ya i was said by them and iz like my dear is there and he is not even there to protect me and i am said by pple... how do u feel? kaoz... but at least finally he noe how i felt then... the feeling iz like kaoz... i feel like leaving the place and pouring my cup on drink on them..then i kept rening lo...then dear also din do anything! just keep asking if i am crying or wad... argh* the feeling is just like u saying me tt time rem... argh*..then the boss came james and uncle thomas...kao james put his hands over my shoulder...then he bring the coming bday jack to TIGER BAR!!!!! wad kind of man are they... jameswife is pregnant now lor... sux...FLIRT!!!! then after at the bus stop we wanted to catch the last bus,..then alex was toking to yuan hao and me and xiao mao toking...then ya lor... i was so bek chel and sad tt no matter wad i will go home myself... on the other side my man was telling me to get on the bus 67...if i get on the bus then he will take yh bro car home..is like wtf... then i bek chek till i take cab home w/o saying a word to anyone there...
i may be a bitch or wadever to do tt... but at the moment i cannot control myself ma!!!! then wad do u expect from me... i am facing so many things at home and outside i got to face this kinda of things... things are so UNFAIR to me... i just realise tt pple like to use words to hurt me... and i dunnnoe why? coz i am too nice to be bully?> or wtf... alex din like me to say these kinda stuff... coz he scared i will cry again... but i am better now at lest i dun cry almost every night now... haha* wadeverit is... i am prepared and everything... prepared on wad i cannot say but i am a rash person whu does things and will not regret...
i get agitated easily for this kind of things... i guess i got low self esteem?
somehow i am still not used to my own hair...and i had not started on my study..i think i am gonna fail big time.. haha
then dad was back and mum is like to me she is not showning app concern... i think...she kept bothering dad abouyt work and money,...which is like so sucky tho daad did say anything...and mum is like keep nagging... i noe she is worried but do use ya brain and think ok!!!!!!!! sux ...i hate my life
everlasting? kissed /
- Wednesday, September 07, 2005
