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Monday, March 06, 2006
Monday was a sad and happy day out with him..haha i got no idea how to explain but we had a hard time...
i can't help been unhappy for the past few weeks... frist was exams... then my dad then work... i felt sad tt i had to work full this holi not resting... same as any normal days... this kinda life so suckie and boring man...
i need some spices and herbs to add in the soup to make it taste better and appealing... ARGH*
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heard from her that she is fine now... waiting for his call... wondering they wil be fine anot? she had a complicated life unlike anyone of us... this year this day i met this friend of the same cca with me and we been sticked tog and been thru all things tog i guess... her life is really like drama...
first was her family... living in extended family w uncles and aunties... parents in china... mum seen like once a year thing... grandma been bad and mean... things always does not goes well for her... studies din went good and went to a course she dunlike... always indecisive to make choices... met this guy which was then we went on doube date... then this guy in his work place who threatened her... then another guy whom she had crushed and got no and he gave her no sense of security... and now two timing... love on guy and unsure of how to break up with the other....
he sort of broke the promise he gave her once not to meet the ex... and shefound out and she nearly wanted to kill herself... yes she is stubborn and very i know... but what she spoke to me last night made me felt so lost and angry with her tt... I DUN WANNA LOSS A FRIEND... she in fact we are like sisters.... but close friends who meet once a year tt kind tho we live near...
due to family thingy we dependent more on bfs and friends than on family.... at least i felt glad tt she called... and she asked tt i cut myself before... i did... i used a compass and a pen knife before... but it was just a spur of emotions... which the cuts are not deep....
i undersatnd how she feels.... and so i wish to wake her up to senses that things may not be what she tot to be... and she sometimes must not be so stubborn on certain things... and tempe to be not so bad... she is bad and mean at times... but now i found tt she had found some one who she really wanna be with... so i dun wan her to give up... coz it was all becoz she had not officially broke up with the other guy and tt was why so many things happen to them....
BLESSED you my friend... wadever happens to you will not make him regret coz sooner later he will forget about u ... and we love u... if u ever dies... i'll hate u... to leave me alone... and to break our promises too
everlasting? kissed /
- Monday, March 06, 2006
