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Love bcomez Hatred)
Sunday, July 02, 2006
his words in sentences in a snap of fingers can bring me to hell.
each time it happens it brings me to many other scene of similar situation.
WHY? i ask? why he must do this to me?
am i wrong to voice how i feel?
am i wrong to be sensitive?
i am wrong to be sad?
all caused of the word "ideal"
I am a demanding soul...
i begged for love and care...
i ought to be nun in future...
i had not lost faith in u...
but i just wonder WHY man are all like tt?
it is not tt u guys are not devoted and dun love...
it is just sometimes wad u say is so simple...
sometimes just takes things for granted...
i mean i do tt at times too.
i felt so hurt...
yes like wad u say we had been tog...
for so long...
I definitely have faith in u,...
and tt makes me more sad tt...
it contradicts...
yes i hav faith but why is it each time u say such tings?
each time it pierces my heart so deep and it makes my heart pumped so hard.. and so hard to breath..
I wish to die tt moment..
but i can't..
"Desires" Dreams" Fantasizes"
wad are they?
I dun have them...why? coz i am not men
i had changed so much since the first time... and i had been more sensitive since the last time
i hate myself somehow...
but wad can i do
i cry to release the pain in me...
i go against my body...
tears may burst any moment any time.. and each time i think of how his words hurt it make me teared...
felt so useless and dumb...
why shld i care for all the things he said and done?
coz i love him...
i ought to * * * spare me...
i hate ******
everlasting? kissed /
- Sunday, July 02, 2006
