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Saturday, September 23, 2006
once again i feel lonely at home.... haiz... wad to do maybe i shld work then...haha not use to stay at home even for like 7 till now... just now was doing my research... so thankful to my sis.. and i manage to contact the reef walking pple.. and they replied me fast and good news... just tt if we really wanna bring the kids along rite will be like $300 for a grp of 10 pax... but think i will get the chn to pay then the rest we subsidy! gosh!
just now was playing uno alone... damn boring sia till mum came in then was like hey u wanna play wif me.. then ya played one round and i am back here blogging.! this relaxation time make me think of my future... think i am going for the early childhood line? haha i wanna go do volunteer work for rainbow centre after reading thru the web site.. the kids look adorable tho theyare special... good exposure tho... after this sem do some volunteer work to stop making myself coop with work will be a wonder i guess...
this shall be another boring long blog...
wad exactly do i want? what am i here on the earth for? at least i am fortunate! and thru all the things i had been thru! i had grown up... independently... earning own money to support my own daily allowance... gosh few years passed le...hehe hmmmlooking back so many small things happen and make me so emotionally hurt in r/s? family life? loss faith in friends? haha gosh i act love my life now tho... sadistic tho!
now i have consideration on my mind... like i want a nose piercing... haha tempted by the india tr in the centre... haha and definitely a tattoo coming out soon... of my name... my fav name... on maybe my shoulder...of back down my hips... perhaps something BIG! haha like andels koi all the back and till his ass.. OUCH! btw now listening to jay song and learning how to sing wanna go k some day...
cant wait to meet sam tho... MISS her so many things and i am at all ears to hear her wonderful complicated life ... than anyone... but sad tt i am so occupied to be along with her but we have both all the time in our heartspirtually tho...
bro i think getting registered on 9th oct not official marriagen but on paper they are... just bcoz to get the pr... he seems so stingy ... on the wedding ring and says think like wait till then have money then say and they get pr i think is for their own hse... gosh they must be saving! haha... anyway best wishes to u ... hope u have a good famiy and u will be a big boy after u married and look after the hse... if my sis in law ever move in in this current rented hse gosh up side down my hse will be... i will loss my own sis... hah and i will move out on my own and shun even think of studying part time degree... and i wanna learn bike too... think car is cool and big ever since alex drove me ard but i really wanna try on bike i think iz like cool! i was scared when i was once on andels huge bike? scooter? hhza my fingers cant stop typing iz like wad i am tinking and it is like typing down... i dunnoe since when my typing skills were so good then... haiz
gosh my back iz aching! life is boring yet interesting thrilling in a way that u wanna spent it like tml is never coming... haha... btw last night was fun walking with alex... where did we walk? hmmm bugis? haha i was sent home from cck then i was like i dun wanna go home so early.. so yesh and we endeed up walking frm little india to hanabi there.. and home? haha and he managed to get last bus...
some time life get borng one one is out of money means no money.. then u wun feel like going any where and u wun be happy and u will be in debts... haha just the tot of the day...
wad did i learn in this 1 mth odd in little tots... hmmm i guess i learn to wash kids after shitting.. and i got bullied for eing too nice as the chn were used to beating so they see me they bully me and sometimes too much that makes me so angry... and i find tt i am lousy coz i am not hardworking enuff? haha coz wad i had learnt i did not do much for the kids coz the tot of must spend my own money turns me off. and the kids teach le still dunnoe and dunnoe how to use the things so i shun... the idea of having so many chn in my class... sucks... eeeek next year i am planning on a trip to shanghai.. to visit my dad i supose? haha never close and i wanna go coz the place is good i love shanghai...coz so far i ahd only been to like austrailia... and shanghai... pathetic... last my parents rich too busy to go out... see now broke le i must fork out money myself...gosh!
big head big head! i want to strangle my kids...dunnoe wad to get for their chn day present any cheap present each $1 budget... cheapo tr rite... haiz hahha coz end of the mth tr gonna have a hole in the pocket... now hfmd... a big prob ... pray for joon kiat the cute boy and wei xian who pees in his pants! always even tho i alway ask him to pee! haiz think parents u really play an important to nurture ya child... see wad happen...if u dun tok to your kids ya kids turn slow...haha
i feel handicap tho! a big word but deep meaning ... i feel like in hospital with my lappy on my lap and i am not mving except my fingers...
my loneliness is always here whenever alex is away from me... shelfish thinking but it had been a habit... coz he pampered me too much? i other ways that he can? arrrrrggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh ultimate boring...i wanna slp but not too early i wanna go out but i am tired but where to? i dun like to club i dun like to drink? i am saving up? short of money? i am chomp chomp stuck at home in this bed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh FUCK
everlasting? kissed /
- Saturday, September 23, 2006
